day 22, feeling mixed up, sadness. notice I Judge some action as needy while this feeds in this vibe and thus be4come neediness, while its not needy at all from the start. challenging myself more and my taste in women is shifting.
Feel the sub dig deeper.
Adopting the "its easy|"mindet. something shifts, and am pretty much fearless when out now. Lots is coming together, the urgency and abundance. It shows. Why adopting it? because it works. the end.
In and out of state in public, approaches went fine, realized more about the vibe i bring out, how supra-confidence dominating reality sets me apart. people tend to bring up random shit when initiating conversation, like this guy who brought in his dog.
Its an adding of value, bringing my value in their world instead of wanting something from them. One woman was struggling with their kid and gave me the deer in the headlights look, made me laugh through self amusement, life is fun, do't take it personally and just fucking around, its pretty funny to see the responses from people. Its all the same basically although this girl with that nice ass who was threwing many IOI's, such as eye contacting, hair play, buttdisplays ( fuck me daddy ) and neck exposing, my brain shutted down. I noticed my eye contact with some women was solid. 2 older women ( not grannies ), one of them gave the biggest smile, she was radiating.
Great reference experiences. Not feeling like writing more about it.\
Edit: noticing an trend yet don't care nor attach to it, is that some people try to put me down through giving me names, like an act of dominance or some sorts, like, they sense it and now try to minimize me a bit. Its all playfull in the end, but its something that I notice since stage 4. before it didn't happen.
Edit2: massive stirring of emotions, including apathy and feeling like curling up in an ball. Also I seem to catch glimpses of the E1 thats in AM6. Somehow I find this funny after the intensity is slowly passing and it makes sense, my body is incredibly restless. there is growth currently going on and its steering in the right direction. Still feeling tense and worn out, my body slightly convulsed when letting it happen or at least an attempt. It seems the struggle in my subconscuious ground is slowly won over by AM6. Mindfog and sadness still ebb and flow.
Feel the sub dig deeper.
Adopting the "its easy|"mindet. something shifts, and am pretty much fearless when out now. Lots is coming together, the urgency and abundance. It shows. Why adopting it? because it works. the end.
In and out of state in public, approaches went fine, realized more about the vibe i bring out, how supra-confidence dominating reality sets me apart. people tend to bring up random shit when initiating conversation, like this guy who brought in his dog.
Its an adding of value, bringing my value in their world instead of wanting something from them. One woman was struggling with their kid and gave me the deer in the headlights look, made me laugh through self amusement, life is fun, do't take it personally and just fucking around, its pretty funny to see the responses from people. Its all the same basically although this girl with that nice ass who was threwing many IOI's, such as eye contacting, hair play, buttdisplays ( fuck me daddy ) and neck exposing, my brain shutted down. I noticed my eye contact with some women was solid. 2 older women ( not grannies ), one of them gave the biggest smile, she was radiating.
Great reference experiences. Not feeling like writing more about it.\
Edit: noticing an trend yet don't care nor attach to it, is that some people try to put me down through giving me names, like an act of dominance or some sorts, like, they sense it and now try to minimize me a bit. Its all playfull in the end, but its something that I notice since stage 4. before it didn't happen.
Edit2: massive stirring of emotions, including apathy and feeling like curling up in an ball. Also I seem to catch glimpses of the E1 thats in AM6. Somehow I find this funny after the intensity is slowly passing and it makes sense, my body is incredibly restless. there is growth currently going on and its steering in the right direction. Still feeling tense and worn out, my body slightly convulsed when letting it happen or at least an attempt. It seems the struggle in my subconscuious ground is slowly won over by AM6. Mindfog and sadness still ebb and flow.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
