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PRA 6G + DRS v2 Bonanza Redux (later switch to 6.5G) - Have at ye - 05-06-2026
Man, I got tired of the constant tug of war. When I'm not running a very strong, detracting shield, I'm getting schizophrenic symptoms, no joke, and can't focus on anything at all, even reading a book, and going outside trying to behave unlike a total schizo is a chore requiring extreme willpower and energy.
So to test my theory I switched back to PRA 6G + DRS v2 and voila, I can function normally like this *snaps fingers*.
There will be a reckoning. This is life-destroying shite.
So today, I went to singing practice, practiced the piano for the first time in over a week, going to see pianist chick (I skipped last week because I was worried I'd start schizoing).
PRA is making me feel pretty good. I still feel like an emotional cripple, and I have immense rage against those who had brought about this state, but otherwise, yeah, healin' up and there's definite progress. I think I'll run a healing sub for a month or two more and then do OSC 6.5G with DRS v2 6.5G (day one purchase for me. Hopefully PayPal won't be causing issues, nor my bank - recently, they keep blocking my card whenever I try to use it for anything that costs over 500 buckaroos over the net, lewlz. They're worried I may have gotten hacked, y'see, or something).
RE: PRA 6G + DRS v2 Bonanza Redux (later switch to 6.5G) - Have at ye - 05-06-2026
Making progress in leaps and strides now. Back to being active and whatnot; and chllin' a bit as well. Working a lot on my energy system, to make it as resillient as possible.
Pianist chick was very sweet. I played ESPA during ths lesson. We'll see what happens.
RE: PRA 6G + DRS v2 Bonanza Redux (later switch to 6.5G) - Have at ye - 05-07-2026
Man, I'm dealing with a whole lot of nasty, as they're called, "introjects" - and they're extremely abusive. Not in the classic sense, but more in the Vakninian sense (https://vaknin-talks.com/transcripts/How_Narcissist_Invades_Your_Mind_Introject_Imago_Internal_Object/). Trouble is, whenever I act towards people in ways that reject these "introjects", I am being barraged by abuse. DRS v2 helps. That funky internal shield I'm using also helps, but the process is mite unpleasant. Gosh, I'm tired of healing but it's difficult to make progress without it.