Ampers&'s Alpha Male Journal [COMPLETE]

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 24(25)

Guess there are certain words that I can't say on this forum. Oops.

So Sunday, I wake up, make my meals, go to work. Work goes well; I'm able to feel elated and good 80% of the time.

I then finish reading the book by Esther Hicks. I also meet with my online class partner to discuss our project over Skype. Partway through, the fire alarm for my building goes off. I have to leave the building. The alarm keeps going off. I chat with some of the tenants, and we head off to the coffee shop. After 30 minutes there, we return and the alarm is still going off. It finally gets turned off.

I then pick my favorite processes from the 'Ask and It is Given' book.

Guys, I'm going to follow an evening ritual. It'll be timed, it will take under 20 minutes, and it will be heavily focused on the Law of Attraction. Once I officially create the timer, I'll post the details here.

There are a few habits that I can take on that aren't related to the book, but aren't really a once-a-day habit. People that are interested should check out the book.

I'm watching "Wolf of Wall Street". Good movie. I'm not done yet.

I'm also just about done the 32 day period for "Deep Restful Sleep" subliminal. I will soon buy "Maximum Learning Speed 3.0", though I may not start playing it just yet. Perhaps I will start Stage 4 at the same time.

[Ampersnd]

Stage 25(26),

Long day, I go to classs, go to the gym and workout, go home, have my meals, sing, went to an early shift of work. By the end of my shift, my female friend calls and texts me a couple of times; I left my phone in the back, so I see all of them later on.

"Wanna hang out after xx:xx time?" she asks

I call and say "okay", and that we can meet at a coffee shop.

Two minutes into our conversation, she says that she has a craving for watching Simpsons, and that we should watch it. I play aloof abit and say "where? here?", and she gets frustrated. I say that my apartment is probably the best, and she agrees.

Once there, she basically jumps me. Guess what? We didn't watch Simpsons! Who would've thunk?

We went further than the last time, even the stuff she said that friends don't do, but we still didn't have sex (we'll probably never do that because of our simultaneous friendship).

We had a misunderstanding about the "ending", and the moment was ruined. Afterwards, she changes tones and says that we should stop doing this altogether. She even tries to rationalize that this was all done out of friendship.

Basically, it sounds like we're going to stop to keep each other from catching feelings, and I think that it's a good idea.

But, this was an unexpected twist for my night. Going to bed at midnight! Later!

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 26(27)

Yesterday, I bought Maximum Learning Speed. I was able to get 11 plays out of it (5.5 hours), using a 80:60 minute proportion between AM5.0 and 2 plays of MLS3.0. This means that Alpha Male, if played equally and as consistently, got nearly 7.5 hours. At night, it's 80:30 for more Alpha Male exposure.

Good long day, interrupted by a misunderstanding. I'll keep it brief.

Done my morning ritual, and in and out of the gym by 9:40. Once home, I work on something school related. At 2:30, I was set to meet someone for coffee. We misunderstood the actual day of the week (Tuesday vs. Thursday), so we didn't actually meet. That's fine; I run some errands and I go home around 3:45.

After that, I do some school work, then a vocalist ritual, practiced acoustic guitar for one hour, and then electric for 30 minutes while watching something for school.

Now, I just finished my evening ritual, and I plan to do nothing after that, so I have to plan my daily debrief journal BEFORE the ritual. It's 9:45, so I'll have a good long sleep.

I'm getting tired of the gym, but in under 5 days, the diet and exercise plan changes, so that's always good.

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 27(28)

Today, I got a lot of stuff done, and a woman got mad at me; well then.

A morning lab; this (other) young woman is taking part of it. We're doing measurements (wrist circumference, full body length, weight, etc.). I'm near her while she's laying down, with her lower cut shirt. God! She's looks fucking perfect! Now, I know a little bit about her, and she's a bit shy. I should find out if she has a boyfriend.

I did my exercises with an older (27 year old) woman; we were pretty flirty, but I don't see that going anywhere.

Anyways, I get home, and throw myself into each of my tasks. I do some readings, some flashcards, some more reading, then I practice vocals, print my resumes, practice acoustic guitar, have my meals, and head to work.

The work is going alright; the one guy with whom I'm near in age starts telling me about the girls he's "wheeled" this year alone (I did prompt him); he's a pretty normal guy. I'm not really having the sort of sex that I want to have.

