04-22-2016, 07:15 AM
This E2 is quite interesting. By that I mean that I feel different every day. It's not always the best of days, but every day something seems to change.
Today for the first time I felt like rather going to class than staying home!!!! WHAT THE FCUK?? I have never in my life felt like rather going out than staying in (with the exception of alcohol). Today I had a class with all new people and I seemed to be an absolute social magnet. My social anxiety seems to lessen with time, since my jokes were on point! At one point a dude in my class couldn't stop laughing for 5 minutes because the timing of what I said was perfect. Actually, usually I wouldn't even talk during class, however this time I was one of the few people who did and I probably talked the most.
I still felt very uncomfortable around people, so this is far from my anxiety actually being destroyed, BUT I have seen progress! After 7 months on OF, 3 months on ASC and nearly 2 weeks on E2, I have seen progress!
If this reduction of anxiety and fear continues then I might even be able to go for what I actually want to do which is in the entertainment business. The last time I tried that, my fear was so overwhelming that I couldn't possible see myself as a successful actor. This is still too soon to say, but I guess we will see.
Today for the first time I felt like rather going to class than staying home!!!! WHAT THE FCUK?? I have never in my life felt like rather going out than staying in (with the exception of alcohol). Today I had a class with all new people and I seemed to be an absolute social magnet. My social anxiety seems to lessen with time, since my jokes were on point! At one point a dude in my class couldn't stop laughing for 5 minutes because the timing of what I said was perfect. Actually, usually I wouldn't even talk during class, however this time I was one of the few people who did and I probably talked the most.
I still felt very uncomfortable around people, so this is far from my anxiety actually being destroyed, BUT I have seen progress! After 7 months on OF, 3 months on ASC and nearly 2 weeks on E2, I have seen progress!
If this reduction of anxiety and fear continues then I might even be able to go for what I actually want to do which is in the entertainment business. The last time I tried that, my fear was so overwhelming that I couldn't possible see myself as a successful actor. This is still too soon to say, but I guess we will see.
