gtting aware of some stuff that blocks my long term happiness, such as "being alpha is hving tolerance and not caring". Well I do care, and in an way it feels unhealthy to not do so, thus its not really non caring, its an tolerance for drama negatively affecting me. soft nexting and hard nexting.
It turns basically out that I adopt BD´s frame yet its an old pattern to be to tolerant towards bullshit. Its empowering to be the Judge and decider.
having some thoughts around attraction switches, also getting increasingly agressive and am dominant and pacing aorund in the gym and want to smash shit up for no reason, just pure agression, it translates itself in not giving an fuck about anyone or anything, almost anti-social stuff and tunnelvision, crushing whatever comes on my path, translates itself in also less involvement/attachment and staying true without giving an fuck about the outcome, aware of my own person.
Taking lifting way more seriously aswell as in, more time spending on that
It turns basically out that I adopt BD´s frame yet its an old pattern to be to tolerant towards bullshit. Its empowering to be the Judge and decider.
having some thoughts around attraction switches, also getting increasingly agressive and am dominant and pacing aorund in the gym and want to smash shit up for no reason, just pure agression, it translates itself in not giving an fuck about anyone or anything, almost anti-social stuff and tunnelvision, crushing whatever comes on my path, translates itself in also less involvement/attachment and staying true without giving an fuck about the outcome, aware of my own person.
Taking lifting way more seriously aswell as in, more time spending on that
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
