To a new Horizon - AM6

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Stage 3 Day 4

Back in a big city and start working on Monday.
Went out first time since weeks with some old friend.
Talked alot about business which was good, but at the party i couldnt approach anyone and started to drink again.... thought i was over this, but seems like old habits are hard to kill, especially when i am shy and afraid to approach. Its just that i even knew with alc it gets just worse and i feel like shit next day.

Its weird, i have this big mental barrier. I see alot of girls smiling at me and some even come to dance/stay around me when i am on then dancefloor since i am a good dancer. They try everything to get my attention and bump into me. But some deep mental barrier holds me back from saying just hi or dance with them and i ignore them which just drives them more crazy.
Its like a fucked up egopush, because i think in that moment i could have all this girls but in the end sth holds me back i do nothing and end up alone at home....
Its not that i really feel afraid or fear, i just feel nothing at that moment except some pride and arrogance.
Help how can i change that??????