06-24-2016, 01:28 AM
Stage 2, Day 32
Three words for this stage - negativity, anger, envy - at ninja level.
I don't remember having such an intense month - I was like an emotional nuclear bomb. Now I was happy with myself, two minutes later I hated everyone including myself.
Bad dreams, terrible, intense and weird. At least they weren't related to death&co. like the 1st stage. Overall, my sleep quality severely decreased since I started BASE.
I think I lost control of my reactions, my decisions. The drive to go to the gym dropped a lot; I'm lethargic most of the time, e.g. I spent the last weekend watching movies, etc.
My self-esteem and inner confidence declined, many things I thought were solved popped-up in my mind. I hated everything related to my body, my looks, the place I'm living, my accomplishments, my friends, and so on.
Still, despite this emotional downside, I continued with my so-called business (I will call it business when it starts to generate revenue).
Business Side
My website is almost ready. It took me three weeks to have it in place exactly the way I wanted. I started from absolute zero as I had no previous experience with Wordpress and the theme I'm using. Plus, I was picky about the design, so I did a lot of trial and errors.
I'm super happy with the result, and my friends who have seen it told me it looks very professional. Now, I only need to start writing exceptional content to stand out and generate traffic. If everything goes well, from September I should start making the first sales.
Off topic
I reconnected with someone who made a definite difference in my professional life three years ago. Last year he deleted me from his Facebook list due to some differences in opinions - it was quite childish from both parts if I look retrospectively. I don't know if this reconnection will bring something as we live in different cities, but I'm genuinely happy for this. Again, he helped when I least expected and he didn't have any particular interest.
In the first two weeks of this month, I received intense looks from women everywhere I went. Maybe it was because I had a new expensive haircut and was wearing nice clothes most of this time. Anyway, the reactions from women were incredibly positive.
That's it for now. Looking back, I think I will stay with one post per stage. It helps me see things objectively.
Best!
Three words for this stage - negativity, anger, envy - at ninja level.
I don't remember having such an intense month - I was like an emotional nuclear bomb. Now I was happy with myself, two minutes later I hated everyone including myself.
Bad dreams, terrible, intense and weird. At least they weren't related to death&co. like the 1st stage. Overall, my sleep quality severely decreased since I started BASE.
I think I lost control of my reactions, my decisions. The drive to go to the gym dropped a lot; I'm lethargic most of the time, e.g. I spent the last weekend watching movies, etc.
My self-esteem and inner confidence declined, many things I thought were solved popped-up in my mind. I hated everything related to my body, my looks, the place I'm living, my accomplishments, my friends, and so on.
Still, despite this emotional downside, I continued with my so-called business (I will call it business when it starts to generate revenue).
Business Side
My website is almost ready. It took me three weeks to have it in place exactly the way I wanted. I started from absolute zero as I had no previous experience with Wordpress and the theme I'm using. Plus, I was picky about the design, so I did a lot of trial and errors.
I'm super happy with the result, and my friends who have seen it told me it looks very professional. Now, I only need to start writing exceptional content to stand out and generate traffic. If everything goes well, from September I should start making the first sales.
Off topic
I reconnected with someone who made a definite difference in my professional life three years ago. Last year he deleted me from his Facebook list due to some differences in opinions - it was quite childish from both parts if I look retrospectively. I don't know if this reconnection will bring something as we live in different cities, but I'm genuinely happy for this. Again, he helped when I least expected and he didn't have any particular interest.
In the first two weeks of this month, I received intense looks from women everywhere I went. Maybe it was because I had a new expensive haircut and was wearing nice clothes most of this time. Anyway, the reactions from women were incredibly positive.
That's it for now. Looking back, I think I will stay with one post per stage. It helps me see things objectively.
Best!
