Ampers&'s Alpha Male Journal [COMPLETE]

[Ampersnd]

[NEW VIDEO] DAY 6
http://youtu.be/bvW_zGlBKKA

I must say, holy shit, big difference

When I say practice, I'm talking about guitar and vocals simultaneously.
When I say my muscles have gotten bigger, I've actually been working out (THIS PROGRAM DOES NOT GIVE YOU MUSCLES (I think), though it probably gives you the motivation to exercise).

My morning ritual centers around this: http://projectlifemastery.com/video-blog...your-life/

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Stage 1, Day 7,

Day 7, I worked, and then bused straight to a friend's house (who lives 40 minutes away) for another friend's birthday dinner. It's the first time I see both of them with this new Doo; both called me "very handsome".

Funny enough, on the busride over, I chat up these two girls (both were black, one of them I found was very cute). At the dinner, I made a connection with a girl who's going back to Quebec City the next day to start her classes back up (for those who don't know Canadian geography, that's roughly 4 hours on the highway from Ottawa). The PYT's friend on the bus gives me her card, and the girl at the restaurant adds me on Facebook.

Black women are starting to become more attractive to me. Kerri Washington, yum

Back at my friend's house, she was being very affectionate and friendly (with limits since she has a boyfriend), we watched part of a movie and ended it as it was getting late. I went to bed with the subs playing on loop.

Day 8

It's been a whole week of this subliminal; there is absolutely some differences, especially given that it's only the first stage, and the first stage is hit or miss.

I get back home at around 3:45pm (with Daylight Savings Time in place)

Notably, I go to the gym at around 6:45 and talk with this pretty asian young woman from one treadmill to another. I only got her name (Lynda) and we agreed that we might see each other again.

Which is the part where I'm confused.. I'm obviously interested in these women, and have no shame in stating that I'm interested. However, I've been a follower of Brent Smith and Coach Craig and their main message is "Don't persue; give them a way to reach you and live your life as extravagantly as possible, the women will follow".

I don't think I have my life together enough to have these women want to persue me (I mean to rely on the sub alone would be stupid; it's only been 1 week), so should I simply wait it out and work on my life until something clicks? Or should I give these women some way to make it easier for them to persue me?

Either way, I'm pretty busy, so it's not the end of the world. But I'm now feeling this pent-up feeling thinking about it. Cool stuff

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Stage 1, Day 9

I had my first day in my new co-op placement; the people there were very friendly and time went by pretty quickly, plus it's closer to my apartment, but less bus access. Mostly pros.

Yesterday's pent-up feeling increased and welled up for several moments today; I realised that I've let a couple aspects of my life atrophy, and they're not where I'd really like them to be. Those areas are social life and love life.

I also felt like a complete fool for not offering my number to the cute asian girl at the gym.

What another poster said about neediness MIGHT be true for me. Today, I had this desire to be with that same asian girl with me on my bed, with her stroking my hair and looking deep in my eyes between kisses. That was a really strong desire that lasted for a couple of minutes. Could be a sign that I want a relationship? Or simply want to connect with women more? Perhaps neediness is coming up to the surface.

Just watched Geodude's video on self love and tapping
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mDoPwovH6I

I'm handsome as hell, but when I had low self-esteem I looked like a goofy awkward loser in all of my pics. My self-esteem is really high and I'm now a lot more photogenic.

He wasn't lying about the handsome thing. Nice work.

Gonna tap away the awkwardness I feel about my older pics and video

[AlphaScorpio]

Hey Dan, you're doing good man keep up with the progress!

Btw are you on self awakening.com?

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@AlphaScorpio; I am on Self-Awakening.com, though the forum seems to have stopped moving. I wouldn't know, I haven't gone on for a while. Are you?

Still Day 9,

I tapped to old photos of myself; there was quite a lot of releasing. There was a marked difference in my appearance and presence. I was able to gain a fresh idea of how I'd look in music videos (I want to be a musician)

Stage 1, Day 10.

The subs were on for quite a long time today, and I had a short day at work (basically three hours with my new boss). But that's two hours of commuting; plenty of sub time and Anki slides for Italian.

The women who worked there (much older) seemed appreciative to meet me (they work with very few men at the old folks' home). One of the fews guys who worked there told me themselves about this. Tomorrow, I'll be working with some sort of responsibility and independance.

Not much else to report otherwise.

[Fonzy3]

This journal has been thoroughly entertaining. Dan your positivity/ good vibes are off the charts! I've learned quite a bit from your journal, that morning ritual really helps. I think your decision in getting a haircut was a big step towards being more alpha, it looks very sharp. You getting into new languages is something that also stood out, seems like you are making use of your opportunities and taking it seriously.

In regards to the asian girl you can't get off your mind, there's nothing wrong with doing what you think is right, go for it, ask for the number. There can be an increasing abundance of positive outcomes that come from your future interactions with this girl. I'm sure there will also be many more women out there that will catch your eye. Anyways, appreciate the updates.

Thanks

Fonzy

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Stage 1, Day 11

I had a relatively full day at the co-op today; I knocked away a pretty big work load in a few hours; it was a very focused few hours.

