05-06-2018, 05:33 AM
Hey Shannon
I thought I should report on something that I think might give some benefit on future versions in regards to fear based resistance. I had a dream earlier this week that seemed enlightening to where some of this resistance is coming from, at least for me. I will try to keep it short. Basically I was driving on the highway to some woman's house who I cared for because there was like some "outbreak" of some "monsters" in some lab in the city we were in. I get to her house but by the time I get there the city, maybe the entire country, is overrun so we are trapped in the house. The monsters from what I could tell from the outline of them from the window they were big titan like beings. Apparently there were smaller but still tall, think 6'5, type monsters as well though.
As time went on they kept on breaking in from different portions of the house so the area we got pushed to the center of the house and locked up in there, like the living room or something like that. Now this is the interesting part, the last door towards the front of the house is about to be gone so I go up against it try to keep it from bursting open even though the nails are literally coming off the hinges. At this point I didn't really see what the tall monsters looked like but the image in my mind was of pretty much of giant 6'5 ape type creatures that are highly intelligent. I get this dialogue in my head of what is is saying which is essentially, "Don't worry about the women we will take care of them. You aren't needed anymore". The voice just causes terrifying fear in me and I know its hopeless as I feel i'm going to loose keeping them out at any moment then I wake up in my bed in a position as though I'm holding up against a door on my side.
I have never had this much fear in a dream before. The main thing I got from it though was that I think my subconscious identifies with my current beliefs so much as to see them as "me". Essentially these current beliefs are my "identity". Therefore I surmised that is sees the 3.2 instructions as trying to "kill me" because it is trying to change those beliefs that I identify so much with. I also realized there could be a secondary thing to take away from this which is that It sees becoming what is needed in order achieve the goals of 3.2 is dangerous not only to myself, by killing "me", but also to women. I could assume this is do to years of indoctrination into being a beta and cuck by all forms of media (toxic masculinity, etc).
In all it seems like whether its afraid of death because some women "might" give me suicidal thoughts or that I will be "dead" (current belief me) if I accept the beliefs of 3.2, there always seems to be some belief that I'm going to die if I execute, which obviously is totally irrational. Just thought I should report this seeing as this seems to be a recurring theme that keeps coming up. This idea that I'm going to die one way or another if I accept and execute the script.
P.S. I did feel in the dream there were other people in that room though they felt mostly female. Also, for some reason I can't remember if my mother was in that room as well, I thought she was but wasn't sure.
I thought I should report on something that I think might give some benefit on future versions in regards to fear based resistance. I had a dream earlier this week that seemed enlightening to where some of this resistance is coming from, at least for me. I will try to keep it short. Basically I was driving on the highway to some woman's house who I cared for because there was like some "outbreak" of some "monsters" in some lab in the city we were in. I get to her house but by the time I get there the city, maybe the entire country, is overrun so we are trapped in the house. The monsters from what I could tell from the outline of them from the window they were big titan like beings. Apparently there were smaller but still tall, think 6'5, type monsters as well though.
As time went on they kept on breaking in from different portions of the house so the area we got pushed to the center of the house and locked up in there, like the living room or something like that. Now this is the interesting part, the last door towards the front of the house is about to be gone so I go up against it try to keep it from bursting open even though the nails are literally coming off the hinges. At this point I didn't really see what the tall monsters looked like but the image in my mind was of pretty much of giant 6'5 ape type creatures that are highly intelligent. I get this dialogue in my head of what is is saying which is essentially, "Don't worry about the women we will take care of them. You aren't needed anymore". The voice just causes terrifying fear in me and I know its hopeless as I feel i'm going to loose keeping them out at any moment then I wake up in my bed in a position as though I'm holding up against a door on my side.
I have never had this much fear in a dream before. The main thing I got from it though was that I think my subconscious identifies with my current beliefs so much as to see them as "me". Essentially these current beliefs are my "identity". Therefore I surmised that is sees the 3.2 instructions as trying to "kill me" because it is trying to change those beliefs that I identify so much with. I also realized there could be a secondary thing to take away from this which is that It sees becoming what is needed in order achieve the goals of 3.2 is dangerous not only to myself, by killing "me", but also to women. I could assume this is do to years of indoctrination into being a beta and cuck by all forms of media (toxic masculinity, etc).
In all it seems like whether its afraid of death because some women "might" give me suicidal thoughts or that I will be "dead" (current belief me) if I accept the beliefs of 3.2, there always seems to be some belief that I'm going to die if I execute, which obviously is totally irrational. Just thought I should report this seeing as this seems to be a recurring theme that keeps coming up. This idea that I'm going to die one way or another if I accept and execute the script.
P.S. I did feel in the dream there were other people in that room though they felt mostly female. Also, for some reason I can't remember if my mother was in that room as well, I thought she was but wasn't sure.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche