03-07-2016, 08:25 AM
day 12 stage 1
Going to get 11 hours in today. Notice i overal dont give a shit and when I notice I somewhat hold back I just cross the line and I dont care at all. getting closer to people and touch much more. The specialty in people is gone right now and can make easily eye contact. if I dont lock I dont care about it, whatever.
Im geltting more hostile, more opposed to people and males.
Socialy getting more fluid, making jokes, get some women giggle. catching myself at times to have it internal still.
When I feel an slight urge to escalate I actually let it happen. before I would screen and come up with bullshit excuses, now I recognize and may actually proceed just to manifest it and make it click. When it happenes it becomes second nature and opens up new experiments.
Manifestation gets more near, In my head hotter girls are attracted to me already. Just to allign myself with it. I have no problems with girls at all, that was an bullshit limiting belief. When tension comes up I let it be and let go.
I generally feel OGSF kicks in stronger and stronger. I notice no tension nor responses in myself or getting selfconscious at times and joke more around, just for my own entertainment, backing up my own words instead of going needy and needing an reaction. Guilt is gone in that, so is shame an whole lot reduced.
Notice at times I display open disinterest and feel not always in the mood to talk. Getting more annoyed aswell to have to repeat myself sometimes even tho my voice projects stronger and more clear.
Going to get 11 hours in today. Notice i overal dont give a shit and when I notice I somewhat hold back I just cross the line and I dont care at all. getting closer to people and touch much more. The specialty in people is gone right now and can make easily eye contact. if I dont lock I dont care about it, whatever.
Im geltting more hostile, more opposed to people and males.
Socialy getting more fluid, making jokes, get some women giggle. catching myself at times to have it internal still.
When I feel an slight urge to escalate I actually let it happen. before I would screen and come up with bullshit excuses, now I recognize and may actually proceed just to manifest it and make it click. When it happenes it becomes second nature and opens up new experiments.
Manifestation gets more near, In my head hotter girls are attracted to me already. Just to allign myself with it. I have no problems with girls at all, that was an bullshit limiting belief. When tension comes up I let it be and let go.
I generally feel OGSF kicks in stronger and stronger. I notice no tension nor responses in myself or getting selfconscious at times and joke more around, just for my own entertainment, backing up my own words instead of going needy and needing an reaction. Guilt is gone in that, so is shame an whole lot reduced.
Notice at times I display open disinterest and feel not always in the mood to talk. Getting more annoyed aswell to have to repeat myself sometimes even tho my voice projects stronger and more clear.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus