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Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 12-09-2017
I really don't feel like counting days so I am just gonna post what I experience from DRA-5.5G.
So, I am suffering from Major Depression, Anxiety, OCD, Bipolar.
Due to Depression, I have lost my motivation and my cognitive abilities are fucked up including memory both short term and long term. I can't seem to remember places in my own town, I feel as if I know them but I can't access it as if I have lost that information. My concentration abilities have also been fucked up. I can't concentrate cause my brain feel kinda exhausted when I try to concentrate and my brain can't even process what I read and it's like as if I read but I can't understand what it means.... Over the past 7 years this has only gotten worse and combine that with emotional issues and u got one fucked up me. Doing everything became a burden.
The subs which helped me the most in getting out of all these a little bit were MLS-5.5G and MHS-5.5G.
I have visited 4 Doctors and all of them have confirmed that I have Depression and other issues.
Day 3
I feel somewhat good/happy and feel like doing something productive. I also somehow feel that its working on my OCD and Bipolar issues also. Its too soon to say this but lets see what happens in another few weeks.
I also did something related to Rule 4 as I was having a strong urge to do it and couldn't resist. Before I was like " yeah maybe some other time" but this time I was like I gotta do this cause its gonna make me feel good. I feel like doing things which I consider to be productive and my appetite is already up.
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Benjamin - 12-09-2017
Good luck with it. From the sound of it I think i'd be a good idea to see someone professionally for this aswell as a priority.
The problem I see with docors is some of them tend to just want to drug you which isn't really a solution. It's good my doctor didn't do that and gave me a referral so I can get Somatic Experiencing sessions cheaper.
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 12-09-2017
I am already going under treatment.
Also Idk why I feel so depressed today,its 6 am. I feel so bad that cognitive abilities have been fucked up. I mean I was sitting there an felt like reading a book which I wanted to but I opened it and i condnt understand anything. My focus was Zero.
Then I started feeling bad that I couldn't focus and my brain is so much messed up by depression. I am still feeling sad.
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 12-10-2017
I am sleeping alot. I slept around at 5 am and woke up at around 6 pm. Also, I don't feel like doing anything.
Another thing I noticed today that I am not able to understand anything my mom is saying. I mean she was talking about stuff related to family drama and I wasn't able to under anything. I wasn't able to pay attention to her talks and detail. I wasn't able to process it. Felt kinda foggy.
Also, I dreamt about my Ex.
I guess the sub is starting to work and digging up crap.
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 12-11-2017
Man, I am so fucking tired. I just wanna sleep all day. I sleep 12 hr daily. It feels as if only my mind is getting tired and not body. Zzzzz.. .
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Shannon - 12-11-2017
Keep in mind, Zane, that this program is not designed for dealing with major depression. I'm not saying that you will or would, but it's worth saying anyway - please don't try to rely on it alone - stay on meds and remain under medical supervision, please.
I'll be watching. Best wishes. I'm hoping this helps you out a lot!
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 12-12-2017
I slept today at 10 am and woke up at 6pm. I think somehow DRA is trying to fix my sleep schedule. Also I am having dreams which r related to (Rule 4) and I also had dreams related to Sex - with my ex, violence- where she harms me in one way or another.
I also had dreams where I was kinda sacrificing my life for something. Tbh honest I have no idea what's going on.
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 02-12-2018
Well I took a break from DRA after using it for 22 days. I did it for two reason.
First It made me very impulsive/full of anxiety/ and it affected my level of patience due to which I was making stupid decisions in Trading(New to it btw). I guess DRA hit something deep so I stopped it for a while.
Second: Due to some of my Impulsive behavior I made some stupid decision and had some loss in trading but so I was back to MLS(2nd run) and within a week I was able to recover all of my losses. As MLS helped me gained clarity and helped me being logical..
I am not blaming DRA for my losses. Its me who made the bad decision. But I sure will say that MLS helped me recover from that.
Back to DRA-
I have been using DRA again from 28 Jan and I think it really helps with my sleep timing. I mean on time.
But I have also been noticing that I am having more sexual urges and this leads me to watching porn and rub one out. I have also been eating more and wasting alot on time watching movies.
This is the escape mechanism I am aware off...
Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I didnt escape with Fap and porn. I wonder what am I escaping form. I feel full of energy and feel like I am executing the script when I dont fap and all. But 3-4 days is all I can manage.
Well Shannon has already been working on this issue which I have been facing for 15 years. Let see what future holds for DMSI-3.2
RE: Depression Relief Aid - Journal - Zane - 02-12-2018
I also had few moments where I was feelings as if I missed so many opportunities and kinda made me feel depressed. But It's okay now.