The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

My apologies, I had every intention of another update specifying, but I have only been on it for a few days, so I'm just going on small things that I have noticed that are a vision of things to come. For instance, I have been getting my desire to be with girls back hardcore. After I finished the alpha set, I had this emptiness inside of me, not an emptiness of lonliness mind you, but an emptiness of the void that is masculinity. It was like I was self fulfilled and THAT is a fantastic feeling, but it also took away most of my desire for a while, making me value being by myself more than being with other people(even the girl I was seeing). It's a pretty self fulfilled feeling when you can call a beautiful woman at any time to come over to your house to have sex, but you'd rather spend the time alone. I'm not bragging about that by any means, but that was just the truth of the matter. So that was where I was at after the alpha set and the month following it.

Upon starting the Sex Magnet set, I was immediately gifted a dream of having lengthy sex with Meghan Fox or some Meghan Fox clone-ish girl, the dreams that followed were more women related dreams, though as far as I can remember, none of them involving sex or as graphic as that. I also, noticed within a few days that I was developing this light heartedness that took the edge of my post alpha set hardness and I also found myself being more warm and compassionate with people. My body language seems to be slightly changing as do my facial expressions, again making me more approachable and friendly. Girls are smiling at me more or maybe I am just noticing them smiling at me more. The need for their attention is lessening even more(and considering that the alpha set took care of most of that, that's impressive), however the desire to have them in my life without any kind of need is becoming stronger. Now keep in mind, these are all somewhat subtle things that I've noticed. So far it has been a very easy going sub to listen to. No emotional catharsis of any kind really thus far. It's putting me in a great mood as well and today I just have been seeing myself as sexier when I look in the mirror. I just look sexier somehow. That makes total sense to me too, because your face can change quite dramatically depending on your mindset. After all, the face can spell out something like 14,000 words, so you can imagine the possibilities.

Another thing that I've noticed is that my charm and charisma seem to be getting energized more and more every single day. I love that effect. Everyone wants a charming individual around. Anyway, those are ust some the things I've noticed so far without expecting any of it or any outcome in particular. I like your approach when listening to the subs, Shannon of just playing it at night(I play it a little in the day too sometimes) and forgetting it, not putting any attention on any particular outcome and letting the effects be what they will.

Was that detailed enough for you guys? XD