AM 5.0 Journal

[SargeMaximus]

ofc I should've mentioned that the pride is a cover up for fear it's false pride
these past days, ive hit another bump in the road with AM there were bumps in the road on the other two stages around the same time as this, this is nearly as bad as the other ones, sometimes I feel almost bipolar doing AM like earlier this week on Monday I was feeling pretty good. about 2 weeks ago I was feeling on top of the world and unstoppable, now I feel angry, hateful and depressed. I know there will be brighter days ahead even with all this doubt.

Yeah I know what you mean. Eventually you just recognize it as part of the process. I'm in the same boat right now and I'm just like "ok, so this is working on something". Strangely enough, I'm almost glad when I feel bad or out of it nowadays because of that very reason.

[adventurousman]

The statements in my programs that are made public are only part of what the whole of each statement is made up of. Yes, those public statements are akin to common affirmations, but when I get done adding metascripting, self optimizing scripting, postscripting, HyperSpeed, MaxSpeed, the Optimus Engine, the Naturalizer and so forth, it's not an affirmation anymore. It's a very highly tuned, very specific set of instructions. There is a big difference, which is why I go to the trouble to do all the work it takes to go beyond simple affirmations for preparing each of my scripts. That is why people pay so much more for my programs than for those of my competitors.

Then that's great because I don't want to know the script anyway, I'm referring to only part of the script as u said. So I've a vague idea what the affirmations are. So I meant those common affirmations.

One of the methods for determining whether someone would be affected would break one of our house forum rules for me to mention here. So... I won't. It wouldn't matter anyway, since you almost certainly wouldn't be able to use it for that purpose regardless.

I don't get that. So a person breaking one of the forum rules would be effected (negatively) by subs & I won't be able to use it for that purpose? My purpose is simply to be fearless and change my programming and be at ease.

Control freaks usually have a harder time with being influenced because the control freak nature comes from fear of not having control, and the resulting insecurities. These people tend to resist being influenced, especially if they don't know what's in the script. I have spent a lot of years learning how to word my scripts so that resistance is minimized, but in about 2% of people, it still can cause issues, depending on the program in question.

Can I do anything consciously to allow the subs to work? I'd try to be more relaxed and let go of things. Also the subs in question is AM

The possible exception would be Optimus Engine based or inclusive programs, which may actually be perfect in terms of covering everything.

so which programs have OE? What do u mean by inclusive programs?

Hypnosis, NLP, certain types of meditation, specific types of subliminals. Used properly means used in the manner indicated by the instructions.

It depends on specifics. In some cases, I create my programs to replace negatives with positives.

What kind of meditation would that be? I'm meditating where I'm the watcher and just observing what's going on (detached from it) that gives me a new perspective and working as a scientist who is fixing his machine by studying it.

understanding how the subconscious differs from the conscious mind in terms of comprehension, information processing, and logical capacity. Contradictions are very possible for exactly the reasons that you are demonstrating: a lack of understanding of how the subconscious and conscious differ in these areas, on top of the fact that scripting methods may directly contradict by trying to do things in opposite ways, or other possible issues.

So u don't suggest using any other technique with subs? And if I use it u r saying I might get different results even negative ones? I still can't rely entirely only on subs.

[Shannon]

One of the methods for determining whether someone would be affected would break one of our house forum rules for me to mention here. So... I won't. It wouldn't matter anyway, since you almost certainly wouldn't be able to use it for that purpose regardless.

I don't get that. So a person breaking one of the forum rules would be effected (negatively) by subs & I won't be able to use it for that purpose? My purpose is simply to be fearless and change my programming and be at ease.

I am not communicating as effectively as I would like, I think. Breaking forum rules would have nothing to do with how the subs affect you. The method I am referring to is something I agreed not to discuss on the forum. It's a technique that very, very few people could use, so it's unlikely that it would be useful to you regardless.

