Shannon's Journal, Volume 3

[Shannon]

With only about 10 minutes left until the job was finished and upload began, I realized during a QC check that I had skipped a step a ways back, and that the last 2 hours of work had been a complete waste of time... and they had to be thrown away.

Now I am too tired to keep going until after I eat and have a break. So time for dinner, and then back at it. The Male Enhancement program will be uploaded tonight, and I should be able to release it probably late in the day my time, tomorrow.

[Shannon]

[shannon@localhost Compressed]$ sha256sum *

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4b8f69aaa3a2e55855b91a2b9b46891b3918413b6f0f4b331ef647ea23ed1e6e Male_Enhancement_5757G_Masked_Subliminal_(Trickling_Stream).flac

bc20e115707fbf2a6051d70cb6e4b5fdd987dbe25b8e03be62a1875a9f53e9e5 Male_Enhancement_5757G_Masked_Subliminal_(Trickling_Stream).mp3

c2a535c2c572289e576af88a8d19ea997fdeb6c73fff171a4a66960e9d0e1b20 Male_Enhancement_5757G_Subliminal_FLAC.zip

c8d433db5629a78abdb78ed3a8695aeebd81d0b8fe5e22fb79e8b37f265fc9fb Male_Enhancement_5757G_Subliminal_MP3.zip

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[shannon@localhost Compressed]$ sha256sum *.txt

ae4a7a1c58fa8122e3daaf5601e953929e27cf5beec0cf571c8833fe7af82bdd Male_Enhancement_5757G_SHA256Sum_Hashes.txt

[shannon@localhost Compressed]$

[Shannon]

Alright, Male Enhancement 5.75.7G is uploaded.  Now we just need to link the files, and prepare the description and instructions.

Here's a heads up.

To really know accurately what this program does for you, you will need to accurately measure your penis, both fully erect and completely flaccid.

This is done by using a tape measure for girth measurements (around), which is only going to be accurate when you are as erect as you can get.  For length, you can use a tape measure or a ruler.

DO NOT assume you can measure it accurately "by sight", because YOU CAN'T.  If you don't measure it accurately BEFORE starting the program, you will never really accurately know what the program did for you.

So here are specific instructions for how to accurately and uniformly measure your penis, which you should do BEFORE you use Male Enhancement, and AFTER you finish your run.  Not during.

To accurately measure the length, I suggest using a ruler.  Hold it at the top of your penis so you can read the ruler in whatever units you use (centimetres or inches) and see your penis as well.  For a flaccid penis, hold the penis up to the edge of the ruler from below, but be careful NOT to stretch it.  That will give you a false answer as to how long it is when it is soft.  Simply hold it so that the entire length of your penis touches the ruler, and the base of the ruler is at as close to the skin as possible.  Then take a measurement.

For an erect penis, the procedure is the same.  Make sure it is as erect as possible.  In neither case should you try to make it measure as longer than it actually is.  If your penis curves to one side or up or down, you can measure it as is (which will give an artificially lower length than it really has) or you can straighten it for measurement (unless that hurts), or you can use a string held to the middle at the top all the way down the length so that you get the actual length regardless of its curve, and then measure the string.

To measure the girth, you will either need a piece of string or a tape measure.  With a fully erect penis, wrap it once around the middle of your penis, half way from the base to the tip, and make sure it is snug so it is accurate.  Then either read the measurement or measure the length of string that results.

Please resist the temptation to measure your penis every hour, day, week, month, whatever.  Do it before you start, and after you finish the run.  And run the program according to the instructions.

This time, I expect better from you guys than last time, with the ridiculous estimations and "measurements".  You can't "eyeball it" or "estimate it" or "just know".  Measure it, and do so accurately, before and after using the program.

Thank you for your help in accurately determining what this program actually does.

[Shannon]

We are putting the final touches on the program before publication. It should be released shortly; just have to have Ben link the files and we should be good to go.

[Shannon]

I bought a new larger backup drive yesterday.  It's marketed as being 12 terabytes.  Formatted, it's actually between 10.5 and 10.81 TB, depending on the file system in use.  It will require 3.5 days to perform the surface scan to verify that the disk has no bad sectors, and then 2 more days to encrypt it.  Next month I'll need to repeat this procedure with a second such disk.  This is getting ridiculous.

[Shannon]

I'm almost done with Stage 2 of UMSv2, and then it's a day of break and on to EHPRA v5. Hopefully, E5 doesn't take long.

[Shannon]

[shannon@localhost Compressed]$ sha256sum *

77c25099f22ba8d3e93e3a400542a187db0bf7aad09d263ea150e5494e70901b Ultimate_Monetary_Success_v2_Stage_2_Hybrid_Subliminal_(Ocean_Surf_Silent).flac

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63b4ea69a23f81ea6b4e9935f93e21eb47feac727639b0f77987b1bcb636b63b Ultimate_Monetary_Success_V2_Stage_2_Subliminal_FLAC.zip

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[shannon@localhost Compressed]$ sha256sum *.txt

ec1d1f2c722b58b6f3d257c684e690e3be18da0970f55e8a04e73002d53ca2f6 Ultimate_Monetary_Success_V2_Stage_2_SHA256_Hashes.txt

[shannon@localhost Compressed]$

Uploading.