Did more Anki slides and got vaccinated for influenza; I have a big project to organise an employee dinner night that will be taking place 4 weeks from now.

(@Fonzy: I've been learning languages for a while, but my desire to learn more has increased, and my willingness to try out new methods has increased, especially writing down whatever comes to mind in that language before going to bed, using the words and the grammar that I know to express myself)

On the topic, I took out three DVDs based in the Italian language; NOTE: don't use this method to begin learning languages; I'm very far along.

I learned that writing is great to begin integrating languages, ESPECIALLY BEFORE BED to consolidate overnight; I had spent a couple of months learning the top 950 most frequently used words in the Korean language and studied them on Anki; it was no use to me since I didn't build a net, where I could jump from one expression to another, learning interjections or propositions. They will probably pop up in my conversations when I start learning them.

I considered commiting to a year-long journey to pick up where I left off with Korean; November 18, 2013 would be the starting point. Why? Exactly one year before that date, I asked a friend if spending one year with some rigour would prove useful. They said yes.

As a note, I think maturity is the ability to think in time commitments of 6 months or 1 year (or more). Funny since I had already made such commitments, such as the study of three books: The Law of Success in 16 lessons by Napoleon Hill, A Course in Miracles, and The Science of Getting Rich (gotta reread)

This following program, which I purchased 9 months ago, has been studied for 3 weeks in early 2013. I will commit to going through the 24 weeks (roughly 5-6 months) if I do decide to start the year long commitment. Thoughts?
http://www.flrmethod.com/fluent/korean-l...e-courses/

This commitment would mean that I'd be studying these languages:

i) Italian : progressing to "advanced" very quickly, but which SOME gaping beginner mistakes. I can learn through reading and watching films or listening to radio;

ii) Spanish: past the initial "Beginner" phase where I am studying 'Intermidiate I' in LingQ (a cool language learning website) because it's a great way to learn tons of new words instead of the very basics. I may be studying this course in university next semester; Learning is light at this time of the year.

iii) Korean: "False beginner"; I've been on and off; though I know several words, I can't form full sentences nor hold a conversation, but I have lots of exposure to the language; Intermediate I (like Spanish) is overwhelming because it has no similarily to roman languages.

Thoughts?

Too much commitment can overwhelm me and I frankly think 2 languages is more than enough. For Italian, I'm learning a lot though I don't know where I'll be "satisfied" with my knowledge.

I went to the gym today and people were getting out of my way much more. I was a little taken a back by this; I did what I could to take it as it comes.

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@Fonzy

By they way; a big thanks for reading and giving me this support!
I had been wishing for people to give some sort of feedback and create some discussion, and when you offered some, I almost brushed it off.

Big success!

[Fonzy3]

@Fonzy

By they way; a big thanks for reading and giving me this support!
I had been wishing for people to give some sort of feedback and create some discussion, and when you offered some, I almost brushed it off.

Big success!

You clearly began thinking about your future after viewing my post. Come on bro, it's impossible to brush off a gem like that. You gotta be pretty comfortable with yourself to accept what you perceive to be advice that comes to you. I'm glad you appreciate the advice.

I'll take into consideration that writing down languages will help get me more integrated. That "willingness" you described sounds like something that comes with becoming more of an alpha male. I like the technique of writing anything down that comes to mind in proper grammatical form but wouldn't knowing the culture of Italian, French or Korean serve you better when doing this?

I'm 21 (around your age) and currently in my 4th year of university at Wilfrid Laurier and being in this position feels like the most important place to be as I have access to an abundance of the greatest resource in the world. I tried learning French one summer and even downloaded Rosetta Stone but I was too preoccupied with improving my financial situation. Knowing different languages definitely increases your options as you can relate to a wider range of people. I say go for it, in regards to your plan. On your journey you might even find some women that know these languages that you can converse with. Sounds like you just need to put more time on Korean so go ahead and take on all three, but commit to maintain your interest.

Thanks

Fonzy

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Stage 1, Day 12

Fortunately, since I bought that FLR program so long ago, the Skype lessons with the creator are still valid; I contacted him and I'll probably cash one in pretty soon. I'll pace them out a few weeks apart (I have 12), since it's pretty obvious that the secret is applied effort. If I cash them all in right away, it won't do any good.

Nothing major to report on the Alpha Male sub specifically.

I've been putting more effort into my musician mastermind; and I'll have a couple of new members in the near future. The actual mastermind has been latent because of the amount of time put in co-op, and the other member in the studio some days of the week.

Gotta finish my part for a project, and I have a show tomorrow with a set of a couple hours; it'll go really well.

@Fonzy; I was considering that; perhaps I stop doing the "learning" in a language until I integrate myself in the culture long enough to pick up any loose vocabulary words and slang that I may have missed.

All three languages are a go; Italian's far enough along to not even consider it as a "learning language"; it'd be like practicing my French (which I'm fluent), so it's just something to maintain.

Spanish and Korean are in "learning mode"; Korean likely starting in the very near future. A bit busy for the next few days.

