(06-07-2017, 11:44 PM)mojamhaque Wrote: Again Shannon reduced my listening loop. First of all it was 12-13 loops in a day. Then Shannon advised me to listen 8 loops in a day. Now considering my current situation he advised me to expose 1-2 loops in a day.

(06-08-2017, 02:58 AM)Zane Wrote:

(06-07-2017, 11:44 PM)mojamhaque Wrote: Again Shannon reduced my listening loop. First of all it was 12-13 loops in a day. Then Shannon advised me to listen 8 loops in a day. Now considering my current situation he advised me to expose 1-2 loops in a day.

Everything takes time. You just can't force ur mind to heal. Gradually increase the loop and ur mind adapts.

What u can do is that u can increase one loop every week and see how it affects u.
If it makes u tired and frustrated then decrease. Also make sure volume is on comfortable level.

(06-11-2017, 10:50 PM)Shannon Wrote: Okay. So then here is what is happening.

You started off doing a lot of loops, and it was too much. So you cut it down and it was still too much. Now you're down to where you really should have started, and the emotional shielding from 2 loops can't handle the fallout from doing too many loops. You are still processing the effects of doing too many loops, but the emotional shield is designed to match the loops you do, so you're effectively processing 8+ loops of grief residually, but getting 2 loops of shielding.

(06-11-2017, 11:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: Okay, so here's your options then.

When it gets bad, do more loops per day. That will give you more emotional shielding, and speed up the processing of the issues it is clearing.

So next time it gets bad, try 3 loops on that day and see what happens. If 3 is not enough, try 4, etc.

When you find the balance point between processing and shielding, stick with it.

(06-09-2017, 07:16 AM)Daredevil Wrote: I have been running E2 for 460 days and I am now hitting rock bottom. Actually i am coming out of rock bottom. I have a deep fear of being powerful and this shows up in me not being assertive even though I am a big guy. I keep on having a dream of my house being robbed in the night and that someone is outside the house in my yard who is going to climb up to my window and do harm. I researched break in dream and i found this.

From the Stanford Website page on Nightmares

"We sometimes dream of someone trying to break into our home. This is often an inner psychological figure who may represent some shameful or unwanted part of ourself who is breaking into our consciousness. It is about to break into our awareness and then we will have to confront this unwanted aspect of ourself. The purpose of this figure seems to be to reflect all the worst aspects of our character so that we may become more fully conscious of those traits and accept these unwanted but vitally necessary parts of ourself. These aspects are often quite evident to those whom we live with or know us well but are hidden from our own conscious opinion of ourself and thus will appear alien and scary to us in our dreams. The intruder in the dream may represent some awareness or insight that is about to break through into our consciousness. It appears scary because it is unknown what demands it will make on us but it actually should be welcomed into our psychological house because it brings with it a gift of self awareness. Every aspect of the dream represents some part of ourself. The intruder in the dream represents some part of ourself that we have kept outside our awareness for too long and now needs to be let in. It may represent a feeling or attitude that we need to be more conscious of."

This is telling me that one of the split of fragments in my psyche is trying to come home back into my mind from the unconscious and I am deathly afraid of it. And it is true. I am afraid of unleashing my power and even though I have a plan that I have no excuses not to complete, I find ways to sedate myself through Porn and TV shows not to do it. I have 571 days left for my E2 run and i feel that this is a time where I am laying down the foundation and clearing earth in order to create a new me.

(06-12-2017, 07:21 PM)mojamhaque Wrote: Date: 12.06.2017
Day: 11
Listened Hour: 03 hours
Yet not resolved the problem of Fear of Death. Asked to Shannon regarding the issue and what he told is as follows-

(06-11-2017, 10:50 PM)Shannon Wrote: Okay. So then here is what is happening.

You started off doing a lot of loops, and it was too much. So you cut it down and it was still too much. Now you're down to where you really should have started, and the emotional shielding from 2 loops can't handle the fallout from doing too many loops. You are still processing the effects of doing too many loops, but the emotional shield is designed to match the loops you do, so you're effectively processing 8+ loops of grief residually, but getting 2 loops of shielding.

He also advised me to increasing my listening loop as follows-

(06-11-2017, 11:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: Okay, so here's your options then.

When it gets bad, do more loops per day. That will give you more emotional shielding, and speed up the processing of the issues it is clearing.

So next time it gets bad, try 3 loops on that day and see what happens. If 3 is not enough, try 4, etc.

When you find the balance point between processing and shielding, stick with it.

The fear is quite mysterious. It comes when I am in my office and left me when I am in my residence...

Anyway let's see what's going to happening

(06-13-2017, 02:35 PM)Zane Wrote:

(06-12-2017, 07:21 PM)mojamhaque Wrote: Date: 12.06.2017
Day: 11
Listened Hour: 03 hours
Yet not resolved the problem of Fear of Death. Asked to Shannon regarding the issue and what he told is as follows-

(06-11-2017, 10:50 PM)Shannon Wrote: Okay. So then here is what is happening.

You started off doing a lot of loops, and it was too much. So you cut it down and it was still too much. Now you're down to where you really should have started, and the emotional shielding from 2 loops can't handle the fallout from doing too many loops. You are still processing the effects of doing too many loops, but the emotional shield is designed to match the loops you do, so you're effectively processing 8+ loops of grief residually, but getting 2 loops of shielding.

He also advised me to increasing my listening loop as follows-

(06-11-2017, 11:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: Okay, so here's your options then.

When it gets bad, do more loops per day. That will give you more emotional shielding, and speed up the processing of the issues it is clearing.

So next time it gets bad, try 3 loops on that day and see what happens. If 3 is not enough, try 4, etc.

When you find the balance point between processing and shielding, stick with it.

The fear is quite mysterious. It comes when I am in my office and left me when I am in my residence...

Anyway let's see what's going to happening

Funny.. Cause I am listening to OF-5G and it comes to me usually when I am home. I think when I am inside I think too much and when outside I am busy so I act subconsciously which is without fear... Well I guess my conscious mind will take time to adapt to change.

(06-13-2017, 04:58 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Fear of death isn't something that's just going to go away in a day or two. It's a pretty deep one. Interestingly i've had it come up a few times during DMSI but not sure I identified it coming up with other programs.