Went to the mall today to pick up my new shoes. Screw Dick's Sporting Goods online site. They supposedly had the color I wanted that's out-of-stock EVERYWHERE, but had my order status as "Item Located In Stock" for over a week. Finish Line at the mall - same price. I went with black. Whatever, it goes with everything.
In other news, I got a haircut. I usually get one once a month, but I've been more obsessed with keeping up with it. I've even been researching new haircuts, like side-parting and point cuts, razer cuts, etc.
Back to picking up my shoes - I'm walking past Victoria's Secret, and out comes a 10/10 bombshell. SHOCKED THE SH!T out of me. There are women I find attractive, and sometimes I feel like, "Why aren't I feeling more attracted?" This shock, I could FEEL.
It was like a rocket bloomed out of my chest and blasted her. It must have been energy + my own awareness of extreme fear. I looked away, and couldn't look more. I was hoping she got blasted by some AOSI Voodoo Magic, but alas, she disappeared from sight when I looked back over my shoulder. Man, I feel like such a pussy. One of the things, being married, is I auto-cockblock myself. I figure, "Why even talk to her? There's nothing I could do. It's all ego, yada-yada." What the hell is wrong with being friends with a hot chick that wants your D? I gotta get over that sh!t.
Then yesterday, I had a mental fantasy of sleeping with my wife's sister. She's local, I see her all the time - but not since I started AOSI. I've dreamt about her lately. But, the fear was real. What if she came on to me? Would I say, "No?" Could I say, "No?" Would I risk everything I know to sleep with her? It felt like such a real possibility that it put me into a panic. I'm over it now, but yesterday was something to deal with.
In other news, I got a haircut. I usually get one once a month, but I've been more obsessed with keeping up with it. I've even been researching new haircuts, like side-parting and point cuts, razer cuts, etc.
Back to picking up my shoes - I'm walking past Victoria's Secret, and out comes a 10/10 bombshell. SHOCKED THE SH!T out of me. There are women I find attractive, and sometimes I feel like, "Why aren't I feeling more attracted?" This shock, I could FEEL.
It was like a rocket bloomed out of my chest and blasted her. It must have been energy + my own awareness of extreme fear. I looked away, and couldn't look more. I was hoping she got blasted by some AOSI Voodoo Magic, but alas, she disappeared from sight when I looked back over my shoulder. Man, I feel like such a pussy. One of the things, being married, is I auto-cockblock myself. I figure, "Why even talk to her? There's nothing I could do. It's all ego, yada-yada." What the hell is wrong with being friends with a hot chick that wants your D? I gotta get over that sh!t.
Then yesterday, I had a mental fantasy of sleeping with my wife's sister. She's local, I see her all the time - but not since I started AOSI. I've dreamt about her lately. But, the fear was real. What if she came on to me? Would I say, "No?" Could I say, "No?" Would I risk everything I know to sleep with her? It felt like such a real possibility that it put me into a panic. I'm over it now, but yesterday was something to deal with.
