Old patterns but realize I'm very dominant in ways. sex doesnt bother me, at times I have moments of hatred and not giving an fuck about it all, like leave the fuck alone or something.
Im taking it really far with the girl i'm currently busy with but something feels not good, I'm one moment pretty stable, the other moment I''m feeling not stable at all. Makes me think about the other journals in which one becomes so high valuer and unbothered with it all. Feeling little bit depressed because of the thought and lots is swirling through my head.
Had the same kind of stuff with the former stages if I recall correctly. Sad, teary.
Thinking about the sentence "i love you"feels very beta to me and is something Ican't get out at this point and probably never will. Its one of the most beta sentences in my eyes. Also, am sort of aware about developing certain feelings, Im feeling pretty boss atm, and am for open relationships, no claiming and settling. Raw dominance perhaps.
I have an hard time with acceptance and it pisses me right off.
Im taking it really far with the girl i'm currently busy with but something feels not good, I'm one moment pretty stable, the other moment I''m feeling not stable at all. Makes me think about the other journals in which one becomes so high valuer and unbothered with it all. Feeling little bit depressed because of the thought and lots is swirling through my head.
Had the same kind of stuff with the former stages if I recall correctly. Sad, teary.
Thinking about the sentence "i love you"feels very beta to me and is something Ican't get out at this point and probably never will. Its one of the most beta sentences in my eyes. Also, am sort of aware about developing certain feelings, Im feeling pretty boss atm, and am for open relationships, no claiming and settling. Raw dominance perhaps.
I have an hard time with acceptance and it pisses me right off.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
