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Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 03-06-2025
The more I run OSC the more clear it becomes how much I have needed something directed toward particularly self-confidence.
This month running the program has not just been fun, it has more been like going into the center of the storm that has been causing much of my own insecurity and anxiety.
At moments I have been acutely aware of emotions that I might have been surpressing - perhaps due to accepting a state of discouragement born from a belief that it couldn't be changed, making it hard to bear the reality of it, thus rather pushing it away.
But something has changed. Instead of feeling the fear and hopelessness toward my current state, I feel anger. The fear has been telling me that it's not safe to be to loud, to boast, to cross a few lines. And I have listened.
Now I've started to challenge what has been the truth, and seen that life won't crumble under you when you deviate a bit from the well-worn path. You still find solid ground at the end of each step even if you sometimes can't see where you are planting your feet while taking it. As this new way of engaging with reality start to show itself, so is the confidence increasing about its existence.
Fear has been holding its grip around my ability to discover who I can be for a long time, but I've discovered a counteractive force in the shape of an anger that will no longer accept to be held down.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Shannon - 03-07-2025
Bravo!
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 03-10-2025
Yesterday, while at the gym, I noticed myself being less bothered by the idea of trying not to make too much sound while exercising. I can be quite vocal when I'm really pushing myself to the limits, and yesterday it felt like I was even less held back than usual. Instead of worrying about what others might think, I gave myself more freedom to let my body do what it needed to do. It felt like the opposite of fear.
I think I carry some deep-seated beliefs about "not behaving in ways that might irritate others," but I believe that to be a healthy man you need to live according to what feels true in your body, rather than what you think is true in your head. This may ruffle some feathers for sure, but as long as you’re not infringing upon someone else's boundaries, that issue lies with them. I feel people today live way more in their heads than we did before the digital age, and the acceptance that "men are men" has become increasingly rare. The good thing, though, is you don't need anyone else's permission to be a man—you just need to overcome your own internal resistance to it.
I recently watched a Netflix series featuring a character named Ferry Bauman. Although he's definitely not a good guy—since he's involved in selling illegal drugs—the way his character is portrayed illustrates in many ways the masculine freedom I'm trying to describe above:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qs9_5Ipc20E&ab_channel=Netflix
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 03-12-2025
I've noticed it's easier to interact with strangers, can be giving someone a compliment (not necessarily romantic, just expressing a thought), starting out a conversation while waiting on the train, or shouting a friendly "Bye!" to the restaurant staff while leaving, all things I've wanted to do but held myself back to do for some reason.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 03-14-2025
I'm writing this post after having a night out partying by myself, something I've started doing a few years back, to note something different, which I attribute to OSC.
I usually enjoy going out by myself, mainly focusing on dancing and enjoying the music, it's somewhat a nice place to work on yourself in a public setting, and people notice way less that you are alone than you would think. Also if someone ask you and you tell them, they are often mostly impressed that you have the courage to do it.
Anyway, I wouldn't say I have a good "game" going out. Approaching girls have felt "desperate" in a way, like I start behaving differently when I talk to them, and in that way I've feel like i "loose myself" when going after girls. However, when coming home, by myself, without having "scored" I often start feeling bad about myself, having a lot of negative self-talk, about what I should've done, just so I wouldn't be alone. Not today.
Today - coming home - I feel good. I feel happy with myself. Could it be that this feeling of lack that I use to feel was due to a lack of self-confidence that I've imagined I could fill with the achievement of getting a girl home to bed? Could it have been that I've feel less genuine when approaching girls due to this underlying neediness?
This night out, I enjoyed myself dancing to the music, and focused on how I felt being in the crowd dancing together with everyone to the music, spending less time thinking about approaching this or that girl around me. Instead focusing on what I was feeling in the moment.
I come from a background where I have a tendency to focus on what other people feel, I guess you could say I'm an empath. This is like a "default mode" where I often disregard my own feelings in favor of focusing on what other people are thinking or feeling. I've worked on this for a while, but it's still a pattern present in my character, and it feels like OSC is helping me to get in touch with what I feel, having the confidence to stay with my own feelings, rather than habitually switch over to other people. I believe a big part of my well-being lay within learning to stay with myself, and keep growing my confidence in my own self.