Control freaks usually have a harder time with being influenced because the control freak nature comes from fear of not having control, and the resulting insecurities. These people tend to resist being influenced, especially if they don't know what's in the script. I have spent a lot of years learning how to word my scripts so that resistance is minimized, but in about 2% of people, it still can cause issues, depending on the program in question.

Can I do anything consciously to allow the subs to work? I'd try to be more relaxed and let go of things. Also the subs in question is AM

You don't know if the program will work for you until you use it. That's why we have such a generous refund policy. Buy it, use it according to the instructions, and if it doesn't work for you, just request a refund within 180 days of having finished using it according to the instructions. Problem solved.

The possible exception would be Optimus Engine based or inclusive programs, which may actually be perfect in terms of covering everything.

so which programs have OE? What do u mean by inclusive programs?

The programs that have the Optimus Engine in them can be specifically based on it, or include it along with a standard script. Those that include it are always 5th Gen programs, and they always say they include OE in the listing in the store.

Hypnosis, NLP, certain types of meditation, specific types of subliminals. Used properly means used in the manner indicated by the instructions.

It depends on specifics. In some cases, I create my programs to replace negatives with positives.

What kind of meditation would that be? I'm meditating where I'm the watcher and just observing what's going on (detached from it) that gives me a new perspective and working as a scientist who is fixing his machine by studying it.

In general, any meditation which allows for you to communicate your desires to your subconscious effectively is going to be useful in that regard.

understanding how the subconscious differs from the conscious mind in terms of comprehension, information processing, and logical capacity. Contradictions are very possible for exactly the reasons that you are demonstrating: a lack of understanding of how the subconscious and conscious differ in these areas, on top of the fact that scripting methods may directly contradict by trying to do things in opposite ways, or other possible issues.

So u don't suggest using any other technique with subs? And if I use it u r saying I might get different results even negative ones? I still can't rely entirely only on subs.
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I don't suggest using anything with subliminals unless you are sure the scripts do not clash. If the scripts are not designed in the same style, or contain contradictory instruction sets, you can have odd, unpredictable results, possibly negative. There are some people here who do use my subs with hypnosis, etc. but I have received reports from people who tried using programs that conflicted or were poorly scripted that they got such unpredictable or negative results from doing so, which is why we recommend against that practice.

[AlphaScorpio]

So got some interesting news to update with, Today i've done nothing but sit on the pc playing games, felt pretty miserable all day really, then this girl who ive known for a long time who's been keen on me since I met her texts me saying I wanna bang you x so im like o.0 she's been trolled or somin, I go "fo real?" back and she says yes honestly please... so i keep texting her and she actually sounded up for it so i said invite me to your house then she said okayy, i said make sure its free etc. she asked me if i knew where she lived i said yeh. This is odd, might actually be getting laid, the funny thing was for the past few days ive been thinking and talking to my friends about how i just want to get laid and get it over with (im still a virgin) so i dont think this is a coincidence... what do you guys think? very odd... Ive kinda been attracted to this girl on and off but i never wanted to admit it to my mates for fear of being judged or laughed at, she's actually gotten better looking and has a nice figure...

[SargeMaximus]

So got some interesting news to update with, Today i've done nothing but sit on the pc playing games, felt pretty miserable all day really, then this girl who ive known for a long time who's been keen on me since I met her texts me saying I wanna bang you x so im like o.0 she's been trolled or somin, I go "fo real?" back and she says yes honestly please... so i keep texting her and she actually sounded up for it so i said invite me to your house then she said okayy, i said make sure its free etc. she asked me if i knew where she lived i said yeh. This is odd, might actually be getting laid, the funny thing was for the past few days ive been thinking and talking to my friends about how i just want to get laid and get it over with (im still a virgin) so i dont think this is a coincidence... what do you guys think? very odd... Ive kinda been attracted to this girl on and off but i never wanted to admit it to my mates for fear of being judged or laughed at, she's actually gotten better looking and has a nice figure...

