Cry Me a Trickling Stream - EHPRA 2.0

[LionKing]

You know, I've been noticing that for a while now. At times, I myself am very attracted to the idea of running AM or similar to feel really 'on' and driven and confident and such, be successful and realize myself. Or AOS or SM to get me ahead in terms of sexual value and the cooperation it might bring on the workplace too. As a rule I don't read threads about other programs than E2 anymore, after realizing I'll have way fewer urges to change subs that way. But when I do... its really bizarre and a turn off how eager some people are about power. Especially all that putting others down, or pointing out how the user is supposedly so much better and above anyone else (incl. women and rival men) - and then the glee that's expressed because of it. There was a testimony about AoS a while back that I remember was especially bad. I'd say I probably have more defined aspiration towards things like that than you, but I definitely hear what you're saying. I've had this though "should I aim to be happy, or to be alpha" running in my head when thinking about the programs. Seems if you're really happy you don't need all that other crap, at which point it becomes possible from a more positive mindset.