As I said, the more I'm running OSC, the more confident I become in that it was the program I've needed. Bit by bit, it keep digging deeper into me and building my confidence from the inside out.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Benjamin - 03-15-2025
Good result. I definately identify with alot of that. For me I find that sometimes it might be okay but then when I realize she's attracted or maybe after the interaction is when more neediness comes up for me.
I think it's definately what you're mentioning, you're trying to fill something you're missing by getting approval, girls, sex, whatever.. and it feels good when getting it, but it doesn't actually create that deeper increase in confidence feeling better in the longer term as much, I found that years ago I kind of just wanted more and more, and I was sleeping with more girls than probably anyone I know has in their life back then, now my fear and trauma and such have stopped me from being able to be with them at the moment.
That's the key, which is much harder than it is to say it.. go out and enjoy yourself, and if there are cute girls around then just naturally talk to them. Unlike what I used to do in that I hate clubs but i'd force myself just to go for girls, never really enjoy it and be drained. But it's different if i'm at something I enjoy or am into.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 03-27-2025
Running OSC sometimes feels like getting an inner massage. The one with a fierce thai-woman who grinds her elbow deep into a knot she found in your back until it's dissolved.
- Some days I can feel really anxious or depressed
- Some day's I'm exhausted and just park myself in the sofa after work
- I have less desire to go into tinder swiping
- I'm slowly discovering how to shift my focus inwards to my own needs and wants
- I'm discovering playing the piano just but whatever I feel like playing
Talking to a friend a few weeks back it became pretty clear that I have a tendency to shift focus from myself to others. Instead of staying in the feeling of what I want, what I desire, what I like or dislike - I shift my focus into what I think that other people expect, like, dislike, etc. It seems to be a deep rooted pattern in myself as I kept doing it, and had to catch myself from going there.
Focusing on myself is associated with some sort of guilt. Who am I to think that I should have desires? If I have desires then I will overrule other peoples desires. Etc. I seem to have an unbalanced way of looking at my "desiring part" in lack of a better term.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - ncbeareatingman - 03-27-2025
(03-27-2025, 01:03 PM)Johannesbrst Wrote: Running OSC sometimes feels like getting an inner massage. The one with a fierce thai-woman who grinds her elbow deep into a knot she found in your back until it's dissolved.
- Some days I can feel really anxious or depressed
- Some day's I'm exhausted and just park myself in the sofa after work
- I have less desire to go into tinder swiping
- I'm slowly discovering how to shift my focus inwards to my own needs and wants
- I'm discovering playing the piano just but whatever I feel like playing
Talking to a friend a few weeks back it became pretty clear that I have a tendency to shift focus from myself to others. Instead of staying in the feeling of what I want, what I desire, what I like or dislike - I shift my focus into what I think that other people expect, like, dislike, etc. It seems to be a deep rooted pattern in myself as I kept doing it, and had to catch myself from going there.
Focusing on myself is associated with some sort of guilt. Who am I to think that I should have desires? If I have desires then I will overrule other peoples desires. Etc. I seem to have an unbalanced way of looking at my "desiring part" in lack of a better term.
Man oh Man can I relate to what you're saying here. I ,too, am on OSC, plus DRS right afterwards. What you're discovering and becoming by shedding the old patterns, it's like de.wiring, untangling the tangled up "mess" into greater functionality, great power,energy ,expression & empowerment!! It's great to behold,man. Like saying " This is Me, mfkr's, deal with it, like it or not, I'm staying in my power and my range of power, like it or not!!" Keep going & growing, more power to ya!! Keith.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 03-30-2025
OSC is no joke, don't mind that it's free but it's a bast of a sub. I've been facing some really deep feelings that I believe stand in the way of becoming confident. Lots of self doubt, anxiety, depression, insecurity, hopelessness and body aching.
Sometimes all prospects of life just seem impossible, like it's not even an idea to think about the future. At those times it's almost impossible to keep a positive mindset but I've become better at riding out the wave and keeping in mind that whatever I'm feeling will oss, and it's needed for me to get in touch with the pets of myself that are experiencing life that way.
Self confidence require you to feel planted with your two feet on the ground and it feels like OSC is bringing up everything that is in between myself and having this feeling. It's not particularly fun at times, but I believe it's necessary.
