04-06-2016, 08:53 PM
Took a break from posting for a bit.
Wanted to see how it would affect my results. Can't really put a finger on what's going on. There's so much from this stage but my mind is fully involved with the sub programming.
Had sex w the Fwb the day before last. It was frustrating. Fucked for an hour with a condom. She sucked me for another 30 then went raw but for the life of me just couldn't cum... Even porn absolutely bores me. Just go into
Shut down when that home screen comes up. Masterbation does the trick but even then it seems like there's nothing sexy enough. Steadily getting more advanced from women. In weird ways also. See a friend and her female friend is there then get a call later from her asking for me to pick her up. Respond w "ask someone in your area" then realize this was another indirect way for me to pick up a chick. Feeling really bored earning money is effortless. However it's not huge amount. It's enough. Feels like there was this fear inside of me but now it makes me reconsider everything. Seems like my only stimulation is when something manifests from the subliminal or people directly give me my desire however each day feels closer to my vision
Wanted to see how it would affect my results. Can't really put a finger on what's going on. There's so much from this stage but my mind is fully involved with the sub programming.
Had sex w the Fwb the day before last. It was frustrating. Fucked for an hour with a condom. She sucked me for another 30 then went raw but for the life of me just couldn't cum... Even porn absolutely bores me. Just go into
Shut down when that home screen comes up. Masterbation does the trick but even then it seems like there's nothing sexy enough. Steadily getting more advanced from women. In weird ways also. See a friend and her female friend is there then get a call later from her asking for me to pick her up. Respond w "ask someone in your area" then realize this was another indirect way for me to pick up a chick. Feeling really bored earning money is effortless. However it's not huge amount. It's enough. Feels like there was this fear inside of me but now it makes me reconsider everything. Seems like my only stimulation is when something manifests from the subliminal or people directly give me my desire however each day feels closer to my vision
