(04-04-2016, 05:43 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote:(04-04-2016, 04:28 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote:I guess I don't think it takes guts and just admitting it doesn't mean I'll deal with it.(04-03-2016, 05:47 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote: Apparently I treat people closest to me like shit. My Dad and sister told me at different times. I think my mom thinks so too but indirectly tells me. Usually this would go straight over my head but now I know that they are right.
Whew... you acknowledged that they are right!! Takes guts to admit that!!! Sounds like you are ready to deal with it.
The best part is... you are already listening to EHPRA 2.0 and you are already in the process of healing.
Just so that I'm clear. I'm not sure if EHPRA 2.0 makes you into a loving person. What is clear is you are giving off a loving vibe. Hope that makes sense. I've become more forgiving of other people's (how can I put this nicely) um... stupidity. Ok, I'll stop...
I thought you had to be a loving person to give off a loving vibe or at least feel loving in that moment.
And you don't have to stop.
Today I was going thinking about how I didn't have to apologize for me hurting other peoples feelings and how those people don't consider my feelings. Now I got to fake to nice to people so their feelings don't get hurt. The usual back and forth mental garbage. Suddenly I felt like something had been released. Whatever happened is in the past. I can only focus on what can be done now. I'm not trying to rush to make it better either. This is going to take time to heal.
Went to my sisters and instead of feeling uncomfortable I felt welcome. Never would have thought that would happen.
Still nothing groundbreaking to report though. At least nothing external.
"Now I got to fake to nice to people so their feelings don't get hurt."
Are you normally 'not nice' to these people?
EPRHA 2 is awesome but don't expect massive changes, or even for changes to be instantly apparent. A lot of the EPRHA users on here were already well into long runs before switching to version 2. So a lot of ground work had already been done, and I'm talking about months in some cases.
I had been doing EPRHA for 4 months before switching to V2, and it was a really challenging run. Switching to V2 for me has really given the run a turbo boost, and made things easier. But I can imagine going straight into EPRHA 2 would also be very challenging!! (maybe more so than v1)?
NEW - Basic Speaker Setup for Subliminals - HERE
My EHPRA Journal - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5779.html
My Intro and Ramblings - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5785.html
My EHPRA Journal - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5779.html
My Intro and Ramblings - http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-5785.html