04-19-2016, 11:12 AM
Day 16:
I'm bored, I'm trying to find something that doesn't bore me to death. I even used pheromone today. I almost forgot that one crazy girl called me “handsome guy” in a library.
My motivation is at it's lowest, I still do things that need to be done but it's like everything is meaningless. I lost almost all interest to read the forum, it's boring to read it, some AM6 and SM3 journal are still interesting but mostly boring, it's like reading pua, it's boring. I'm wondering why I'm still writing all that, I should live my life instead.
While I still like to talk with women and interact with them there has been a huge drop there too, mainly neediness and a part of needy motivation. It's like there is a good motivation to get things done that came from AM6 but now I'm bored and everything seems worthless, a waste of time. What I like to do right now is creating perfume, I like to go out but most of the stuff are boring.
Day 18:
My mood is strange recently, it's like I'm social and not social at the same time. I'm happy and bored, my mood fluctuate from very good to bored. I'm motivated then I'm not. I'm happy to get out then I get bored and it feels really boring.
I have a lot of dreams around women, story unfolding in all kinds of way. I ask myself a lot of question about women, about self worth about neediness. This stage is not the most pleasant to me at least as of now, it could be some resistance.
Day 21:
It's seems there was some resistance and it's gone now, I wake up more motivated today.
I approach a girl it was cool, didn't do it for long time so maybe it was time.
She reacted good, she was pleased, she was reading a book near the beach, older than me it seems but she was beautiful enough. So I talked to her for like 4 minutes. I ask her what book she is reading, she laughed and said a very stupid book( Meaning that the books sucks thank you for talking to me)
At the end she went away, but said “A plus” which mean something like “see you next time”. It seems she was intimidated, it was weird to hear that as I don't know her and I didn't ask her number. I didn't want to, I wanted to see what she would do. Strange maybe she wanted me to ask for a number. Well I didn't want to ask for it. I don't want to be nice with girls right now.
20 minutes after that a guy approached me, a bisexual guy. I talk to him for 20 minutes. He said that girls are beautiful today at the beginning to draw my attention. Then he talked about orgy, he said he organize orgy, to impress me. Then at the end I realized he just wanted sex with me.
He invited me to his house tomorrow and said he will suck my d*** . Lol I'm not into gay thing but it was interesting to see his approach.
SM3 works, I manifested a gay guy
. I will keep his contact, we never know maybe he has a lot of friend girls and we could do an orgy. I told him I'm not interested about gay stuff but he didn't stop proposing me. So I took his number and I said I will think about it.
I'm bored, I'm trying to find something that doesn't bore me to death. I even used pheromone today. I almost forgot that one crazy girl called me “handsome guy” in a library.
My motivation is at it's lowest, I still do things that need to be done but it's like everything is meaningless. I lost almost all interest to read the forum, it's boring to read it, some AM6 and SM3 journal are still interesting but mostly boring, it's like reading pua, it's boring. I'm wondering why I'm still writing all that, I should live my life instead.
While I still like to talk with women and interact with them there has been a huge drop there too, mainly neediness and a part of needy motivation. It's like there is a good motivation to get things done that came from AM6 but now I'm bored and everything seems worthless, a waste of time. What I like to do right now is creating perfume, I like to go out but most of the stuff are boring.
Day 18:
My mood is strange recently, it's like I'm social and not social at the same time. I'm happy and bored, my mood fluctuate from very good to bored. I'm motivated then I'm not. I'm happy to get out then I get bored and it feels really boring.
I have a lot of dreams around women, story unfolding in all kinds of way. I ask myself a lot of question about women, about self worth about neediness. This stage is not the most pleasant to me at least as of now, it could be some resistance.
Day 21:
It's seems there was some resistance and it's gone now, I wake up more motivated today.
I approach a girl it was cool, didn't do it for long time so maybe it was time.
She reacted good, she was pleased, she was reading a book near the beach, older than me it seems but she was beautiful enough. So I talked to her for like 4 minutes. I ask her what book she is reading, she laughed and said a very stupid book( Meaning that the books sucks thank you for talking to me)
At the end she went away, but said “A plus” which mean something like “see you next time”. It seems she was intimidated, it was weird to hear that as I don't know her and I didn't ask her number. I didn't want to, I wanted to see what she would do. Strange maybe she wanted me to ask for a number. Well I didn't want to ask for it. I don't want to be nice with girls right now.
20 minutes after that a guy approached me, a bisexual guy. I talk to him for 20 minutes. He said that girls are beautiful today at the beginning to draw my attention. Then he talked about orgy, he said he organize orgy, to impress me. Then at the end I realized he just wanted sex with me.
He invited me to his house tomorrow and said he will suck my d*** . Lol I'm not into gay thing but it was interesting to see his approach.
SM3 works, I manifested a gay guy
. I will keep his contact, we never know maybe he has a lot of friend girls and we could do an orgy. I told him I'm not interested about gay stuff but he didn't stop proposing me. So I took his number and I said I will think about it.
