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Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 02-12-2017
I decide to open a journal. In the end of 3rd run, I found out the speaker is broken, so I re run.
Currently on day 21 stage 1. This time stage 1 has much effect than the previous runs.
Today is my mom's birthday. I came late. I tent to avoid this kind of party from childhood, I don't like that environment, it's superficial, I don't feel any value. Men just drink beer, bragging, talk about politics, telling the same but not fun story,... I hate that but always keep silence. Today, when I come in, my father told me drink with mom and say something, I feel unreal, like I'm acting it for other's fun, so I did'nt say anything. it made the room awkward, I went back home. Think back about my mom, today is her day not someone else's day, I need to do sth for her, and I came back with a bunch of flowers. I'm proud that I did it, my mother seems very happy, and I can see my relatives look at me differently, strange, surprised eyes. It's new and I'm unfamiliar, in the positive way.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Kol - 02-12-2017
Subscribed. Your post already makes me question things for myself aswell like a home-hitting.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 02-13-2017
I'm less interested in facebook.
Hitting shame. When girls being with their boyfriends and attracted to me, I feel shame and afraid. Seems like I still have some mental barrier around this. It was like a pattern repeated each AM run, push me to do something, but I tent to run away of this new power. I like the girl, and respect the man, don't want to break them but, if she like me, why do I prevent myself? The problem is I prevent myself first then anything could not happen.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 02-14-2017
Today is intense. Things are coming up. I must return the room which I've rented in couple of months. I remember the days I stayed in, proudly took pictures, posted on FB and felt like a hero. In the last run, I had a good salary job, it helped me to get out and live by my own. But it didn't last long. Just two months, I got into trouble with manager, and decided to quit. When they interviewed, they were really nice, I felt something strange, but ignored and had a 'beautiful image' about them. But then it broke down when I see their real face. It crept me out. It's really hard to work when you lose that respect. But that also push me to money problems. Come back to my parent house feel like somewhat loser. Maybe bad speaker caused it. Am I blaming?
It's strange that when I work for others, I have many things want to do in mind, just want to go out and do it. But when actually get out, the motivation go, and I start to procrastinate again.
I caught me put myself into a role. That tells things to "inspire" others. Especially on FB. As I am already there, already alpha. In fact, it's not. Behave like "Hey, look at me, give me some credits as an alpha". oh fuck. The real alpha, do they care about it, about whether or not someone else perceived him as alpha? No. They are just that. Be themselves and enjoy their life, the term of alpha, is the thing that others observe, and say about him, not what he call or label himself, because that serve nothing for him. Let go of the term alpha is needed.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 03-11-2017
I'm afraid these AM powers. Feel shame when caught my mother and grandmother attracted to me. My father is react intensely, especially in my presence. His try hard behavior make me feel awkward and disappointed. I see myself fitting in the role, afraid show up real cause it may make him hurt. Have the need to go out again. But the idea of sitting in the glassy office 8 hours a day, it bored me.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Frosted - 03-11-2017
Yeah had the same problem with my mom and aunt :/
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 06-20-2017
I'm currently at the middle at Stage 5. And I wanna say big thank to Shannon. Thanks universe that brought me here. I have not thought that I will love this run like this. Many results already. I've got in touch with myself. For a long long time. The joyful, enjoyfull self. I know this word does not exist in dictionary, but who cares. I don't know it's just a moment or not but right now I don't care about the alpha anymore. This run healed me a lot.
It's strange. I've just mastubated and look at my cock. asked Do I take care of myself enough? Fuck. Why do I need a woman? Ok, I still love them. but Why do I need them? For a reflection telling that I am good? Nope. I am enough.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 03-02-2018
Found this list. Not sure it's fully added in the AM sub or not.
Currently on 5th run and Reading this make me feel motivated again.
(04-28-2013, 05:41 PM)Shannon Wrote: AM 6.0 Additions - This is what is going into AM 6.0, in addition to the base AM 5.0 script.
1. OGSF full script.
2. Self blame release: forgive yourself, learn from, fix, refuse to make the same mistake again, and move on. Outgrow blame as a response, and outgrow making the same mistake.
3. Act on opportunities that you want to act on, instead of hiding, making excuses, etc.
4. Decisively and aggressively go after and achieve everything you want to achieve, without harming yourself or anyone else in the process.
