04-16-2011, 07:38 PM
A week into AM 2011 and I'm not sure if this is from this run of the sub or the previous run I did with 2010 (or likely a bit of both), but I have noticed a change.
I went to an audition for an acting job today, and sadly I did not get the job.
Usually after an audition, I will keep running through it wondering if I could've done something differently or better with lots of "If only I'd..."
Today, I went home and said "Well, I wish I had been less nervous, but that can come from more experience auditioning. There's always a chance that I'll be available the next time they need people, and I can try again. If not, it was still a whole lot of fun, and I got to see a friend that I hadn't talked to in a while. Now, let's see what else is out there."
I have to admit, I much prefer the feel of moving on and looking forward to obsessing over my performance. I know that not being picked in an audition may have absolutely nothing to do with how I did. It may just be that I'm not what the casting person has in mind. But knowing that and really accepting that are very different. It's very freeing to finally get to the point where I don't need to be cast for validation.
I went to an audition for an acting job today, and sadly I did not get the job.
Usually after an audition, I will keep running through it wondering if I could've done something differently or better with lots of "If only I'd..."
Today, I went home and said "Well, I wish I had been less nervous, but that can come from more experience auditioning. There's always a chance that I'll be available the next time they need people, and I can try again. If not, it was still a whole lot of fun, and I got to see a friend that I hadn't talked to in a while. Now, let's see what else is out there."
I have to admit, I much prefer the feel of moving on and looking forward to obsessing over my performance. I know that not being picked in an audition may have absolutely nothing to do with how I did. It may just be that I'm not what the casting person has in mind. But knowing that and really accepting that are very different. It's very freeing to finally get to the point where I don't need to be cast for validation.
