05-30-2016, 05:01 PM
(05-30-2016, 04:31 PM)CatMan Wrote: Yeah, true.
I do seem to have intimacy issues, touching them like that and at close range, at a dancing class for a long period of time where I'm expected to do that, tends to make me nervous and uncomfortable. Many times when I seem to accidentally touch them for too long innocently, and they pull away, I always feel I was rejected somehow. Like I was doing something wrong and inappropriate which resulted in them pulling away. Then I feel guilty about it and inhibited further in the future. I feel it's a constant stream of negative feedback, it's hard to break out of the GSF aspects without some positive feedback to let me know I won't be rejected and embarrassed, or worse as I've had often too.
I thought I'd use this program AOSI to give me that positive feedback, but it's becoming more and more obvious, this program isn't right for me...
Honestly, half of me wants to just cycle E2 and AM/BASE and say screw this women-chasing-treadmill-rubic's-cube, and be done with it.
From what I've have read from you lately I think E 2 for 3 months would suit you well.
Why?
Because once you get all the blockages out of the way you'll likely know where you want to go, whether it's back on the AM train or cranking up business with BASE.
Even if you don't go for 3 months of E 2, a month should guide you on feeling out what the next move should be. I'm following my own advice right now doing E 2 for hopefully 3 months then deciding where I want to go after. Technically I should complete my second run of BASE after E 2, but hey, I'm keeping my options open at this point. Sometimes we just need a reset button and I'm pretty sure E 2 is just that.