5. Develop An Aura Of Commanding Authority and masculine Sexiness which causes other men to respond with respect and admiration, and women to be attracted to me.
6. Enhance, improve and express your sense of humor to make your own life more enjoyable, and make others naturally enjoy your company more.
7. socializing is a fun game
8. social confidence
9. Understand that nobody is better than you.
10. Healing emotional, mental and physical wounds, and move into being and expressing your full potential.
11. Destroy hatred and resentment within yourself.
12. Kill negative feelings for women.
13. Kill judgementalism toward others.
14. Kill approach anxiety with women
15. Generate a constant internal state that harmonizes with others and causes them to be naturally comfortable with and attracted to you.
16. Be completely needless when it comes to women.
17. Dissolve defensiveness and enhance appreciation for women, without allowing them to use you, hurt you or take advantage of you.
18. Warmth for others.
19. Kill clinginess and avoidant behavior; comfortably and successfully face and deal with what you used to avoid.
20. Seek the challenge
21. Definitively expand beyond your comfort zone.
22. Refuse to make excuses or accept excuses for yourself or from yourself.
23. Refuse to justify actions that are not moving you forward, or accept that behavior from yourself.
24. Destroy jealousy.
25. Make yourself decisive.
26. instantly recognizing (or knowing beforehand?) and boldly going after and achieving opportunities in the moment that interest you.
27. Develop, enhance and employ your leadership skills internally and externally.
28. Comfortable/encouraging going out alone
29. Pushing you to expand social circle with people who are good for you in the directions you are growing
30. Being aware of what is going on around you
31. Noticing, reading and understanding the body language of women around you and subtle signals they send to you.
32. High value high class high status Alpha male presence
33. masculine, commanding, sexy voice
34. Positive thinking/positive attitude
35. overcome Victim Mentality
36. Comfortable with people noticing and staring at you
37. Self Acceptance while striving to improve yourself.
38. Easily and comfortably initiate social interactions
39. initiative, overcoming laziness, do what needs to be done
40. Become a social extrovert
41. develop and express irresistible charm that causes others to be attracted to you.
42. graceful movement
43. develop increasing personal magnetism
44. know what you want from yourself, life and women.
45. Comfortable and confident taking the lead in all situations (social, etc.)
46. Knows himself, who he is, and is unafraid to express his true personality around others. Unconcerned with judgement, ridicule, etc. for it.
47. Social motivation
48. overcome fear of sex, women, sexual performance insecurity.
49. go after what you want fearlessly
50. automatically notice and naturally respond in exactly the right ways to IOIs from women to achieve the desired outcome with her.
51. making others comfortable being around you while maintaining their respect, feeling appreciated as they deserve to be appreciated, and better about themselves for having been around you.
52. Give yourself all the love, affection and attention you need and want, so that you are freed of neediness from getting it from others when it is not being offered to you naturally without you asking for it or looking for it.
53. attract only high quality women to yourself.
54. kill abandonment issues.
55. Kill fear of rejection
56. feeling deservedness (success, money, women, happiness, sex, romance, finances, life)
57. Give myself permission to be high value, high status, high class alpha dominant male, and understand that nobody else's permission is necessary or valid in the matter.
58. gratitude, thankfulness and appreciation of and for the good things and people in your life, and genuinely and fully appreciating them in the moment.
59. full expression of masculine power
60. Allow and own (completely unapologetic about) your physical desires an attraction towards women, but maintain control of it at all times.
61. Love, enjoy, appreciate women in general, and disconnect from and remain unaffected by women who are unworthy of that from you.
62. Shameless expressions of attraction for women if uninvolved in a committed relationship, done in a way that enhances your class, value and alpha-ness in the eyes of the women observing you do so.
63. own your desires, while remaining always in control of them.
64. Bold, brave expression of masculine desires.
65. Total detachment from any outcome concerning women or sex.
66. When you give to others, give to them sheerly for the joy of giving, genuinely and without expectation of anything in return – while preventing others from using you, taking advantage of you, mistreating you or hurting you because of it.
