(05-16-2010, 10:09 PM)Shannon Wrote: Depression often stems from frustration and sublimated anger. It sounds to me as if the circumstances you encounter while living at home are generated by that frustration. Certainly, your new and growing mindset won't make that lessen, as you become the person who is so different from that environment. I believe what you'll find happens is that the program brings about changes in you that increase your discontent with your current (wrong for you) circumstances until you and/or the Universe make something change or the better.
The hot women were there, all along, I'd be willing to bet; you just see them now, because of the programming change in your subconscious.
The discontent is surely rising. And I didn't expect the subs to lessen it. I just wish the results would happen much faster. I always felt this discontent: it's like a coldness and a loneliness at the same time. I've heard of people from more 'body conscious' cultures coming to this area and having to leave right away because of this particular feeling that is in the "air." I do believe that areas carry certain vibrations, and I believe that this area is one of those areas that prove it. After all, this area is known as the sociopath capital of the world, last I heard. And I've known many of those. And it's about 20 miles from where Ed Gein lived. I've known people who were babysat by him.
The fact that I've spent the last year in an area that was 'warm-hearted' makes coming back here all the more intense.
But, what gets me is that I have to drive about 20 miles just to find the jobs.
But, yeah, I'm pissed that I'm back home. And these circumstances are definitely wrong for me. But I've become a firm believer in the LoA. I'm also noticing that I'm becoming more energetic in wanting to change my circumstances. I didn't get too much of a chance to listen to the subs today, but the little bit of time I had to do so, I noticed that I did feel a little bit better. Tonight, and tomorrow, I will probably have nothing but time to listen to them.
Slowly, but surely, I'm getting my subliminal "soundscape" worked out. I may very well be able to listen to my subs in my room under my grandpa's watchful eye and nosy nose. And I don't have to be so "antisocial" with earbuds in my ears all the time. And the subs might help my grandpa, too.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to seeing more and more hot women. I can't wait to get onto the attraction subs.
Oh, yeah, I'm going to start with my gratitude journal in the next couple of days. That will alleviate a lot of negativity. It always does.
I think this is the beginning of my 6th week using these subs.
I'm listening to the subs right now, and I'm feeling better.
