04-29-2016, 11:36 PM
stage 3 day 1
Stage 3 hype!
Listening for about an hour and an half and I notice an strong reduction in mental clutter. Im feeling more zen but increasing. Last few days on stage 2 I felt very forcefull, perhaps even sort of cruel in ways through dominance, crushing the frame of other people, almost violent like.
My gaze feels more and more hypnotic and this stage feels very powerfull already, aswell as feeling more in control and waves of euphoria.
Notice yesterday when sexting with one of the girls I'm chatting up that I can become suspicious and slightly untrustiong. Some comments can turn me off. The girl is all over me to the point she went from being kind of controlling online to reduce herself to submission towards me and basically throws all her stuff overboard just to qualify herself. Lol.
The other girl from which I pulled away my investment is now again all hearts and stuff.
Threesomes are possible, all is possible. Its an new reality almost, yet kind of learning how to harness my dividing of attention in all of this. Its feels like multitasking.
Stage 3 hype!
Listening for about an hour and an half and I notice an strong reduction in mental clutter. Im feeling more zen but increasing. Last few days on stage 2 I felt very forcefull, perhaps even sort of cruel in ways through dominance, crushing the frame of other people, almost violent like.
My gaze feels more and more hypnotic and this stage feels very powerfull already, aswell as feeling more in control and waves of euphoria.
Notice yesterday when sexting with one of the girls I'm chatting up that I can become suspicious and slightly untrustiong. Some comments can turn me off. The girl is all over me to the point she went from being kind of controlling online to reduce herself to submission towards me and basically throws all her stuff overboard just to qualify herself. Lol.
The other girl from which I pulled away my investment is now again all hearts and stuff.
Threesomes are possible, all is possible. Its an new reality almost, yet kind of learning how to harness my dividing of attention in all of this. Its feels like multitasking.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