67. Automatically and purposely take things in a way that is funny, and get everyone else around you to laugh with you.
68. playful bantering for humor
69. kill laziness
70. increasing success with women romantically, sexually and in whatever other ways you choose to be successful with them.
71. action in the face of fear/anxiety for personal growth
72. self coaching in real time to make the best possible decisions and be as successful and effective in achieving goals as possible.
73. passionate about achieving goals; more passionate lover; more passion for life in general.
74. be congruent mind, body and emotions with being a high class, high value, high status dominant alpha male.
75. genuinely comfortable wherever he is, whomever he is with, and whatever he is doing.
76. gets into flow/the zone easily
77. is the star of his own life the CENTER of his reality, in positive ways that make things better for himself and those around him, without generating false ego.
78. Holds absolute belief in himself
79. zero argumentativeness with others, or need to prove yourself to be right all the time.
80. Has positive self feedback loop (self confidence/believing in self)
81. Ability to effortlessly put focus where it matters and should be, without being wasted.
82. Take no shit attitude
83. calm, cool and aloof attitude which makes you difficult or impossible to upset or manipulate.
84. Self directed, but puts (false) ego aside and makes choices based on what the best way forward is.
85. Increase decisiveness
86. Naturally, comfortably and increasingly outgoing and extroverted around other people.
87. Accept yourself as a genuine winner.
88. In response to negative social feedback, assess whether there is a chance to improve yourself kin some way; if there is, shamelessly take it and make yourself better than you were. If not, ignore the negative social feedback and maintain your own reality.
89. Incredible compelling and magnetic, respect from guys, crazy attraction from women
90. Leads himself always, leads others when that is necessary, desirable or is the most appropriate and the best way to achieve his goals.
91. Generate your own positive state, internal good feelings from within, no need to rely on environment for that
92. Comes across as authentic and congruent because he is
93. Honest, open, expressive, and direct with everyone
94. Naturally becomes the center of attention without trying and is comfortable with it
95. Believes in himself and his positive sense of self worth/sense of self regardless of anything else that occurs otherwise.
96. Doesn't look, want, need, care about for approval from others.
97. doesn't ask, just takes what is his and what he is entitled to
98. Develop healthy selfishness and get your own needs met first.
99. Seek out win-win situation but always choose to satisfy your own needs over those of others if a win-win situation cannot be found or created.
100. Be comfortable and accepting of conflict and competition and can step up to it, win and take the lead.
101. Confident and mature enough to know when to put ego aside, and does so for the sake of achieving goals.
102. Increase wisdom and maturity.
103. Shift chasing women and sex to be less important than achieving his goals and making himself successful in life.
104. Never qualifies himself; others always qualify to him
105. Disconnect from insecurity-based possessiveness of others.
106. allows others to participate in ways that make them feel valid and enjoy his company.
107. Addictive personality to be around
108. Comfortable breaking social norms and being outrageous
109. Stays busy and productive-doing for the sake of growth, success, self improvement and progress toward goals
110. Time is very important for him, very valuable asset, one he refuses to disrespect or waste or allow others to disrespect or waste.
111. easy to face, deal with and overcome guilt, shame and fear.
112. quickly transcends negatives, and achieves positives instead.
113. Reframes failure as only happening if he gives up trying; refuses to ever give up trying; and therefore always succeeds.
114. Compares himself to himself and no one else
115. Open to all positive outcomes concerning sex and romance, but attached to none
116. Recognize mistakes, learn from mistakes, forgive self for them, and refuse to make them again.
117. Unconcerned with losing a woman you are involved with or dating, because a woman who wants to be with you will naturally make the choices that result in that outcome, and otherwise she is just wasting your time.
118. Being your own Alpha Male, and unconcerned with fitting anyone else's definition of what an alpha male is or does.
119. Get out and socialize, get social exposure
120. enjoy meeting new people and making new friends
121. ever increasing self esteem
122. reject and destroy permission-seeking within yourself.
123. balance your brain hemispheres
124. alpha male pheromonal signals
125. upon deciding on a goal or course of action, immediately make it happen
126. disconnection from taking criticism personally; ignore and disregard everything but constructive criticism.
127. others automatically give you social proof in every way possible
128. Limitless; everything is possible.
129. honor yourself
130. develop a sense of honor and integrity.
131. abundance mindset; make positive abundance your reality.
