05-17-2016, 04:20 PM
Getting more compliments today. I'm officially done this SM saga. So weird how much my thinking has changed after finishing. Something within is making me feel really productive it might mean I'm ready for AM. Thinking to myself how since summer is around the corner I just want to go to the gym everyday and eat healthy. I'm noticing the contrast between my AM thinking and SM and as a whole generally I'm just being more social but also determined to get things done. Lighter, if you will. Still can't really describe it. Quality of life just feels better. I know with AM I'll feel some more satisfaction because my energy will be put towards myself. Maybe this is just the attitude I should feel inclined towards during my next magnet run. I'm having women surround me again. This stresses me out because what I want doesn't seem to be in direct correlation with how others are around me. I'll continue to take it one day at a time but it seems the improvements I make conciously will produce myself to have more control over others reactions. For example this woman is sitting right infront of me a busty Asian with big eyes all she does is constantly flip her hair and stick her breast out in my direction I've approached women like this many times but I'm very honest and if she doesn't want to be mine this moment I will move on. I want women like this hopefully my energy and effort will produce a reality with more situations that further turn me on like this. I can't stress how important it is to be secure emotionally because there's no other place in the world I'd rather be than right here but constantly in the past if I literally wasn't moving forward like pulling this girls number then I would move on perceiving there's something better out there but I definitely feel AM will build off the result of SM
