Resistance all over, transitioning, not knowing who I am. progress. Also, feeling so tense, can't make eye contact which shows it through other peoples way and how they treat me. Basically very asleep and my subconscious wanting to escape and trying to throw massive tantrums now and fights. Makes me think about Robert greenes death ground stuff. Discomfort is actually valuable. I dont belief in the whole comfort thing and seduction in that manner, tension and an taste of danger keeps things alive.
More resistance at work.
Realized attraction is freeflowing something and feeling zen now, paradoxial and feeling sexy as fuck. beliefs are lifted now. People turn heads, aswell as seeing all people as an connection point to the point its like an magnet drawing to eachtoher. euphoric, floating.
Girl at the store gave me the blue eyes and smirk kind of look, beautiful eyes, cute. Feeling my value and status rising.
Noticing opposite patterns. I'm not feelign this and that"brain: turns on light switch and become socially savage and ravening.
Strong reactions at work about being told to do shit, subconscious goes with its heels in the sand.
More present instead of being in my head and an upfollowing trend. Thoughts of being, flowing, living instead of journaling.
More resistance at work.
Realized attraction is freeflowing something and feeling zen now, paradoxial and feeling sexy as fuck. beliefs are lifted now. People turn heads, aswell as seeing all people as an connection point to the point its like an magnet drawing to eachtoher. euphoric, floating.
Girl at the store gave me the blue eyes and smirk kind of look, beautiful eyes, cute. Feeling my value and status rising.
Noticing opposite patterns. I'm not feelign this and that"brain: turns on light switch and become socially savage and ravening.
Strong reactions at work about being told to do shit, subconscious goes with its heels in the sand.
More present instead of being in my head and an upfollowing trend. Thoughts of being, flowing, living instead of journaling.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
