I don't really have much to comment on here anymore. Yes the journals are inspiring and helpful but it's tough to find someone's writing that relates to me, and my thought process.
I feel like I'm being dragged into this social sincerity. For the longest time the two main factors in life were time and getting what I want. I am genuinely finding myself in situations where I don't need. I woke up today with a lost voice. Binged watched house of cards. 6 hours later somehow decided to go to the gym and further push past my plateaus. It's incredible the amount of self doubt and fear I've lost since starting this journey.
I want to focus on women. And after experiencing the pain of my workout I didn't have fear but a sense self of accomplishment being around them. I feel too entirely focused on the future and my career. I'm putting this pressure on myself so I can be where I want to be financially. I don't think anyone will ever have women as the number 1 priority over everything. It's clear I've changed a lot though but I find that it might be a while until I have so many women begging for me during the intermissions of work
. Or maybe I'm right about to break the threshold.
I am in a mindfuck right now. All I can say it's correlated between the stage description and my reaction is that I'm more focused. I think on many levels women are attracted and want to have sex. There's no room for disappointment as this entire time I've been self improving. This is not a concrete update as I'm just posting my thoughts.
I used to extremely dislike people on here who just posted their thoughts but I guarentee you guys there's progress and value in my words
I feel like I'm being dragged into this social sincerity. For the longest time the two main factors in life were time and getting what I want. I am genuinely finding myself in situations where I don't need. I woke up today with a lost voice. Binged watched house of cards. 6 hours later somehow decided to go to the gym and further push past my plateaus. It's incredible the amount of self doubt and fear I've lost since starting this journey.
I want to focus on women. And after experiencing the pain of my workout I didn't have fear but a sense self of accomplishment being around them. I feel too entirely focused on the future and my career. I'm putting this pressure on myself so I can be where I want to be financially. I don't think anyone will ever have women as the number 1 priority over everything. It's clear I've changed a lot though but I find that it might be a while until I have so many women begging for me during the intermissions of work
. Or maybe I'm right about to break the threshold.
I am in a mindfuck right now. All I can say it's correlated between the stage description and my reaction is that I'm more focused. I think on many levels women are attracted and want to have sex. There's no room for disappointment as this entire time I've been self improving. This is not a concrete update as I'm just posting my thoughts.
I used to extremely dislike people on here who just posted their thoughts but I guarentee you guys there's progress and value in my words