Do what you want to do man. That's what AM is helping you with, so as long as it's something you want to do, go for it.

[AlphaScorpio]

yeah i've secretly wanted to for a while now... but my fears have held me back from actually going for it, I've had some sexual guilt and shame throught my life my parents have always said dont have sex before marrige but I'd rather find it out by myself. This is quite a big step in terms of progress as I have always found it hard to be upfront about sexual desires etc. when i see this girl we flirt alot and we got good chemistry she's one of the few girls I actually feel really comfortable teasing and stuff so yeah why not. anyways we'll see what happens this friday...

[SargeMaximus]

yeah i've secretly wanted to for a while now... but my fears have held me back from actually going for it, I've had some sexual guilt and shame throught my life my parents have always said dont have sex before marrige but I'd rather find it out by myself. This is quite a big step in terms of progress as I have always found it hard to be upfront about sexual desires etc. when i see this girl we flirt alot and we got good chemistry she's one of the few girls I actually feel really comfortable teasing and stuff so yeah why not. anyways we'll see what happens this friday...

Awesome. Just make sure to be safe and have fun. It'll be the first among many I'm sure.

[AlphaScorpio]

a question for Shannon, I'm thinking about adding socializing is a fun game along side stage 3of Am 5 would this clash? I'm thinking of adding this to help me see socializing in a different light, I've tended to get a bit worked up about meeting people and socializing seeing it as more of a test of my abilities which makes me overly pressure myself, become too in my head, unable to relax, chill and just appreciate other people's company. I tend to get down on myself when I don't surpass my expectations of being socially adept etc. which in result causes me to overly criticize myself and lose esteem. what are your thoughts?

[AlphaScorpio]

After some strong urges for the past few days to add another subliminal to the mix with AM 5 I have decided I won't be using any other subliminal and will finish it to the end. I want to solely focus on becoming my own man and having a positive self esteem and respect. I don't want anything else distracting me from that. So Shannon please ignore my last post, I will use Socializing is just a fun game in the few weeks break I have after stage 6 of AM I think it'll follow up nicely before I start the heavy stuff again with AM 6 stage 1.

It's Stage 3 - Day 14 And today I have felt a little better in terms of anxiety/self esteem, I can still feel it down in my stomach but it feels like it's being diminished, still, I don't feel like going out and socializing or even talking to my family much I just want to do my own thing.

I have spent about 2 hours in the garden with the hot sun doing my 5X5
Workout which includes Squats, Deadlifts and Benchpress. This gave me a nice shot of testosterone for a few hours which always makes you feel better. I then had a cold shower, washed my hair, trimmed up my downstairs for friday night and shaved my beard to some nice side burns.

Also I had cooked some onions in virgin oil and 2 eggs + HQ Protein shake which has really made me feel nice and anabolic, less stressed. So overall good changes regarding my personal hygiene and motivation to make myself healthy. I still feel a bit anxious when I imagine going to see friends...this bothers me but I will just do my own thing until I feel more confident or less worried.

Also feeling pretty confident for tomorrow, I've got all the protection and other things covered, so im looking forward to this, it's a step towards manhood, AM's pushing me to do things I have been scared of.

[SargeMaximus]

After some strong urges for the past few days to add another subliminal to the mix with AM 5 I have decided I won't be using any other subliminal and will finish it to the end. I want to solely focus on becoming my own man and having a positive self esteem and respect. I don't want anything else distracting me from that. So Shannon please ignore my last post, I will use Socializing is just a fun game in the few weeks break I have after stage 6 of AM I think it'll follow up nicely before I start the heavy stuff again with AM 6 stage 1.

It's Stage 3 - Day 14 And today I have felt a little better in terms of anxiety/self esteem, I can still feel it down in my stomach but it feels like it's being diminished, still, I don't feel like going out and socializing or even talking to my family much I just want to do my own thing.

