04-30-2016, 01:52 AM
Hey guys it's been a while but here's some updates. Feeling valued and loved in most areas of my life now. Having gone through the entire program once shows me familiarities from stages one to six and now. I'm not holding on to my previous AM thinking so much anymore and it's benefiting me greatly as I've grown so much and life feels so much better. I have to reiterate AM felt like strictly business and SM has been a vacation in comparison so I'm looking forward to my next Run of AM to see how's things evolve. Social life is much better. Family, meeting new real friends in different circles and people who I do business with show me a great amount of respect. Now women, it doesn't take me long to get in their good graces sometimes we have long in depth convos and others I might casually see occasionally and their numbers get offered to me. My personal energy is really shining as their attention is given to me much more frequently then others. This is less of an ego stroke but more them connecting with me on an intimate level. Men have respected me but the more I embrace myself being 'me' even if it's not what others expect it feels my life improves as a whole. Women give me more attention and share things about themselves but there's a significant sexual attraction. So I'm happy with where things are going as I used to secretly idolize the Charlie harpers and " bosses" who got the money power then women in their beleif systems. I used to think that was necessary also it pushed me before but especially after using SM I've realized money can lead to sex but not also my happiness. I gave up this idea and if I see and meet someone that's doing well I unashamedly tell them what's going on in my life because I'm secure. Funny thing about fear is that it can push to better yourself in different areas of life but when you realize how much better off you are the results are still there and it's how a person conveys that part of them when connecting with another is what really matters. So it seems that over time things will be better especially with women Offering themselves and me making the most out of the moment but I'm happy with everything it's like I'm breaking out of this emotional prison one thing I cared about was money though and it's often where others respect my time, effort or money and show support. I feel insulated in most areas of my life which is great
