Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel regarding confused an messed up feelings, feelings tied to monogamy, its raher an sense of independence, playfullness, cockyness and direct action taking in an euphoric way, confidence being victorious over gsf, cocky arrogance and primal dominance. I'm not sure if it is state shifting that is happening, but I can only be dominant and when an girl wants/tries to take the lead its rather funny and amateuristic in my eyes. Right now I feel the sub working on and I'm getting more and more zen, at ease, stable, congrugent and confident. ( day 9 )
stage 4 is an enourmous beast, self reliance and choice mixed in with SM lead in and much more.
ps: I seem to cause sexual feelings in women. Had another women yesterday basically go all sexual extravert like some sort of online orgy or whatever haha. Just playing on it.
Read an journal online stating you don't need to pass shittests at all. lately I seem to ignore them totally aswell but know I can be more dominant in that manner, more "bad" and not giving a fuck.
stronger seductive draw in frame, like an magnet and euphoric agressive presence, totally unhinged. I'm absolutely sexy and a 10. Absolutely and truly.
having more tension and other feelings surface. Experience more some sort of energetic field around me, yet feeling somewhat separated form other people. Also boundaries in terms of I snap quicker at people who push in traffic and become pretty much agressive and hostile
Making strong eye contact yet still at times avoid it. When i do its being present and looking straight through their eyes, almost being an raw force like this girl at my gym.
stage 4 is an enourmous beast, self reliance and choice mixed in with SM lead in and much more.
ps: I seem to cause sexual feelings in women. Had another women yesterday basically go all sexual extravert like some sort of online orgy or whatever haha. Just playing on it.
Read an journal online stating you don't need to pass shittests at all. lately I seem to ignore them totally aswell but know I can be more dominant in that manner, more "bad" and not giving a fuck.
stronger seductive draw in frame, like an magnet and euphoric agressive presence, totally unhinged. I'm absolutely sexy and a 10. Absolutely and truly.
having more tension and other feelings surface. Experience more some sort of energetic field around me, yet feeling somewhat separated form other people. Also boundaries in terms of I snap quicker at people who push in traffic and become pretty much agressive and hostile
Making strong eye contact yet still at times avoid it. When i do its being present and looking straight through their eyes, almost being an raw force like this girl at my gym.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
