So it boils down to acceptance as it turns out. Accepting and reframing the thrill and feelings that come up with these matters. before I was like "i have to have some thoughts running, otherwise ( x-y-z/blank ) Now im not so sure about that, rather, its coming from an place of confidence and inner place. It simply doesnt matter. AM seems to enhance this. I am the prize. Had some fear coming up this morning and some breakthrough yesterday evening. Currently day 13 on stage 2. Im also starting to let go over intelectuializing stuff, and puts me into the now. Awesome. When my mind shuts down I seem to fight it by having an sense of that it should be effportless and without tension. Why? I dont know.
Currently in an flow state kind of, in which all that comes up i directly face.
Also, Im aware as to why i smoke, which is fear. When stuff comes up and stress rises, my urge to smoke aswell increases. AM is working on this aswell. Instead of running away and wantring to attain an certain state ( the whole relaxing kind of shit without facing it ) Im now digging deeper through it. Its also more detached and observant.
Lowered the ultrasonic volume and it works wonders.
Currently in an flow state kind of, in which all that comes up i directly face.
Also, Im aware as to why i smoke, which is fear. When stuff comes up and stress rises, my urge to smoke aswell increases. AM is working on this aswell. Instead of running away and wantring to attain an certain state ( the whole relaxing kind of shit without facing it ) Im now digging deeper through it. Its also more detached and observant.
Lowered the ultrasonic volume and it works wonders.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