132. Develop a dynamic personality that attracts the attention and interest of others in positive ways.
133. Have goals, ambitions and dreams to pursue, and pursue them.
134. Unleash and express your inner alpha.
135. Accept that you are the alpha; accept the responsibility to lead yourself and others because you are the alpha; lead yourself and others because you are the alpha.
136. Potential for unlimited greatness, and pursuing that potential.
137. Ultra Success
138. Only start things that are worth your time and effort to complete, and always finish what you start.
139. Do what you say you will do, and say exactly what you mean.
140. Develop increasing clarity of mind and awareness in all ways and concerning all things.
141. Develop and express your own distinct signature style of living, action, speech and presence which makes you at once unique and admired by others.
142. Cause your physical form to become more and more an expression of alpha male traits.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 04-11-2018
I'm facing a lot of BS. I hold a lot of sadness, hating. Feel pain around eyebrows and eyes.
I don't feel secure enough as a man. People and women still treat me like their little brother. Some call me baby. I don't know they really mean that or they just challenge me, test me. But the important thing is I don't feel myself as a man.
I see my father, I heard the voice inside me hating, insults him for not guilding me. I've read somewhere that relationship with father determine how a man he is. or am I blaming him?
I have been seeking for the weakness of the other men to feel good, secure. To make sure at least I'm not one of them, so that I can feel me standing out and special.
Hard resistance.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - DavisMind91 - 04-11-2018
(03-02-2018, 03:14 AM)Artaxes Wrote: Found this list. Not sure it's fully added in the AM sub or not.
Currently on 5th run and Reading this make me feel motivated again.
(04-28-2013, 05:41 PM)Shannon Wrote: AM 6.0 Additions - This is what is going into AM 6.0, in addition to the base AM 5.0 script.
1. OGSF full script.
2. Self blame release: forgive yourself, learn from, fix, refuse to make the same mistake again, and move on. Outgrow blame as a response, and outgrow making the same mistake.
3. Act on opportunities that you want to act on, instead of hiding, making excuses, etc.
4. Decisively and aggressively go after and achieve everything you want to achieve, without harming yourself or anyone else in the process.
5. Develop An Aura Of Commanding Authority and masculine Sexiness which causes other men to respond with respect and admiration, and women to be attracted to me.
6. Enhance, improve and express your sense of humor to make your own life more enjoyable, and make others naturally enjoy your company more.
7. socializing is a fun game
8. social confidence
9. Understand that nobody is better than you.
10. Healing emotional, mental and physical wounds, and move into being and expressing your full potential.
11. Destroy hatred and resentment within yourself.
12. Kill negative feelings for women.
13. Kill judgementalism toward others.
14. Kill approach anxiety with women
15. Generate a constant internal state that harmonizes with others and causes them to be naturally comfortable with and attracted to you.
16. Be completely needless when it comes to women.
17. Dissolve defensiveness and enhance appreciation for women, without allowing them to use you, hurt you or take advantage of you.
18. Warmth for others.
19. Kill clinginess and avoidant behavior; comfortably and successfully face and deal with what you used to avoid.
20. Seek the challenge
21. Definitively expand beyond your comfort zone.
22. Refuse to make excuses or accept excuses for yourself or from yourself.
23. Refuse to justify actions that are not moving you forward, or accept that behavior from yourself.
24. Destroy jealousy.
25. Make yourself decisive.
26. instantly recognizing (or knowing beforehand?) and boldly going after and achieving opportunities in the moment that interest you.
27. Develop, enhance and employ your leadership skills internally and externally.
28. Comfortable/encouraging going out alone
29. Pushing you to expand social circle with people who are good for you in the directions you are growing
30. Being aware of what is going on around you
31. Noticing, reading and understanding the body language of women around you and subtle signals they send to you.
32. High value high class high status Alpha male presence
33. masculine, commanding, sexy voice
34. Positive thinking/positive attitude
35. overcome Victim Mentality
36. Comfortable with people noticing and staring at you
37. Self Acceptance while striving to improve yourself.
38. Easily and comfortably initiate social interactions
39. initiative, overcoming laziness, do what needs to be done
40. Become a social extrovert
41. develop and express irresistible charm that causes others to be attracted to you.
