mor women in my direct environment are locking eyes, eye contact is getting more deep and seductive. I felt something kick in just now, had the trickling stream on all night and will ad 2 extra days to it. Today is day 5, had an few hours this weekend, but 2 extra days will be added.
At times I feel like an mix between the movie the matrix and the movie limitless by undersztanding stuff, like an deeper reality seeing. My eyes have this quality at them now.
Also kids seem to behave more differently around me. Like, placing themselves on purpose in my environment.
had some other girl yesterday at an store lock eyes with me, she seemed slightly into trance and had these delays to her, like "oh yes, I went doing xyz"
facing more insecurities, AM6 lets me zoom in and introspect the ovbvious which I was clue less to before. Discuss when stuff isn't right. I also have an focus on my spelling lately.
The alpha lion and leader of man. Not some white knighting but an position that stretches out. More mature and less attached, more at peace with myself.
Seeing people as my employees. Strong drawing to the girls in my direct environment, current girl lives 2,5 hours car traveling.
having some trauma in terms of feeling trapped, abandonment.
Sexual but authoritarian.
met with some friends yesterday and notice I'm less picky in my words and more plain arrogant and commanding, which rubs some poeople the qrong way yet will not inhibit myself over it anymore. People seem to directly engage and quslify more strongly now. It was telling, something felt off, like, it was an more obvious kind of setting. Have some iritation around being disrespected lately, yet at the same time there is some sense of awe coming from people. eye loking results more in an eye locking back. Really thrilled to get to know how AOS and stage 4 will unravel.
Also, I ahve strong responses with the current girl. Writing about it makes me sleepy even, there is some sort of resistance therem, and when I let go its as if I re-centre.
eating more but not putting on fat, Increasing my food intake makes me more defined, or, atleast it seems so.
Manifestation is all around me.
Did read some journals around AOSI 5.5G and the combo with stage 4 and this I can only imagine as an massive killer combination.
Thoughts around filling an void in the other and how words have power in that, it opens another world.
I understand BD's sex outlook, also, more bedpartners to experience, by getting experience in different ways. My eyes currently have still this sex quality to them, or it is the SM lead in, not sure. But, its as if an fire is kindled inside in terms of sex.
Feeling very unhinged, my concentration is pretty much absent, having lots of negativity and tension surfacing, almost bordering on mini-breakdowns, makign mke confused aswell, the sub is drilling in as we speak.
I'm getting increasingly more looks and getting eye fucked more.
Need to handle possible one-itis aswell, yet I am aware and feels like an sort of breakthrough in terms of experiences and feelings, its like an pressure in my head pushing me into some kind of frame. Introspection. There is lots behind it aswell, possible some underestimation as some sort of belief or anythign like that, happens mostly via tekst, face to face its unphasing me. Many beliefs are hidden behind it possibly including outcome. yet the weirdest part is when I allow the resistance to dissolve its suddenly all good.
At times I feel like an mix between the movie the matrix and the movie limitless by undersztanding stuff, like an deeper reality seeing. My eyes have this quality at them now.
Also kids seem to behave more differently around me. Like, placing themselves on purpose in my environment.
had some other girl yesterday at an store lock eyes with me, she seemed slightly into trance and had these delays to her, like "oh yes, I went doing xyz"
facing more insecurities, AM6 lets me zoom in and introspect the ovbvious which I was clue less to before. Discuss when stuff isn't right. I also have an focus on my spelling lately.
The alpha lion and leader of man. Not some white knighting but an position that stretches out. More mature and less attached, more at peace with myself.
Seeing people as my employees. Strong drawing to the girls in my direct environment, current girl lives 2,5 hours car traveling.
having some trauma in terms of feeling trapped, abandonment.
Sexual but authoritarian.
met with some friends yesterday and notice I'm less picky in my words and more plain arrogant and commanding, which rubs some poeople the qrong way yet will not inhibit myself over it anymore. People seem to directly engage and quslify more strongly now. It was telling, something felt off, like, it was an more obvious kind of setting. Have some iritation around being disrespected lately, yet at the same time there is some sense of awe coming from people. eye loking results more in an eye locking back. Really thrilled to get to know how AOS and stage 4 will unravel.
Also, I ahve strong responses with the current girl. Writing about it makes me sleepy even, there is some sort of resistance therem, and when I let go its as if I re-centre.
eating more but not putting on fat, Increasing my food intake makes me more defined, or, atleast it seems so.
Manifestation is all around me.
Did read some journals around AOSI 5.5G and the combo with stage 4 and this I can only imagine as an massive killer combination.
Thoughts around filling an void in the other and how words have power in that, it opens another world.
I understand BD's sex outlook, also, more bedpartners to experience, by getting experience in different ways. My eyes currently have still this sex quality to them, or it is the SM lead in, not sure. But, its as if an fire is kindled inside in terms of sex.
Feeling very unhinged, my concentration is pretty much absent, having lots of negativity and tension surfacing, almost bordering on mini-breakdowns, makign mke confused aswell, the sub is drilling in as we speak.
I'm getting increasingly more looks and getting eye fucked more.
Need to handle possible one-itis aswell, yet I am aware and feels like an sort of breakthrough in terms of experiences and feelings, its like an pressure in my head pushing me into some kind of frame. Introspection. There is lots behind it aswell, possible some underestimation as some sort of belief or anythign like that, happens mostly via tekst, face to face its unphasing me. Many beliefs are hidden behind it possibly including outcome. yet the weirdest part is when I allow the resistance to dissolve its suddenly all good.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
