Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

I assume this will make it a challenge for me to go back to E2 if it works as desired.. but I said i'd test it. It's good it has OGSF and self validation too.

I still have a strong desire to go back to E2. Not sure why I feel this way? It will be interesting if you share the same thoughts after testing AOSI V2...

I'm finding it hard to let go of E2, too. I suppose its designed that way. Just can't visualize a goal state that I'd like to achieve with E2 in a way that'd motivate to stay on the program for an indefinite time, like for one year or two years. I get this picture of living happily and quietly in a big house near a river or something with a little family, but I'm definitely resisting that by conscious choice, and don't really like the idea of running it for that long because of that resistance. It does give a new perspective, but.. just no. I think if I went with it, I'd have to do a full 180 when I came back to my what my goals *actually* are. And Shannon just said something like "its just stupid to run a program that you know you're going to resist" to another user (related to AOSI).

So its like, if you want to stay married, don't run AOSI; if you want to be driven, dominant & sexy with the ladies, don't run E2? That's considering the end goal that the whole program is aimed towards, and that you will be resisting if you don't agree with fully. Sure you can run E2 for X months to help clear the way for AM/BASE/SM runs to come, but where is the tradeoff point there; what's optimal? A year seems to be recommended? If not resisting the program requires the user to fully accept the goal of the program for him, then I have serious doubts I can just adapt my inner wants to 100% coincide with whatever program I'm running at the time, in some cases possibly reversing some wants completely, on demand.

Note that I am not claiming any fault on the programs. I'm just thinking out loud, because I'm trying to flesh out what it is that I want, and what program from the current selection best fits that. All the mentioned programs are great; I just want to find one I can agree fully and not resist because of a conflict in goals.

E2 is designed to keep you using it until you are healed sufficiently. It's designed that way to prevent wimping out before it's done it's job. But it's not intended to keep you using it forever. Just until it's done doing it's job.

When it's done, you'll quite naturally move on from it, and come back when you need more.