42. graceful movement
43. develop increasing personal magnetism
44. know what you want from yourself, life and women.
45. Comfortable and confident taking the lead in all situations (social, etc.)
46. Knows himself, who he is, and is unafraid to express his true personality around others. Unconcerned with judgement, ridicule, etc. for it.
47. Social motivation
48. overcome fear of sex, women, sexual performance insecurity.
49. go after what you want fearlessly
50. automatically notice and naturally respond in exactly the right ways to IOIs from women to achieve the desired outcome with her.
51. making others comfortable being around you while maintaining their respect, feeling appreciated as they deserve to be appreciated, and better about themselves for having been around you.
52. Give yourself all the love, affection and attention you need and want, so that you are freed of neediness from getting it from others when it is not being offered to you naturally without you asking for it or looking for it.
53. attract only high quality women to yourself.
54. kill abandonment issues.
55. Kill fear of rejection
56. feeling deservedness (success, money, women, happiness, sex, romance, finances, life)
57. Give myself permission to be high value, high status, high class alpha dominant male, and understand that nobody else's permission is necessary or valid in the matter.
58. gratitude, thankfulness and appreciation of and for the good things and people in your life, and genuinely and fully appreciating them in the moment.
59. full expression of masculine power
60. Allow and own (completely unapologetic about) your physical desires an attraction towards women, but maintain control of it at all times.
61. Love, enjoy, appreciate women in general, and disconnect from and remain unaffected by women who are unworthy of that from you.
62. Shameless expressions of attraction for women if uninvolved in a committed relationship, done in a way that enhances your class, value and alpha-ness in the eyes of the women observing you do so.
63. own your desires, while remaining always in control of them.
64. Bold, brave expression of masculine desires.
65. Total detachment from any outcome concerning women or sex.
66. When you give to others, give to them sheerly for the joy of giving, genuinely and without expectation of anything in return – while preventing others from using you, taking advantage of you, mistreating you or hurting you because of it.
67. Automatically and purposely take things in a way that is funny, and get everyone else around you to laugh with you.
68. playful bantering for humor
69. kill laziness
70. increasing success with women romantically, sexually and in whatever other ways you choose to be successful with them.
71. action in the face of fear/anxiety for personal growth
72. self coaching in real time to make the best possible decisions and be as successful and effective in achieving goals as possible.
73. passionate about achieving goals; more passionate lover; more passion for life in general.
74. be congruent mind, body and emotions with being a high class, high value, high status dominant alpha male.
75. genuinely comfortable wherever he is, whomever he is with, and whatever he is doing.
76. gets into flow/the zone easily
77. is the star of his own life the CENTER of his reality, in positive ways that make things better for himself and those around him, without generating false ego.
78. Holds absolute belief in himself
79. zero argumentativeness with others, or need to prove yourself to be right all the time.
80. Has positive self feedback loop (self confidence/believing in self)
81. Ability to effortlessly put focus where it matters and should be, without being wasted.
82. Take no shit attitude
83. calm, cool and aloof attitude which makes you difficult or impossible to upset or manipulate.
84. Self directed, but puts (false) ego aside and makes choices based on what the best way forward is.
85. Increase decisiveness
86. Naturally, comfortably and increasingly outgoing and extroverted around other people.
87. Accept yourself as a genuine winner.
88. In response to negative social feedback, assess whether there is a chance to improve yourself kin some way; if there is, shamelessly take it and make yourself better than you were. If not, ignore the negative social feedback and maintain your own reality.
89. Incredible compelling and magnetic, respect from guys, crazy attraction from women
90. Leads himself always, leads others when that is necessary, desirable or is the most appropriate and the best way to achieve his goals.
91. Generate your own positive state, internal good feelings from within, no need to rely on environment for that
92. Comes across as authentic and congruent because he is
93. Honest, open, expressive, and direct with everyone
94. Naturally becomes the center of attention without trying and is comfortable with it
95. Believes in himself and his positive sense of self worth/sense of self regardless of anything else that occurs otherwise.
96. Doesn't look, want, need, care about for approval from others.
97. doesn't ask, just takes what is his and what he is entitled to
98. Develop healthy selfishness and get your own needs met first.
99. Seek out win-win situation but always choose to satisfy your own needs over those of others if a win-win situation cannot be found or created.