Besides, the 'almost-sex' that I had a few days ago put a bad taste in my mouth. No particular reason why. Partially because she is a friend, partially because I wasn't 100% attracted to her body.

She tells me to contact her after I work. I have no idea what it was going to be. I got a bit worried about herpes and babies.

So, turns out that she was mad at me that I expressed interest in another woman shortly after what we had done, which is why she changed her tune very quickly. Then, as I do, I don't reach out to see "how they're doing" afterwards, so she thought I was ingnoring her. We spent 45 minutes on the phone clearing that up. We're on good terms now and we'll be going back to the way things were.

Today, I spoke a lot more softly, but it's centered.

The time for Stage 4 is fast approaching. I'm getting enough exposure on both the subliminals (AM and Max Learning Speed). Once again, if I have a short day, I'll just put AM on full priority.

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3 Day 28(29),

I'm less "Alpha" than I've considered myself as becoming. My emotional state is kind of crap; not angry, not sad. It's some sort of irritation and stuck-ness. I've tried some guiding thoughts; it has done a bit of good towards fixing it, which is all I could ask for.

I realize now that I value my time as the most precious commodity in my life right now, over money and relationships. I prefer working alone much more for that reason. When my time is wasted, it feels like someone has their hands in my bank account and is grabbing one dollar at a time. I'm thinking "no disrespect, but stop that".

I realize that time is all we have. So I have to dedicate a specific amount of time to school, a specific amount of time to my job, time to practice my instruments, for the gym and eating, for my morning rituals, to study.

AND THEN, when summer comes, I want to be a social master and a busker AS WELL as working more than full-time.

I got a bit extreme and said to myself: "If I have to sleep only 2 hours a night to make that come true, so be it." Damn, that's not very much. Hypersleep could be of some assistance, but that'd be dumb to use everynight.

So, I have to work at making my actions as efficient as possible, which is why I respect my time.

Today, it was hard to get anything specific done, given that I went to a job fair and went for groceries before work.

Looking forward to Stage 4.

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 29(30)

Today was a pretty good day.

Ritual and Class. The girl that I like has a boyfriend. Oh well.
Gym; I hit it hard; it's the last workout of this particular phase. So start Monday, a new workout and diet plan.. with Cheat DAYS!!! OMG! You can eat whatever you want one day a week. First order of business is eating marshmellows dipped in nutella and honey.

Anyways, at 2, I go to a group evaluation of my program; with some teachers that aren't from our school, we talked about the aspects of our program and how to improve. We finish at 3.

And from there, this got interesting for me.

I get home, clean up my place, start making flashcards. I get tired of doing them around 5:20. I tell myself that I'll start some of my musician rituals.

I start with vocalist. Then I do electric guitarist. And then Acoustic Guitarist. At the end, I've spent 3.5 hours doing something musical. AND THEN, I keep jamming afterwards. It's practically 10pm by the time that I'm done.

Some school related stuff gets done, and I then write a lesson plan for a guitar student of mine. Which reminds me; I'm giving my first guitar lesson tomorrow. He's a friend, but sounds like a complete beginner. I'd rather teach intermediates to get good; it's more engaging. But either way.

I didn't mention that after class ended today, I have 48 hours off of everything; school, work, etc. Everything that I take on is purely volontary. Sweet.

And, at work, there's a new guy who looks and acts like he finished Stage 6; dressed well, good manneurisms, solid presence, etc. He's a pretty cool guy. When I met him, I wasn't solid emotionally. Then again, I'm not really right now either. This seems to be common at the end of each stage. Stage 2, it was more anger and irritation. Stage 1, it was fear and being under pressure, though that was an external situation.

This Stage, I've experienced a bit of jealousy and a lot of feelings of being "Stuck", or mild grief. While playing my music today, I felt guilt for enjoying it. Once again, I'm excited for Stage 4!

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 30(31),

Slept roughly 6.5 hours. Woke up tired, and made it to a rendezvous to teach my older friend guitar. I taught him for 2 hours, got 20$. Not a big deal; I didn't really care how much I got out of it.

I got back, and became somewhat productive. Didn't do a thing school-related.

