I hear all of your suggestions, and I should let you know that I am listening. I'm certain Geodude would weigh in and say that tapping is for him, though I can also see ways in which misusing that tool will become deleterious. I'm considering removing PSTEC from my arsenal and simply use fEFT.
Stage 4, Day 34
Got up, and got to work for 8 hours.
Today was where I decided to do something different. I went out.. alone (gasps abound)! Too much intellectualizing, and not enough talking with women. Throughout the day, I felt that pressure in which I would have to perform. I finally decided that I would go out to do these specific things:
1) Dance!
2) Figure out sexiness/masculine polarity with plenty of women around (and dudes, which could stifle me);
3) Find aspects to love about women;
4) MAYBE hit on girls
So I walk to this one club that's pretty empty; they want 10$, no way. I walk past a club, then resolve to go back to it. These girls are handing out tickets for another club for 5$ and it's for a cheerleading thing. I say sure.
It starts off a bit slow, but I eventually start chatting this girl up (the guy she was with got all butthurt), and then I go dancing. I'm just dancing dancing dancing, and then this pretty hot girl and her friends are dancing with me. The two of us click and do some dancing. I chat with other girls.
At some point, her friend is trying to give me pointers on how to hook up with her. Later on in the night, we get to dancing closer, and I lift her up and she has her legs wrapped around me. At this point, I'm hard, and our heads are getting closer, and closer, until...
Her friend barges in and cockblocks; she has her go to the bathroom with her. She says "be right back". I find out they left the bar. I'm not even mad; this was an awesome night, and I'm glad I did this excursion. I should make some habit out of it. Next week will be easy because it's Halloween. I walked home with so much swagger, just given the positive feelings I was feeling.
Plus, I was able to get some very solid eye contact with some different women.
My one complaint is that women are acting a lot like sand; I can hold my hand out and have a large handful of it, but if I try to take it anywhere with it slipping away. This must mean that it comes down to me and my presence.
By the way, my sexual presence (and the exercise from Masculine Intent I keep mentioning) is increasing, both in public and in my apartment proportionally.
BTW, I'm starting Stage 5 tonight.
Stage 4, Day 34
Got up, and got to work for 8 hours.
Today was where I decided to do something different. I went out.. alone (gasps abound)! Too much intellectualizing, and not enough talking with women. Throughout the day, I felt that pressure in which I would have to perform. I finally decided that I would go out to do these specific things:
1) Dance!
2) Figure out sexiness/masculine polarity with plenty of women around (and dudes, which could stifle me);
3) Find aspects to love about women;
4) MAYBE hit on girls
So I walk to this one club that's pretty empty; they want 10$, no way. I walk past a club, then resolve to go back to it. These girls are handing out tickets for another club for 5$ and it's for a cheerleading thing. I say sure.
It starts off a bit slow, but I eventually start chatting this girl up (the guy she was with got all butthurt), and then I go dancing. I'm just dancing dancing dancing, and then this pretty hot girl and her friends are dancing with me. The two of us click and do some dancing. I chat with other girls.
At some point, her friend is trying to give me pointers on how to hook up with her. Later on in the night, we get to dancing closer, and I lift her up and she has her legs wrapped around me. At this point, I'm hard, and our heads are getting closer, and closer, until...
Her friend barges in and cockblocks; she has her go to the bathroom with her. She says "be right back". I find out they left the bar. I'm not even mad; this was an awesome night, and I'm glad I did this excursion. I should make some habit out of it. Next week will be easy because it's Halloween. I walked home with so much swagger, just given the positive feelings I was feeling.
Plus, I was able to get some very solid eye contact with some different women.
My one complaint is that women are acting a lot like sand; I can hold my hand out and have a large handful of it, but if I try to take it anywhere with it slipping away. This must mean that it comes down to me and my presence.
By the way, my sexual presence (and the exercise from Masculine Intent I keep mentioning) is increasing, both in public and in my apartment proportionally.
BTW, I'm starting Stage 5 tonight.
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