Mojam's E2 Journal

[mojamhaque]

13/07/2017
Day - 42
Listening hour-09 hours

Woke up at 10 AM. Feeling a lot better with some more confidence.

Seems sexual desire increased... provably E2 working on my sexual anxiety... attraction on pornography increased... But I heart and soul want to avoid pornography..I think if I had a partner for having sex then it would disappear but yet didn't got any partner.. I can't propose anybody because I am not enough smart in this also nobody showing any interest on me.. So right now I have nothing to do except avoid pornography (any how) and yes I just hate masturbation so I am also not going to do that.

As a person I am not enough assertive even I was not that at any time of my life.. need to become more assertive... hope E2 will also help me to become more assertive...

Seems my habit of study gone... Even doesn't feel any interest for study.. This is alarming for me because my career is entirely dependent on it.

Really need to remove my all fears asap... feel it very urgent.

Mojam keep in mind Rule 4.. i'm not sure if you've come across it before so i'll paste it below.

(Modified 10/29/2012) Users may not make mention of, or discuss religion or any concepts commonly incorporated into religious belief systems or astrology. This is a broad ban on religion, religious concepts and astrology. If you wish to make any mention of religion or astrology, there are threads for religion and astrology in the chatter box section of the forum.

Thanks Ben for alerting me. Next time I will keep the issue in my mind before posting anything. I still have some confusion "Where I discussed about religion and astrology in my post?" It's not clear to me... would you please let me where I discussed? It will help me to identify that easily during further writing any post and avoid them asap.

[Benjamin]

Number 1 in post 124 sounds like it to me.

[mojamhaque]

‘Life is a daring adventure, or nothing.’-- Helen Keller

[mojamhaque]

‘The world is full of people who are trying to purchase self-confidence, or manufacture it, or who simply posture it. But you can’t fake confidence, you have to earn it. If you ask me, the only way to do that is work. You have to do the work.’- Lance Armstrong

If we want to do anything with confidence – speak, paint, make love, play tennis or socialise – then we have to do the work. We have to practise the necessary skills over and over, until they come naturally. If we don’t have adequate skills to do the things we want to do, we can’t expect to feel confident. And if we don’t continually practise these skills, they either get rusty and unreliable, or they never reach a state where we can fluidly and naturally rely on them.

Each time you practise these skills, it is an action of confidence: an act of relying on yourself. And once you have taken action, over and over, so that you have the skills to get the results you want – then you’ll start to notice the feelings of confidence.

[mojamhaque]

Seems 95% users of this forum using DMSI and very few amount of users using E2. If there were more users of E2 then I could able read their journal and get some more knowledge's.

[Zane]

You know something bro when I read ur post nowadays, I can see how much u have changed. Ur posts are much more direct and straight forward.

Before u had no clue what was wrong with you, but now you know what u need to do.

I am so happy to see this transformation using E2 alone. Keep moving forward bro..

[mojamhaque]

14/07/2017
Day - 43
Listening hour-08 hours

seems more positive than previous. Enjoying the book "The Confidence Gap". Learning new new things how to deal with fears. Hope this will help me to overcome fears consciously.

[mojamhaque]

Feel happy to see that I already completed 43 days of listening E2. I had a lot of history to give up in the middle of doing anything. Hope I will be able to complete 90 days of listening E2 and get the benefit at it's best.

One thing worrying me is that I can't seat for study. Now I have no interest to reading mathematics, computer programming, algorithms etc.. It is alarming to me. Anyhow have to overcome this. This is totally related to my career and money making.

[Benjamin]

There is a fair few past journals for E2, when it come out alot more people were using it. If you look back a bit you can find them.

[mojamhaque]

15/07/2017
Day - 44
Listening hour-08 hours (approximately)

Nothing noticeable change identified. Had a bad dream regarding my career. This dream causes me tension. Still I am not decisive, confident and motivated. I am looking for financial freedom. For that I have to need proper planning but can't do it. Seems everything of my life is bit scattered. I am little bit more emotional that's why I can't say no to anybody. It's also send me back foot. So now I have identified my problems but can't take any action to solve those problems. One thing I noticed that when I fall into financial problem each time I identify them but after overcome the situation I just forget them..Proper planning make and working with that planning make a man perfect but it doesn't work for me. Each time I make plan for working but I can't continue my works according to that work.

Seems some fears are came back like "fear of financial crisis", "fear of office boss" etc... Was my feeling of last week were fake?

[mojamhaque]

Feel happy after reading Shannon's reply about my problem which is exactly as follows-

Hi Shannon
Good day. I am listening E2. This is 43 days of my listening E2. I started with listening 8 loops per day. Then according to your instruction i minimized it 6 loops per day. Then minimized it to 2 loops per day. Then 3 loops per day. After some days started 6 loops per day. Now listening 8 loops per day. All those I changed according to your instruction. Now I feel almost fine. Seems my confidence level is increasing (not full but seems more positive than previous). All my fears are going (not full but feeling better than previous). But currently I am facing a new problem. My interest on reading/studying/watching the video tutorials are totally gone. It's alarming to me because I have to read a lot for my career and making money. What to do? Please advise.

Keep going. Seems to me you're just now getting to the meat and potatoes of what you're trying to do. Healing in E2 is done at your pace, the pace you set for how well you can handle it. It's not a "I think I'll do this for a week" process. Be patient, and keep going.

[mojamhaque]

Felling happy to see that MLS 5.5G on build stage. I will not purchase as soon as it come in market. I will go for it after finishing of 03 months of using E2. Hope @Zane, @jake and others will purchase it as soon as it comes to market. So I will be able to observe their result (from their journal) before purchasing it.

[mojamhaque]

16/07/2017
Day - 46
Listening hour-08 hours

Feeling very financial stability related tension. Need to achieve financial freedom. For that expect suggestion regarding this issue.

Right now I am in huge pressure.. Also I am very afraid because my job condition is not so good. Day by day the company is loosing their market due to crackpot decisions of top management where we have nothing to do. If such things continues then it will shut down within next 3 or 4 months. So have to prepare for interviews so that I can switch my job before shutting down the company. MLS 5.5G is very urgent for me...

Feeling tension about career. My career is really stuck in my current position. I want to overcome it at any cost. Have to read more and more and also need to increase my courage and brave. Expect some suggestions regarding this issue.

In our country there is no such life coach who will help us to overcome such situations. So have to try by myself. Need a lot of motivation.

[Zane]

16/07/2017
Day - 46
Listening hour-08 hours

Feeling very financial stability related tension. Need to achieve financial freedom. For that expect suggestion regarding this issue.

Right now I am in huge pressure.. Also I am very afraid because my job condition is not so good. Day by day the company is loosing their market due to crackpot decisions of top management where we have nothing to do. If such things continues then it will shut down within next 3 or 4 months. So have to prepare for interviews so that I can switch my job before shutting down the company. MLS 5.5G is very urgent for me...

Feeling tension about career. My career is really stuck in my current position. I want to overcome it at any cost. Have to read more and more and also need to increase my courage and brave. Expect some suggestions regarding this issue.

In our country there is no such life coach who will help us to overcome such situations. So have to try by myself. Need a lot of motivation.

I Think only 50 days remain.. Dude just 60 days. Then when u use MLS-5.5G then nothing will stop from achieving ur goals.