I've got no rush. Good things take time. I've got no problem running OSC for another cycle after this one is finished. I believe the glimpses of feeling more self confident will become more frequent when I've neutralized more of the tension and blockages that are surfacing thanks to OSC.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 04-10-2025
I've now completed two full months of running OSC, and I can say it's been an interesting ride—very different from my experience running ASC 5.0 a few years ago.
ASC 5.0 felt more like it was pushing me into the present, saying, "Stay confident, here and now." It was a fun experience that brought out the confident parts of me, and I remember feeling really good while running it. OSC, on the other hand, has been more like, "Let’s take a look at the parts of you that are holding you back from becoming truly confident."
It’s been more challenging, and I’ve had fewer of those "high on life" moments that I experienced during my brief run with ASC 5.0. But despite the challenges, I’ve still enjoyed these past two months. It’s been a refreshing contrast to the more healing-oriented subliminals I’ve used in the past. OSC puts me more on the spot, exposing fear-based behaviors and actively challenging them.
I plan to continue with at least one more round. OSC is helping me work through thought patterns and learned behaviors that have been limiting my ability to enjoy life and feel free from self-imposed constraints.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 04-20-2025
This week I did and expiriment and ran Hybrid as I was feeling that US didn't really "got a grip on me". And holy macsrony, it felt like being hit by freight train. All my resources and all my energy got directed inwards and all I had to do was to rest.
But it was interesting to see the power of Hybrid in 6G. However I've now switched to masked and that feels like what I was looking for.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - StridingStrider - 04-20-2025
(04-10-2025, 01:08 AM)Johannesbrst Wrote: I've now completed two full months of running OSC, and I can say it's been an interesting ride—very different from my experience running ASC 5.0 a few years ago.
ASC 5.0 felt more like it was pushing me into the present, saying, "Stay confident, here and now." It was a fun experience that brought out the confident parts of me, and I remember feeling really good while running it. OSC, on the other hand, has been more like, "Let’s take a look at the parts of you that are holding you back from becoming truly confident."
It’s been more challenging, and I’ve had fewer of those "high on life" moments that I experienced during my brief run with ASC 5.0. But despite the challenges, I’ve still enjoyed these past two months. It’s been a refreshing contrast to the more healing-oriented subliminals I’ve used in the past. OSC puts me more on the spot, exposing fear-based behaviors and actively challenging them.
I plan to continue with at least one more round. OSC is helping me work through thought patterns and learned behaviors that have been limiting my ability to enjoy life and feel free from self-imposed constraints.
Do you feel more confident?
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - Johannesbrst - 04-20-2025
(04-20-2025, 03:43 AM)StridingStrider Wrote:(04-10-2025, 01:08 AM)Johannesbrst Wrote: I've now completed two full months of running OSC, and I can say it's been an interesting ride—very different from my experience running ASC 5.0 a few years ago.
ASC 5.0 felt more like it was pushing me into the present, saying, "Stay confident, here and now." It was a fun experience that brought out the confident parts of me, and I remember feeling really good while running it. OSC, on the other hand, has been more like, "Let’s take a look at the parts of you that are holding you back from becoming truly confident."
It’s been more challenging, and I’ve had fewer of those "high on life" moments that I experienced during my brief run with ASC 5.0. But despite the challenges, I’ve still enjoyed these past two months. It’s been a refreshing contrast to the more healing-oriented subliminals I’ve used in the past. OSC puts me more on the spot, exposing fear-based behaviors and actively challenging them.
I plan to continue with at least one more round. OSC is helping me work through thought patterns and learned behaviors that have been limiting my ability to enjoy life and feel free from self-imposed constraints.
Do you feel more confident?
Hmm hard to say. What the sub seems to be doing is getting me to get in touch with myself. In a way I believe thwt confidence actually is your ability to know what you feel and to be able to trust that. So I guess before you can express confidence you need to know what you feel, and the sub is helping me getting there.
RE: Foundations of self confidence - OSC - NOMAD - 04-20-2025
(04-20-2025, 06:35 AM)Johannesbrst Wrote:(04-20-2025, 03:43 AM)StridingStrider Wrote: Do you feel more confident?
Hmm hard to say. What the sub seems to be doing is getting me to get in touch with myself. In a way I believe thwt confidence actually is your ability to know what you feel and to be able to trust that. So I guess before you can express confidence you need to know what you feel, and the sub is helping me getting there.
This is what I'm experiencing as well.