stage 1 day 28
Took some test and ENTJ as an result.
Im getting more obviously assertive and more angry over things and events, till the point of an barrage of swearingwords. yesterday some beta was all snithcing and this unleashed some fury and burn down scenario. I dont give an shit whatsoever and become more of an asshole in that. IDGAF if im right or so, my perception is this, almost militant. Im getting more assertive as in that some girl said "he has me" and I said thats true without second thought or any fucks given. I am more disagreeing overal with people, fearless in speaking up and debating, resulting in being more playfull and toying around. Nailed it. More sexually expressive aswell by teasing, its the initial kind of thing thats popping up, flirting along the road comes natural as it always had. I only seem to revert back to this mindset thats keeping me somewhat in check for the worse. So im going out and experience until this is broken. Might be social programming that has given to much space over the years and triggers depression responses. Its persistent but am not going to feed it my energy. let AM handle this.
I dont feel really writing about the negativity coming up, only that an reoccuring theme is doing my head in. Guess its an breakthrough kind of thing.
Had more memories coming up. For some reason i feel all is going as it should be. No women is special, tone that shit down. Monogamy is killed off, might toy around with tinder. laser focus and purpose is back, and am more sexually savage. I am aware of some blocks in my mind and body, and some memories that surface show it hasnt always be that way. Im getting intolerant over bèta's and how they cry over others that have succes. Sad fuck's, launching their jelousy and social programming bullshit. I downright hate that character trait.
had an realisation that i dont need anything, and this is freeing. My youth and age are also put to my attention. Fuck time wasting.
4 days till stage 2. bring it on.
Took some test and ENTJ as an result.
Im getting more obviously assertive and more angry over things and events, till the point of an barrage of swearingwords. yesterday some beta was all snithcing and this unleashed some fury and burn down scenario. I dont give an shit whatsoever and become more of an asshole in that. IDGAF if im right or so, my perception is this, almost militant. Im getting more assertive as in that some girl said "he has me" and I said thats true without second thought or any fucks given. I am more disagreeing overal with people, fearless in speaking up and debating, resulting in being more playfull and toying around. Nailed it. More sexually expressive aswell by teasing, its the initial kind of thing thats popping up, flirting along the road comes natural as it always had. I only seem to revert back to this mindset thats keeping me somewhat in check for the worse. So im going out and experience until this is broken. Might be social programming that has given to much space over the years and triggers depression responses. Its persistent but am not going to feed it my energy. let AM handle this.
I dont feel really writing about the negativity coming up, only that an reoccuring theme is doing my head in. Guess its an breakthrough kind of thing.
Had more memories coming up. For some reason i feel all is going as it should be. No women is special, tone that shit down. Monogamy is killed off, might toy around with tinder. laser focus and purpose is back, and am more sexually savage. I am aware of some blocks in my mind and body, and some memories that surface show it hasnt always be that way. Im getting intolerant over bèta's and how they cry over others that have succes. Sad fuck's, launching their jelousy and social programming bullshit. I downright hate that character trait.
had an realisation that i dont need anything, and this is freeing. My youth and age are also put to my attention. Fuck time wasting.
4 days till stage 2. bring it on.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