[Shannon]

I am having a difficult time accurately determining the usage patterns for UMSv2s2.

[Shannon]

At the beginning of this month, I switched from OFv3 to UMSv2s1. I really didn't want to, we were making really good progress, but I need a financial boost right now. This appears to be the end of a long cycle for me, where everything is falling apart and being replaced, and things are definitely not easy.

Yesterday I realized that my subconscious has been attempting to sabotage my efforts on UMSv2s1 by getting me to play other subs that will derail UMS in the name of "experiments". I haven't been able to do experiments in a long time, since subs have gotten so powerful, for precisely that reason. I actually caught on to what was happening because I realized that I was willing to "experiment" with subs that I finished doing experiments with over a year ago. So last night I played it again, even though it was supposed to be my first day off for this cycle. I am wiped out today.

Lately I feel a lot of fear. I have also noticed that my motivation to work has dropped severely and some part of me is trying very hard to distract me from work. It succeeded for a couple days by putting me in a sort of stupor that led to me just watching documentaries all day and not realizing what was going on. But it is inevitable that I will sooner or later figure it out, so what good does this do? And the moment I did, I was back to work, published Stage 2 of UMS and have been working on E5. It is still trying to distract me, this time by having me doing forum work first. Whatever that part of me is afraid of, UMSv2 is seriously threatening to it, which means it works. The part of me that is and has always been afraid of actually becoming financially wealthy is being backed into a corner and forced to change, and it's going to extraordinary lengths to try anything to slow down or stop this process. But I will win.

I really miss OFv3, honestly. I feel a lot of fear about the changes taking place in my life right now, the endings and new beginnings and the uncertainty that is resulting. My dogs are about to die of old age and that has been stressful, no good choice as to how to handle it. I want them to go because A, B and C, but I don't want them to go because of X, Y and Z...

Just a lot of turmoil in me right now.

When I finally did start E5 I realized that somehow I had once again thought it would be quick and easy, when it will not be.

Back to work on E5 then. Screw these distractions.

[Shannon]

This week has been difficult for me. In 2010, I inherited a couple of purebred Yorkshire terriers who are are sisters, who my mother decided to get for herself (against my advice) just a little while before she died. Mom was assuming she would live at least another 30 years, but because she had made such bad decisions in some directions, she died at 64.

These two dogs were barely a year old when she died. Maybe not even that, I don't remember, But when my mother died, they were there for me more than anyone else, and because of that and the fact that they had helped my mother be happier in her final days, I accepted them as family and decided to take care of them instead of get rid of them.

That decision turned out to be very expensive for me. On the 13th of this month, the bigger of the two - Dani - died, almost certainly of cancer. She was the one I expected to live longer, because she always has been the bigger and healthier of the two. Her death was also relatively sudden. She went from fine (for her age) to wouldn't eat, to wouldn't drink, to couldn't even get up, to death in only 4 or 5 days. I'm pleased that she didn't suffer long, but this has been a serious blow for me emotionally. On the one hand, I am glad she's passed on to freedom from old age, pain and suffering, and on the other hand, a member of my family has died.

Some people don't think pets "count" when you say you have had a death in the family, but if you bond with the animal deeply enough, it counts every bit as much when it goes. I still have her sister Ami (I wish my mother hadn't named these dogs...), but this has been a difficult time for me, watching Dani go and dealing with keeping Ami comforted and dealing with my own emotional responses at the same time.

Yesterday I took the day off because I knew I was not fit to work emotionally. Today I am working, but the job I am doing is boring, rote, repetitive work that will not be affected by my emotional state.

I'll do my best to be here and keep working and being productive, but wherever I believe my emotional state is not sufficiently stable to work, I will wait until it stabilizes. That is the only way I can know for sure that the quality of my work is being upheld to my standards.

Just to clarify, I'm telling you all this not because I need sympathy or attention, but because I want you to understand the disruption that is happening, has happened and may continue for a time into the future. This is surprisingly difficult for me. So please bear with me and be patient, and I will do the best I can.

[Shannon]

Today is my 2nd day off from UMS v2s1. Yesterday was my normal day off from work. I was so exhausted by the 3rd day of Stage 1 that I had to take Saturday and Sunday off from work because I was just too tired. And today I had to megadose on caffeine around 1 PM. I'm making progress today, but it's definitely a forced march.

I'm about to finish calculating toe settings from the FRM in E5, and then I have to figure out the settings for DRS. I doubt at this point that I'll finish doing DRS today, but we are very close to finished doing config work, so hopefully that's done tomorrow and then I can start building this thing.

The config coming out of the models tells me this is probably not going to be a program that goes un-noticed.

[Shannon]

I'm not sure why this is so difficult this time, but the final point of configuration for E5 is the DRS. So far this program looks crazy. It looks like it's going to use a lot of energy. This config makes me think of a "healing egg", since the focus is relatively evenly balanced between EHPRA, FRM and DRS. Very interesting. Can't wait to see this one in action. Hopefully I figure out DRS today.

[Shannon]

Everything is done being configured and set up in the script. Next step: build. I'll start on that shortly. Healing egg, here we come.

[Shannon]

Hmmmm..... by the looks of it, E5 may not fit in 60 minutes. May need to do 80 or 120.