ASC and it will be given to you

[Natious]

...but compared to other subs I don't see healing as much of a direction or how it could help me find any direction that I want to move toward. And because of that I don't know how important it is for me to run this sub now or for how long I want to run it.

I see you've already decided to run "E2," but I gotta say, your comment doesn't make much sense to me.

My reasoning is this: If you're not healed, the goals you have in mind are likely false goals. Your perspective, from a healed mind and heart, will be quite different (read:better), and you will no longer think as you do now. Not at all. It will ultimately save you much time and frustration, and you'll be happier as a result.

Yeah I have trouble expressing what I mean apparently, even my French teacher said so, after which I had to pretty much explain to her everything that I wrote in the 4 page long story. I have a slight feeling that it's related to me not expressing my emotions since childhood or ADHD or whatever.

Let's just say I was doubtful of running E2 after 3 months of ASC. ASC occasionally let off this vibe of strong willingness and drive to go for what I want in life regardless of what's on my way. However the vibe wasn't nearly strong enough to actually get me on board.
People have reported going for what they want with AM6 so that seemed like a reasonable second choice. E2 on the other hand, however I try to see it, doesn't strike me as a sub that would have such a strong drive, but I could be wrong about this.