Practiced voice and acoustic guitar. I also wrote out my February resolutions:
- Do phase II of my "Engineering the Alpha" exercise and diet plan;
- Actually count the amount of macronutrients I'm eating;
- Solidify my Evening Ritual by doing it Sunday through to Thursday or Friday night;
- Plan the free info product that I'm creating, "Get Smart"
- Work on my research and Perilla project (12-13 minutes each a day)
- Fulfill Abraham Hicks' "30 Day Challenge"; control my emotional state to be a deliberate creator in manifesting
- Find a summer job

At 6pm, I head over to my work, as it is closing. We went to a dinner at a pretty swanky restaurant. I didn't pay a dime for the dinner, except for the extra drink that I purchased.

Partway through, some of the female employees tell me that I look/act much older than what I am, and that I could pull of 26/27. Our female manager told me that I'm gradually coming into my own, in an indirect way.

With one of my co-workers, we went to an empty bar to pick something up (empty because the weather was kind of discouraging for bar-goers), and then we went to a small house party. It wasn't that eventful; we won at beer pong.

At the end of the night, I wind up pretty tired. People always comment and think that something is wrong.

[Dee]

- Plan the free info product that I'm creating, "Get Smart"

That sounds interesting, tell us more about this, and is it really free or is it bate.

I have read about all the languages and instruments you have been learning and i assume you have many techniques. are you going to post the link here after or are you still protecting your identity?

[Ampersnd]

@Dee,

It will be free (#givetogive). I don't want to be a learning guru. And the difference in accessibility between free and 1.00$ is a few billion people.

Yet, I have to put in a bunch of time to make it happen, so it might take a while.

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 31(32), I should order Stage 4 tomorrow night.

Woke up with a bit of resistance (tired), though I got 8 hours.

Today was resistance day; it wasn't a bad day. I went to work at noon, but soon after, I was hit with a tired sort of grief. I had to go to the washroom to EFT tap that away. I also felt light-headed.

I thought I would practice one of the techniques of the Abraham Hicks book. You guide a negative feeling up to positivity with gradually changing thoughts. And it worked. But a couple times, when I guided it up to optimism, it would suddenly jump down to discouragement, and I would start again. This sort of training will train my focus, so that once that resistance is gone, I will be a fucking happiness monster.

My rituals will be jarred a bit; I'm waking up at 5:15am now, and starting my ritual asap, so that I can finish around 6:55, make breakfast, and THEN, launch another ritual to do some school related things that I usually haven't made time for:

- 1st Research Project (12.5 minutes)
- 2nd Research Project (12.5 minutes)
- Applying for jobs (15 minutes)

This is to get the ball rolling for the rest of the day; I will certainly do much more than 12.5 minutes a day heh.

I'm jumping into Phase II of "Engineering the Alpha", different diet and exercise plan. Cheat days are set for Sundays. So excited for those. Fast days set for Mondays.

[Ampersnd]

New [VDO]; Stage 3, Day 31
http://youtu.be/JEgcJZgbaQE

[Ampersnd]

This is my last day on Stage 3.

If you're wondering if I managed to get up at 5:15am and did my second ritual.. YES! That new ritual will prove VERY useful over the course of time.

I've gotten past the emotional turmoil of this stage; I'm feeling very good now, especially thanks to Abraham Hicks' materials. You should check out her rampages on YouTube.

If this feeling continues and increases, we can expect some interesting manifestations.

[Ampersnd]

Stage 3, Day 32(33),

Stage 3 has been breached. I have purchased Stage 4.

I feel like I drained all the benefits from Stage 3. MLS3.0 is an excellent complement.
So far, I noticed a trend; I start a stage, I get immediate benefits and results, it backtracks and I have to go through emotional trials in order to get back to the benefits.

So I got up earlier (5:15am) and fit in an extra ritual. Tomorrow is a day off, so I can mix things up a bit.

My new workout plan is INTENSE. I tooks some pictures of myself to compare to the first stage, and I look so much more cut and trim; it's almost like the distinction between boy-body and man-body. This month is the testosterone phase, so I'm anxious to see its effects on me.

After my workout and meal, I ran <Sleep Magic>, and wound up passing out for about 1.5 hours! Shannon, there should really be something audible to wake us up. My fault was that the Media Player was on loop, so it just set me back to sleep lol.

After that, I went to work on schoolwork. Unfortunately, no time to do music, except for roughly 15 minutes on guitar.

I got an online interview on Friday. Work went well. I breezed through my Korean and Italian flashcards while working. My walk back was immensely beautiful; the falling snow was almost suspended in midair.

Looking forward to what this Stage holds.

[swisston]

When you say 'Testosterone phase' are we talking big lifts or supplements?