people feel compelled to re3spond in my presence. I notice aswell behaviour in other people that they stand closer to their girl, as an sort of protection mechanism, kind of treatened sense.
getting comments on my fragrance, people greet more easily, some woman gave the biggest smile when I lewft my groceries at teh roof of my care, told her to give it to me while staying in the car. had the biggest smile on her face.
Lots of fears coming up and doubts again, unable to shake it. Its where my attention goes to but it is overwhelming at times. also watching some RSDtyler stuff but know the locus of control lies within.
currently open, present, dominant and thoughtless. Women are all in my environment, playing their hair aswell as its like Paradise around me. other times im antisocial bordering harsh rude and like an rock, annoyed by people peoples behaviours aswell, as it annoys me. static almost. Eye contact improves further.
having some mayor fears still going around wanting to release them but sacrifices will be made along this journey.
State transferance is a thing suddenly. Also realizing the sub moves way beyond pick up.
Abolish all limiting belifs. become like water. empty. ASlso, shedding nice guy stuff is an fear thats being dissolved. There might be an retraction from interest, but shedding actually makes me more `rough`and enhances sexuality. no shift in standards, but rather an shift in something more primal.
Freefall currently, dying. Not knowing what will end up as my new being. All other stuff in this journal is former, right now im transitioning. I want to let everything go. Everything is being let go. Going internal.
feeling somewhat savage.
getting comments on my fragrance, people greet more easily, some woman gave the biggest smile when I lewft my groceries at teh roof of my care, told her to give it to me while staying in the car. had the biggest smile on her face.
Lots of fears coming up and doubts again, unable to shake it. Its where my attention goes to but it is overwhelming at times. also watching some RSDtyler stuff but know the locus of control lies within.
currently open, present, dominant and thoughtless. Women are all in my environment, playing their hair aswell as its like Paradise around me. other times im antisocial bordering harsh rude and like an rock, annoyed by people peoples behaviours aswell, as it annoys me. static almost. Eye contact improves further.
having some mayor fears still going around wanting to release them but sacrifices will be made along this journey.
State transferance is a thing suddenly. Also realizing the sub moves way beyond pick up.
Abolish all limiting belifs. become like water. empty. ASlso, shedding nice guy stuff is an fear thats being dissolved. There might be an retraction from interest, but shedding actually makes me more `rough`and enhances sexuality. no shift in standards, but rather an shift in something more primal.
Freefall currently, dying. Not knowing what will end up as my new being. All other stuff in this journal is former, right now im transitioning. I want to let everything go. Everything is being let go. Going internal.
feeling somewhat savage.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
