Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

Hi Shannon,

I have a question I've been wondering about for months now. Since finishing SM3 in fact.

You know how I did on SM3...

And that you said fear is my issue for why the run went the way it did.

So, I'm wondering, if I remove the fear with OF5G, will that previous SM3 run then spring to life? Or, are all of those 3,610 hours lost forever?

I know you said the mind doesn't forget anything, so this has made me ponder my situation and if that run can still be salvaged. Or if, when something is resisted, it is eliminated or discarded by the mind somehow. The snowflake theory seems to say it's basically a tug of war between statements, so that implies that I CAN salvage the run after all with OF?

You see, I have an image of a beautiful garden in my mind, the garden being SM3. But it is surrounded by weeds, being fear. By removing all of the weeds, can the garden now be what it was supposed to be when it was built there in the middle of all of the weeds? Or is it ruined by the weeds, and needs to be fully replanted from scratch AFTER removing the weeds?

I hope my post makes sense so you can give a good answer. To be honest, I'm frustrated by the lack of success on SM3 and am hoping all of those hours can be salvaged somehow. Seeing Dzemoo and Guider doing so well makes me a bit jelly sure. But also makes me wonder if those hours I did can still work as intended somehow. So, seeing their journals, it's been on my mind more lately.

Obviously, I'm not sure how the process works. I would really appreciate a bit of help figuring that out. I think it'll either put my mind at ease that in a few months or less SM3 could really start firing up finally which would be the most incredible news I've heard in a long time. As currently, I'm frustrated that it seems I have to go all through OF5G long term, then rerun all of AM6, then rerun SM3 just to have a chance at SM3 working again, way way WAY down the road. Or...I'll finally have to accept the run was a fail and can move forward and stop thinking about it and how disappointed I've been about it. All depending on how the mind works.

Thank you so much for your help and clarification, Shannon.

You never forget anything. But, to use your analogy, we must know how much growth the garden experienced to know what to find if and when we rip out the weeds.

When the weeds are gone, what you will find left is whatever growth the garden experienced, minus whatever growth it lost over time from having not reinforced the growth it got because of the influence of the weeds.

So yes, there is potential to salvage the effects of the run, but I'm not sure I would expect that it would suddenly spring out of you. The weeds (fear) may have sabotaged the growth very effectively, so the result would be that you are freed to grow after the weeds are removed, but the growth may not have taken place very much, and may have since been superseded by other instructions in the forefront. So you may, probably will, have to run it again after clearing out your fears.

But after thinking about it, I think perhaps running EHPRA 2.0 may also be a good idea for you, as it seems this is all the result of emotional damage or trauma caused by the females you experienced early in life. So my recommendation is, a month of OF5G and then a month of EHPRA 2.0, repeated until you think you can handle SM. Then run a month of AM6 refresher and then SM3 or 4, if it's out at the time.