(06-24-2016, 07:42 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(06-24-2016, 07:35 AM)RTBoss Wrote:(06-24-2016, 07:33 AM)Light Wrote: hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?
I lost my virginity 16 years ago, so no.
Ahem... I had a question tho (hope it's not stupid) BUT... if you're not planning to mess around with your marriage, why on earth are you running AOSI??
Not stupid at all.
REALLY FUCKING STUPID.
Just kidding.
I said it somewhere on the forum, but essentially I'm looking to get some of the sexual spark we had early on in our relationship back. I read about marriages where the woman is the one left wondering why her husband doesn't want to have sex with her anymore. My marriage is the opposite. Sex is a cornerstone of life for me. My wife? Not-so-much. She could take it or leave it. I don't get it. She has an orgasm 2-4 times in 5 minutes. What's not to like?
Another reason, if I'm being completely honest, is ego. I want to know what it's like to feel like a piece of meat. I want to be lusted after. I want to see the hunger in their eyes, and turn it down, lol. I'm just hoping it's not as hard as it could turn out to be. So that part's a little scary.
I also want to rid myself of GSF revolving around women & sex. I was raised in a Christian "keep-it-in-your-pants," until you're married, virginity is special, porn-is-the-devil (bad boy for looking at that Playboy!), how dare you think of a girl like that who you haven't married yet...you get the picture. I feel like that crap still affects me to this day. I also have GSF around my self-image. So experience being viewed as sexy, wanted, etc. will do wonders for my self-esteem. I'm tired of judging myself all the time, I want that cycle to end.
Finally, I guess I wanna test my mettle. Can I resist? Would I throw it all away for a little fun on the side? I'd like to think I wouldn't. Perhaps I'm playing with fire. I guess we'll find out.