And so you're also a Canadian too, eh?.. funny enough, Waterloo is rather close to my hometown (Niagara area).

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Stage 1, Day 13

The highlight of my day is that I went to an open mic and performed two songs; I met two people that would be fantastic for this mastermind group. One I talked with in depth, the other one the surface, so I'll reach out to her really soon.

My performance; I went first, which is never an advantageous position; some part didn't feel like I did them quite as well as at home, practicing. But a lot of people called me "very talented". After the open, I lost track of the one friend, met a cute german girl (on exchange) who knows enough English for conversations, but if I go away from typical verbs or expressions, she got lost (it was very cute). She had too French friends with her, so given our brief conversation, I told them to add me on Facebook if they want to see more of me.

During the event, I started various conversations and introduced a couple of people (doing some Brent Smith stuff, called "being the mayor"), basically being friendly to everyone. It was a generally positive experience, so want to play more of these open mics and master the performance area of musicianship. Even the girl that I was interested in (one I met beforehand) left with her friends without saying "ciao" and it did get at me for a moment, but that was more a question of respect than anything else.

After the event, I lost track of the one friend and I left alone, and didn't care. I played on my campus with my guitar for a half-hour in -1 Celcius weather until my hands became too frigid. It made me want to consider busking when the spring comes, on my off time (since winter would be far too cold to pull off). It would really advance me as a singer and a performer who can keep time when he plays.

A generally good day!

[ncbeareatingman]

Congrats Dan, congrats Man!! Yer right on Target. Keith. Im in the BAMM journal most of the time. welcome in,as it were Dan. Keith.

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Stage 1, Day 13

This will speak for itself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qlRV73jBseE

I feel that in the video, I'm trying hard (subconsciously) to be precise, but I was tired so I was making sure to be clear and audible.

This might go away later in the stage, or in another stage.

Stage 1, Day 14,

Before work, I got up a little earlier; though it wasn't completely productive
Work went by relatively quickly.

I've had the desire to start busking in the spring, and it's growing. I think it's simply the desire to master the "whole package" element of me as a musician, where I can easily be marketable. Drop me on a street corner with a guitar, and I'll shine. That sort of thing. A busking licence costs 200$ in Ottawa for a year. Very steep considering that Victoria, British Columbia has a yearly licence costing 10$ for a whole year.

But then there was the monetary aspect of it; say I run "Maximum Sales Success" (which I can begin playing as soon as May 6-7, the final days of Stage 6) while going through this phase, I could potentially be racking in the dough while also working a full-time job, or a couple of part times. This would likely require for me to improve my sleeping habits, hence throwing in a sleep related subliminal, "Deep, Restful Sleep" or "Sleep Optimizer" and handling more irregular hours.

In fact, I even thought up a whole plan with this; perform a lot, while developping feelings of opulence (for manifestation's sake), develop talent, have a Bar Code leading to my Facebook page, earn money, build a following, and THEN offer to my custom song offerings; where I write original songs for people on special occasions (they're expensive and my song writing is good (trust me; I can send some MIDI tracks to whoever wants them)), earn more income and a following while creating professional level-grade singles, build an EP, submit the EP to radio stations/show up in person, submit the songs to songwriting contests, potentially get airtime on Canadian radio (they have to broadcast 35-50% Canadian content), get interest from record labels, done deal.

I was shocked to not have thought of such a plan beforehand; now that I have some more confidence than before, I'm actually willing to busk, or do other actions. To actually do these actions is another step.

I've also had another realisation; one major barrier to taking an action is the attachment to the steps have to appear; if you want to start writing a report, you could simply start writing what you come to mind, open up an internet tab for research. If you're attached to how the action of "doing the report" should look, then you'll have this nameless frustration attached to actually doing the action, so you won't do it (procrastinate). We tend to avoid negative emotions.

You'll often have this romanticized version of how it should look, attached in the back of your mind, without realizing it. So you'll put off the action if you don't think your effort will match your mental image. So this is where getting into the moment and taking simple action is so much better than to be thinking all of the time.

I used to take ice baths, and getting out of your mind and simply experiencing the sensations was the single best way to get through them. Because it's not that bad when you're not thinking about it.

I practiced some slide guitar for the first time, on a song from Django Unchained ("Too Old To Die Young") and had a group meeting with members of my one class project, not in that order.

Ironically enough, I'm noticing more and more where I'm failing to get things done and wasting my life away. But that can only frustrate me enough to start taking some big action.

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Stage 1, Day 15

I woke up early to bail out a friend; not the prison type; it was a bit of a weird position for me, given the scenario. I won't go too much in depth.

The biggest thing I noticed today was my productivity and positivity towards productivity have gone sky high; since I got up early and had to complete a portion of a project. I wanted to test out my theory of getting distracted and being attached to how things have to look.

So I let it go and put some focus in my work; and it worked quick. Did a whole lot of productive work in my day, practiced more than usual, did groceries, went to the gym, and now I'm noticing when that focus goes away. Now I commit make that a thing.

At this point, I feel a little bit of resistance, and simply push through and ACT. It's cool; I used to be in my head in that regard. Nice.