Self re/discovery

[LionKing]

The thing is that I am trying to figure out with EPRAH v2 is that after I came back from Santa-Monica, I don't have much of a desire for women anymore. I think it may be where I am living (the city feels too small) I'm just not that happy where I am currently living. Or I am just tired of women and would rather focus on myself. I feel as though, women are alot more work than I want to put in. I am not really sure. I would like some feedback on this (anyone have this before?)...

(I Forgot to mention... I stopped looking at porn awhile ago. My desire decreased alot but so did any depression. Depression of beautiful women- why arent any in my life etc. But I do feel alot better since Im not looking at porn)

But one thing is for sure. I broke the glass ceiling that I had for myself, I truly believed that I could not be loved or have beautiful women attracted to me. I no longer feel this way. I know that I always held the key to success in dating/sex realm.

Would you think that "I truly believed that I could not be loved or have beautiful women attracted to me" and "Depression of beautiful women- why arent any in my life" describe a trauma of sorts, a hurt that drove you to make all that effort to recover from it, and know that it has healed a bit you feel that "(Or) I am just tired of women and would rather focus on myself. I feel as though, women are alot more work than I want to put in."? Note that I'm not judging at all, I've thought about this wrt. myself many times.