100. Be comfortable and accepting of conflict and competition and can step up to it, win and take the lead.
101. Confident and mature enough to know when to put ego aside, and does so for the sake of achieving goals.
102. Increase wisdom and maturity.
103. Shift chasing women and sex to be less important than achieving his goals and making himself successful in life.
104. Never qualifies himself; others always qualify to him
105. Disconnect from insecurity-based possessiveness of others.
106. allows others to participate in ways that make them feel valid and enjoy his company.
107. Addictive personality to be around
108. Comfortable breaking social norms and being outrageous
109. Stays busy and productive-doing for the sake of growth, success, self improvement and progress toward goals
110. Time is very important for him, very valuable asset, one he refuses to disrespect or waste or allow others to disrespect or waste.
111. easy to face, deal with and overcome guilt, shame and fear.
112. quickly transcends negatives, and achieves positives instead.
113. Reframes failure as only happening if he gives up trying; refuses to ever give up trying; and therefore always succeeds.
114. Compares himself to himself and no one else
115. Open to all positive outcomes concerning sex and romance, but attached to none
116. Recognize mistakes, learn from mistakes, forgive self for them, and refuse to make them again.
117. Unconcerned with losing a woman you are involved with or dating, because a woman who wants to be with you will naturally make the choices that result in that outcome, and otherwise she is just wasting your time.
118. Being your own Alpha Male, and unconcerned with fitting anyone else's definition of what an alpha male is or does.
119. Get out and socialize, get social exposure
120. enjoy meeting new people and making new friends
121. ever increasing self esteem
122. reject and destroy permission-seeking within yourself.
123. balance your brain hemispheres
124. alpha male pheromonal signals
125. upon deciding on a goal or course of action, immediately make it happen
126. disconnection from taking criticism personally; ignore and disregard everything but constructive criticism.
127. others automatically give you social proof in every way possible
128. Limitless; everything is possible.
129. honor yourself
130. develop a sense of honor and integrity.
131. abundance mindset; make positive abundance your reality.
132. Develop a dynamic personality that attracts the attention and interest of others in positive ways.
133. Have goals, ambitions and dreams to pursue, and pursue them.
134. Unleash and express your inner alpha.
135. Accept that you are the alpha; accept the responsibility to lead yourself and others because you are the alpha; lead yourself and others because you are the alpha.
136. Potential for unlimited greatness, and pursuing that potential.
137. Ultra Success
138. Only start things that are worth your time and effort to complete, and always finish what you start.
139. Do what you say you will do, and say exactly what you mean.
140. Develop increasing clarity of mind and awareness in all ways and concerning all things.
141. Develop and express your own distinct signature style of living, action, speech and presence which makes you at once unique and admired by others.
142. Cause your physical form to become more and more an expression of alpha male traits.
This just got me even more motivated, I noticed that I am expressing many of these traits too. Wish I’d seen this list earlier though because knowing what’s in the script seems to help me execute programming faster, while also knowing what areas I need to work on. I know Shannon doesn’t publish all his scripts on the sales pages, mainly concerning the technologies that help the mind accept and execute the script, but seeing the script concerning the main goals of the program help me personally. Kind of the way he has the BASE 2.1 Sales page set up.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Benjamin - 04-11-2018
In the end the list was cut down to make it more focused. What's in it is what's on the sales page.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - DavisMind91 - 04-11-2018
(04-11-2018, 03:57 PM)Benjamin Wrote: In the end the list was cut down to make it more focused. What's in it is what's on the sales page.
I see, so some of the other effects I’m seeing must be “side effects” from aspects of the main script being executed.
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Darkness - 04-12-2018
Could ask how you’ve changed and what has changed ? And how are women treating you?
RE: Alpha Season 4 - Artaxes - 04-12-2018
@Darkness Outside, women are attracted to me more. They go out of their way to show up in front of me, I come and say hi to some of them, show my interest, but that's all I have done. To go further more on the conversation, dating, and have sex with them, many things inside hold me back. I'm afraid that they will find me weak, they'll left me for the other guy and laugh at me on his bed,..many fear.
The most noticeable change: my voice is deeper, and I "approach", say hi with a lot of girls.