2 hours ago
Man, I got tired of the constant tug of war. When I'm not running a very strong, detracting shield, I'm getting schizophrenic symptoms, no joke, and can't focus on anything at all, even reading a book, and going outside trying to behave unlike a total schizo is a chore requiring extreme willpower and energy.
So to test my theory I switched back to PRA 6G + DRS v2 and voila, I can function normally like this *snaps fingers*.
There will be a reckoning. This is life-destroying shite.
So today, I went to singing practice, practiced the piano for the first time in over a week, going to see pianist chick (I skipped last week because I was worried I'd start schizoing).
PRA is making me feel pretty good. I still feel like an emotional cripple, and I have immense rage against those who had brought about this state, but otherwise, yeah, healin' up and there's definite progress. I think I'll run a healing sub for a month or two more and then do OSC 6.5G with DRS v2 6.5G (day one purchase for me. Hopefully PayPal won't be causing issues, nor my bank - recently, they keep blocking my card whenever I try to use it for anything that costs over 500 buckaroos over the net, lewlz. They're worried I may have gotten hacked, y'see, or something).
So to test my theory I switched back to PRA 6G + DRS v2 and voila, I can function normally like this *snaps fingers*.
There will be a reckoning. This is life-destroying shite.
So today, I went to singing practice, practiced the piano for the first time in over a week, going to see pianist chick (I skipped last week because I was worried I'd start schizoing).
PRA is making me feel pretty good. I still feel like an emotional cripple, and I have immense rage against those who had brought about this state, but otherwise, yeah, healin' up and there's definite progress. I think I'll run a healing sub for a month or two more and then do OSC 6.5G with DRS v2 6.5G (day one purchase for me. Hopefully PayPal won't be causing issues, nor my bank - recently, they keep blocking my card whenever I try to use it for anything that costs over 500 buckaroos over the net, lewlz. They're worried I may have gotten hacked, y'see, or something).
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
