05-28-2016, 07:27 AM
Previous post got me thinking more on why I haven't been motivated to exercise much, or eat very well.
I weigh about 175 right now. I think I look friggin' awesome at 155. So I'm 20 pounds heavier than what I used to think was my ideal. Love handles are back, got a little chub on the belly, but when I look in the mirror I think to myself, "Hey, I look pretty damn good." Perhaps I had some sort of body dysmorphia that I wasn't aware of. I definitely think I'm attaining a healthier mindset. I'm OK with a little fat on the frame. Part of my weight yo-yo-ing was the chasm between enjoying my life and thinking that I need to have a six pack to be worth anything. So while I may not be in ideal shape (by my defintition), I'm overall in a healthier place because I'm not putting pressure on myself to be absolutely "perfect." That relieves me of a lot of flip-flopping and stress.
I weigh about 175 right now. I think I look friggin' awesome at 155. So I'm 20 pounds heavier than what I used to think was my ideal. Love handles are back, got a little chub on the belly, but when I look in the mirror I think to myself, "Hey, I look pretty damn good." Perhaps I had some sort of body dysmorphia that I wasn't aware of. I definitely think I'm attaining a healthier mindset. I'm OK with a little fat on the frame. Part of my weight yo-yo-ing was the chasm between enjoying my life and thinking that I need to have a six pack to be worth anything. So while I may not be in ideal shape (by my defintition), I'm overall in a healthier place because I'm not putting pressure on myself to be absolutely "perfect." That relieves me of a lot of flip-flopping and stress.