Darwin’s Journal

[Darwinn]

Two things have happened this week to give me $100 cash in hand. I'm genuinely interested in what I'm doing and actually achieving results for me, and not giving a shit about doing things because I might look bad. If I stay on track this will be one of the most productive months of my career.

[Darwinn]

OK i need to take a break from doing this sub. I think it's 8 days now, i don't want to stop using the sub but i'm feeling fairly exhausted. Stamina is an issue.

I've launched two initiatives at work which is awesome - but starting something new is not the same as finishing, each stage reveals new dilemmas and issues to solve. This is where the MLS mindset is fusing with USLM and this is turning into a great learning experience.

[Darwinn]

First day off this sub, that flow isn’t there as much as yesterday , nevertheless it’s been a good day. Emotionally I feel guilty and like I’m doing something wrong, I see everyone around me struggling with lethargy , depression and being just plain stuck - I feel like I’m cheating! I want them all to do this sub at the same time when I’ve tried to introduce people to anything that would help them without them asking it’s always amounted to nothing or just plain backfired.

[Darwinn]

here's an interesting thing - i'm getting a lot of pleasure for doing good deeds for others, almost like i'm receiving all these helpful synchronicities, but also i'm providing them - some trainee guy overcharged me for a coffee at starbucks and started panicking because his manager was just behind him - i told him don't worry about it and he seemed crazy relieved; then i just went out for lunch, ordered some take out and the lady smiled and and said it's on the house.

[Darwinn]

Honestly don't know when i've every been this focussed and productive. Today, for the first time in my life, i had a complex issue to solve, and i sat down and did it without taking a break - not only that, i enjoyed the shit out of it. I only stopped because recently i've been pushing myself and i just want to make sure i'm sustainable.

oh and went to another coffee place, bought a brownie and the guy handed me a loyalty card and stamped the whole thing so i get free coffee and a snack next time, then had dinner with my lady and the waiter took 70% off the bill because it took longer than expected. Oh and that $100 turned into $150.

I got scared today - like things are going so well i fear i'm using up my good karma or i'm going to have to pay a price for this down the line...

[Zane]

Nah..Karma isn't a Prepaid card.. Don't worry..

If u have a good mindset that's what u get. Little bit of ups and down will happen but nothing to worry about that.

This is limited thinking.. Get rid of it

[Darwinn]

Thanks yo.

So onward and passed the karma thing (its hanging around in subtle ways but I’m sure it will fall away.) I’m back doing certain yogic exercises and man are they working.

I’m actually working like a normal human , the products ands solutions I’m creating and changes I’m making with work and my life are actually gaining traction. It’s just never happened before. Not to be dramatic but I’ve felt so powerless before with a massive disconnect between any vision of what I want to do and what I believe I can do that simple things like having a basic idea , getting a group of people on board and then seeing it to completion make me somewhat dumbstruck.


Anyway I’m on track with my plans - a week and a half to get to launch of two projects I’ve come up with and I’m there - a truly ground breaking month in my life.

[Darwinn]

Ah something maybe worth noting Shannon. In the last days I had two experiences where someone extremely negative would come into my space and it felt like the whole bubble I was in , the bubble of flow and focus was heavily dampened - I think something like an auric Shield in this or similar subs - against negative or energy sucking people , even people who just lie a lot , would be quite helpful.

[Darwinn]

This just in - I got offered a little side gig which would give me an extra couplea grand a year

[THolt]

This just in - I got offered a little side gig which would give me an extra couplea grand a year

Wow. Congrats.

How many loops are you listening to?

[Darwinn]

at the moment i feel like i'm over doing it - i listen to a couple of loops in the morning while working - it seems to help me hone in on the right things to do, then on my way back from work i just kind of chill out, read and sneak in another loop - i don't do them back to back , but it amounts to between 3 and 7 loops a day.

After this 8 day cycle i will bump it down to one loop - i can feel the tiredness and it's not sustainable for me the way i'm going.

[blth]

Interesting strategy that you broke down the loops but results kinda seem there

[Darwinn]

Yeah but that's not necessarily an endorsement of this approach. Could well be that my results would be better if i wasn't doing it this way.

[Darwinn]

I’ve been working harder than ever , to the point where I just can’t anymore, so today I took the day off and focussed on recuperation. I noticed that since beginning this sub my attitude toward a lot of people has become more aggressive - peoples negative and unproductive attitudes feel infectious, and it feels like some people just want to win you over to a lower way of thinking and I just don’t have time or that shit right now. I’m distancing myself from a lot of people - with some just needing to be told to F off. I haven’t felt needy at all in the last couple of weeks , I didn’t think I was still needy but apparently I didn’t realise that there was some people pleasing and desire for affirmation still there, which I only notice now through it’s absense. I have no desire to meet people I normally would or Joke around with them.