I have spent about 2 hours in the garden with the hot sun doing my 5X5
Workout which includes Squats, Deadlifts and Benchpress. This gave me a nice shot of testosterone for a few hours which always makes you feel better. I then had a cold shower, washed my hair, trimmed up my downstairs for friday night and shaved my beard to some nice side burns.

Also I had cooked some onions in virgin oil and 2 eggs + HQ Protein shake which has really made me feel nice and anabolic, less stressed. So overall good changes regarding my personal hygiene and motivation to make myself healthy. I still feel a bit anxious when I imagine going to see friends...this bothers me but I will just do my own thing until I feel more confident or less worried.

Also feeling pretty confident for tomorrow, I've got all the protection and other things covered, so im looking forward to this, it's a step towards manhood, AM's pushing me to do things I have been scared of.

Awesome man. Good luck with tomorrow.

[SexyMofo]

Good decision man. I was going to comment but since your question was addressed to Shannon I preferred not to. But yeap that was an excellent decision. Many (just like you) are tempted to use other subs as a crutch to get them by in their alpha journey. Indeed the first few stages(or the first run through) could be very stressful which makes you look for alternative solutions just to be able to put a band aid on certain circumstances your facing. Alpha is one heck of a sub compared to 4G single stage subs. I'm currently doing BIATBW and I can say my mind is working a lot lesser compared to when I was doing Alpha.

[AlphaScorpio]

So got some stuff to share for today, I went over to this girl's house, everything was going good and smooth I led the interaction pretty well by being comfortably dominant.(I much prefer being dominant in bed) and showing her how to do things ,made us both laugh when something was a little awkward or when she was a bit nervous (her first time doing anything with a guy) we had some good foreplay and (won't go into too much detail) I helped her let go into pretty serious arousal by giving her some.

It was all good until my downstairs decided it wasn't time to pop up -_-

I was annoyed at the time and a little embarrassed (not neally as much as I thought I'd be) but I made a joke about it saying "Oh dayum, trust me it does get bigger than this" which made her laugh "I should hope so". I'm not entirely sure why it happened but I'm suspecting it's to do with either the fact I smoke, watched porn since I was 11 or I simply had some nerves.

Nonetheless, I'm glad I tried and I felt good even though I didn't get none, It's shown me that I do have to change something whether it's more regular exercise, healthier lifestyle, quit smoking or to go see a doctor about it. I said to her "Ah well, we'll try it again next time." She agreed and said I'll be coming back again sometime.

Positive makes progress.

[K-Train]

So got some stuff to share for today, I went over to this girl's house, everything was going good and smooth I led the interaction pretty well, made us both laugh when something was a little awkward or when she was a bit nervous (her first time doing anything with a guy) we had some good foreplay and (won't go into too much detail) I helped her let go into arousal by giving her some.

It was all good until my downstairs decided it wasn't time to pop up -_-

I was annoyed at the time and a little embarrassed (not neally as much as I thought I'd be) but I made a joke about it saying "Oh dayum, trust me it does get bigger than this" which made her laugh "I should hope so". I'm not entirely sure why it happened but I'm suspecting it's to do with either the fact I smoke, watched porn since I was 11 or I simply had some nerves.



Positive makes progress.

I literally LOL'D at the part in bold! From one Scorpio to another, I must say well played my brother...well played.

Also, definitely lay off the porn just a bit. I've reduced my fapping to just once a week and let me tell you it definitely helps out especially in conjunction with NSFM and PSE. Sometimes as men (and scorpios ) we need to be in horndog mode especially in cases like yours. No worries though, at least she's already agreed to come back so whatever you were doing in the foreplay department got her hooked.

[AlphaScorpio]

haha thanks for the support Scorpibro
yeah I haven't watched porn for about a week I'm aiming for 3months no porn (long term for life).

I was considering not fapping for 3 months as well but I then read a few posts about people totally losing their sex drive and erections so I thought nah that's not worth it at all:p

I will try your 1 a week k-train and see how I do.

aha you seem to love those arousal subs man, I bet they're the shit!