*Jake's Overcoming Fear 5.75.1G Journal*

[Jake2015]

Sunday 8 November - Day 1 of cycle 2
Monday 9 November - Day 2 of cycle 2
Tuesday 10 November - Day 3 of cycle 2
Wednesday 11 November - Day 4 of cycle 2 - Procrastinating on studying. Getting other things done though.
Thursday 12 November - Day 5 of cycle 2
Friday 13 November - Day 6 of cycle 2
Saturday 14 November - Day 7 of cycle 2 (Day 1 of break)
Sunday 15 November - Day 8 of cycle 2 (Day 2 of break)
Monday 16 November - Day 9 of cycle 2 (Day 3 of Break)
---- End of Cycle 2 ----

Tuesday 17 November - Day 1 of cycle 3
Wednesday 18 November - Day 2 of Cycle 3
Thursday 19 November - Day 3 of Cycle 3 - Upto now nothing to report, no dreams or changes in anything.

Friday 20 November - Day 4 of Cycle 3
Saturday 21 November - Day 5 of Cycle 3
Sunday 22 November - Day 6 of cycle 3

[Jake2015]

Monday 23 November - Day 7 of cycle 3 (day 1 of break)

So far nothing no change in anything and no dreams or anything.

My neediness, clinginess is still there as im still in contact with the girl.

The fears I have that are obvious to me on a daily basis, such as fear of losing the girl, fear of being in the friendzone by her or fear of my future after my degree such as fear of studying, fear of not knowing enough for when I work are all there.

There is so much fear and lack of confidence in me that im aware of due to these factors/stimuli coming into my life (Ie the girl, a year from graduating etc) has all now shown me so far that the sub isnt working on me

Im also trying so hard to overcome the fears I have to procrastinating on my studies and the fear of the amount I have to learn and all I have to do keeps causing me to avoid and end up paralysed or focused on porn or other fun things.

[RTBoss]

Your OF run will probably show more toward the 4-5 month mark, and possibly need even more time. Hang in there, buddy.

[Jake2015]

Your OF run will probably show more toward the 4-5 month mark, and possibly need even more time.   Hang in there, buddy.

Thank you for replying RTboss. I really hope so.

The girl has finally ended it. Shes not feeling the same she said and feels were leading to friendship due to the way the fun has gone out of our conversations and its all become serious because of "the drama" that she brought to the table.

I know my mannerisms and focus was all over the place because I thought she was as into me as I was into her.

I miss-read everything that she threw my way I guess.

[fab10]

Are you listening at a loud enough volume? Back when I was doing E3, I had my volume too low and nothing happened. Then, when I upped the volume, dreams started and things started to change (slowly, with some bad days and some good days, but it started to shift.)

I am sorry to hear about the girl, focus on yourself now and when you reach a more powerful place you’ll find a better girl (and better friends).

[Jake2015]

Are you listening at a loud enough volume? Back when I was doing E3, I had my volume too low and nothing happened. Then, when I upped the volume, dreams started and things started to change (slowly, with some bad days and some good days, but it started to shift.)

I am sorry to hear about the girl, focus on yourself now and when you reach a more powerful place you’ll find a better girl (and better friends).

Thank you Fab10. Yes volume is high (13/15) but I did the speaker test using the mp3 from the store here and I think the speakers of this S7 cant cope

so im going to have to return back to my original phone s10 and just try and make that work for me.

[Jake2015]

tuesday 24 November - Day 8 of cycle 3 (day 2 of break)

Full of fear and angst and worries due to the break up and everything

my phone as explained in the reply post above this doesnt seem to play US

So im going to have to resort to using my s10 phone again and hope since now I am single and no girl to talk to all night that I can play now and have no breaks.

I really need this sub to work for me, i am feeling hurt lost broken down etc

My neediness, clinginess, desire to find and fall in love quickly, desire to find the one all of this must stem from fear so I really really really really need this sub to work

Do I lack self esteem, self worth, confidence? is that it or is it fear? i dont know

[AriGold]

In my opinion you should focus for a longer time upon yourself.

When I read your entries here I get the impression in your life is everything about stuff that is outside of you and outside of your direct control. Sometimes it comes across like you are the victim of what happens to you.

You have to discover yourself, your inner strength, your ability to choose and your own responsibility.

You can never control the weather, but you can control the way how to dress yourself.
You can never control other persons, feelings, etc, but you can control your reaction to the outside.

Make your life about you, about living a life that is whole without needing a woman in your life. To build a life that is worth living, that you enjoy and that makes your eyes glow when you talk about what you did in the last few weeks.

[kuroshabedi]

I am sorry to hear that with the break up. What helped me additional to OF is nofap. I feel like a total different person. Full of energy full of self esteem and full of confidence. Maybe it will help you too. Dont give up. We are all in this together

[tolgaocal80]

after OF why you don't give a shot with AM?
this thing works well with handling girls

[Jake2015]

In my opinion you should focus for a longer time upon yourself.

When I read your entries here I get the impression in your life is everything about stuff that is outside of you and outside of your direct control. Sometimes it comes across like you are the victim of what happens to you.

You have to discover yourself, your inner strength, your ability to choose and your own responsibility.

You can never control the weather, but you can control the way how to dress yourself.
You can never control other persons, feelings, etc, but you can control your reaction to the outside.

Make your life about you, about living a life that is whole without needing a woman in your life. To build a life that is worth living, that you enjoy and that makes your eyes glow when you talk about what you did in the last few weeks.

Thank you AriGold, Yeah I get you.

Thats what im trying to do, ive had enough of being this sad pathetic needy clingy guy who falls in love so quickly its silly and then dreams of all that comes with love.

Im trying to fix myself with the help of the subs here so fingers crossed.

[Jake2015]

I am sorry to hear that with the break up. What helped me additional to OF is nofap. I feel like a total different person. Full of energy full of self esteem and full of confidence. Maybe it will help you too. Dont give up. We are all in this together

Thank you Kuroshabedi! I had once stopped fapping for 6months and did nothing for me to be honest so never bothered ever again.

yes youre right though I do hope OF works for me I just need to keep on it and keep going.

yes were all in this together thank you for the support

[Jake2015]

after OF why you don't give a shot with AM?
this thing works well with handling girls

AM yeah good idea actually. If I can be helped and cleared of all my fears with OF then hopefully any and all subs should work for me so then yeah I could use that but then I do have procrastination issues that I want to clear up so its whether I use AM or UMOP3 when it comes out. thank you again buddy!

[Jake2015]

tuesday 24 November - Day 8 of cycle 3 (day 2 of break)
Wednesday 25 November - Day 9 of cycle 3 ( day 3 of break)

--- End of cycle 3 ---
Back to now using my S10 samsung phone since my s7 edge cant play US tracks sadly. So now maybe ill be back to executing.

Thursday 26 November - Day 1 of Cycle 4