02-20-2019, 06:33 PM
Stage 5, Day 13:
Was super productive today and felt like nothing could break my stride, until I ran into a task that I dreaded so much that it created a light feeling in my head and a heavy one in my chest. Normally this sort of reaction would make me shut down and be unable to function until the next day, but somehow I pushed through full speed ahead. It took me over an hour to calm my stress level down but the whole time I remained determined to see the task through.
Today I also noticed that I’ve been practicing a huge amount of quantum visualization for around the past week. That’s when you visualize your desires in your mind, but include all your senses into the visualization. Seems I’ve subconsciously been doing this multiple times a day to stay on the frequency of abundance. Also, the excitement I’ve been feeling about life has calmed down but not in a boring way. It’s calm because subconsciously I can tell I’ve been made to feel as if all my desires have already been fulfilled; so instead of a hyped up anticipation, there’s a serene sense of gratitude for all that I have and for things to come.
Bought USLM4 today. Not having it was like an itch that I couldn’t scratch. There’s a certain feeling of habit I believe I touched on in either my Am6 or E2 journal, where I wrote that due to how I grew up, which was almost always having to wait for the things I want or need, my patience with obtaining my desires is extremely short, especially because I’m grown and now more in control of when I have access to things. Good thing the new Ltu has a module to improve patience because I’ll need it in many ways. Hope to be able to download the LTU5 coming out tomorrow
Was super productive today and felt like nothing could break my stride, until I ran into a task that I dreaded so much that it created a light feeling in my head and a heavy one in my chest. Normally this sort of reaction would make me shut down and be unable to function until the next day, but somehow I pushed through full speed ahead. It took me over an hour to calm my stress level down but the whole time I remained determined to see the task through.
Today I also noticed that I’ve been practicing a huge amount of quantum visualization for around the past week. That’s when you visualize your desires in your mind, but include all your senses into the visualization. Seems I’ve subconsciously been doing this multiple times a day to stay on the frequency of abundance. Also, the excitement I’ve been feeling about life has calmed down but not in a boring way. It’s calm because subconsciously I can tell I’ve been made to feel as if all my desires have already been fulfilled; so instead of a hyped up anticipation, there’s a serene sense of gratitude for all that I have and for things to come.
Bought USLM4 today. Not having it was like an itch that I couldn’t scratch. There’s a certain feeling of habit I believe I touched on in either my Am6 or E2 journal, where I wrote that due to how I grew up, which was almost always having to wait for the things I want or need, my patience with obtaining my desires is extremely short, especially because I’m grown and now more in control of when I have access to things. Good thing the new Ltu has a module to improve patience because I’ll need it in many ways. Hope to be able to download the LTU5 coming out tomorrow