12-28-2018, 08:04 AM
12-28-2018, 09:12 AM
Shannon's long term secret goals to take over the world with subliminals and military power have been revealed in RTBoss' dream. Time to send the ninjas to make him disappear and erase all evidence.
12-28-2018, 01:03 PM
(12-28-2018, 09:12 AM)Roy Wrote: [ -> ]Shannon's long term secret goals to take over the world with subliminals and military power have been revealed in RTBoss' dream. Time to send the ninjas to make him disappear and erase all evidence.
Hahaha.. Yeah, Let's do that..
12-28-2018, 06:23 PM
Wait, what's my secret goal again? I thought it was to make my subs overcome even the most stubborn resistance.
12-28-2018, 10:00 PM
(12-28-2018, 06:23 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Wait, what's my secret goal again? I thought it was to make my subs overcome even the most stubborn resistance.
It's not a secret anymore. Now that you have told us.
12-29-2018, 06:56 AM
Feeling the morphine drip this morning for the first time on 3.3-D. Just sitting at home, no women around (save for the neighbors in their respective houses).
01-02-2019, 10:04 AM
Happy New Year!
Currently on SASRB. Start 5th cycle tomorrow night.
Have a raging morphine-drip buzzing my body right now. Also very horny. Wife has been on her monthly, but should be over soon.
Been a little irritable, but nothing terrible. My wife's been sensitive to criticism from me, like previous versions. Stark difference between USLM and DMSI. She gets over it, but stews until she gets an apology. That's just her personality - she needs resolution to move on.
NYE was weird. Had SIL/BIL over for dinner, card games, and drinks. So first and foremost, alcohol was involved in the evening. Probably the most I've drank in months.
SIL's body language was interesting. Started off with lots of open palm, open wrist, exposed neck. Eye contact got better as the night went on. My quick wit was on point all night, and had her laughing a lot. She also was picking on her husband in a way where it seemed like she found him annoying, or found aspects of his personality annoying and then used her quite sharp-and-dry wit to take him down a peg.
What was weird was how her body language shifted over the evening. She sat next to me at the table for card games (played Exploding Kittens and Cards Against Humanity). Her entire frame pointed toward me, and away from BIL. If I got up to get another beer, or use the bathroom, her foot on her top leg (legs were generally crossed) would brush my leg. She wouldn't move, so I was forced to brush against her. But as the night went on, she closed off her wrist and palm to me, and directed it toward her husband. Strangely, she kept her legs and toes pointed my direction. She even brought her legs up and spread them toward me a few times. It's like she was conflicted, and it showed in her body language.
Man, I'm distracted right now by the feeling of how much energy is flowing through my body and the body buzz from the morphine drip. It's actually affecting my ability to think clearly, lol!
Anyway - yesterday, my libido was high, and I easily succumbed to take care of it. I don't do so often, as I've been affected by The Wall, very much like how I don't desire to drink alcohol like I used to.
Weight is up a little, which I expected. I don't know what that means re: using fat as a fuel source for the aura, but perhaps that will ramp up as I execute more.
I'm glad 3.4 is a ways off. My greatest progress with 3.1 happened after months of use. I expect that to occur much quicker on 3.3, especially after H&C w/ FRM is in rotation. I always experienced more progress by switching back-and-forth between H&C and non-H&C versions.
Off to the gym. Only 3-4 months before the warm weather is here, more-or-less. Time to get to work.
Currently on SASRB. Start 5th cycle tomorrow night.
Have a raging morphine-drip buzzing my body right now. Also very horny. Wife has been on her monthly, but should be over soon.
Been a little irritable, but nothing terrible. My wife's been sensitive to criticism from me, like previous versions. Stark difference between USLM and DMSI. She gets over it, but stews until she gets an apology. That's just her personality - she needs resolution to move on.
NYE was weird. Had SIL/BIL over for dinner, card games, and drinks. So first and foremost, alcohol was involved in the evening. Probably the most I've drank in months.
SIL's body language was interesting. Started off with lots of open palm, open wrist, exposed neck. Eye contact got better as the night went on. My quick wit was on point all night, and had her laughing a lot. She also was picking on her husband in a way where it seemed like she found him annoying, or found aspects of his personality annoying and then used her quite sharp-and-dry wit to take him down a peg.
What was weird was how her body language shifted over the evening. She sat next to me at the table for card games (played Exploding Kittens and Cards Against Humanity). Her entire frame pointed toward me, and away from BIL. If I got up to get another beer, or use the bathroom, her foot on her top leg (legs were generally crossed) would brush my leg. She wouldn't move, so I was forced to brush against her. But as the night went on, she closed off her wrist and palm to me, and directed it toward her husband. Strangely, she kept her legs and toes pointed my direction. She even brought her legs up and spread them toward me a few times. It's like she was conflicted, and it showed in her body language.
Man, I'm distracted right now by the feeling of how much energy is flowing through my body and the body buzz from the morphine drip. It's actually affecting my ability to think clearly, lol!
Anyway - yesterday, my libido was high, and I easily succumbed to take care of it. I don't do so often, as I've been affected by The Wall, very much like how I don't desire to drink alcohol like I used to.
Weight is up a little, which I expected. I don't know what that means re: using fat as a fuel source for the aura, but perhaps that will ramp up as I execute more.
I'm glad 3.4 is a ways off. My greatest progress with 3.1 happened after months of use. I expect that to occur much quicker on 3.3, especially after H&C w/ FRM is in rotation. I always experienced more progress by switching back-and-forth between H&C and non-H&C versions.
Off to the gym. Only 3-4 months before the warm weather is here, more-or-less. Time to get to work.
01-02-2019, 10:52 AM
I assume use fat from dmsi will help you lose weight not gain
01-02-2019, 12:05 PM
(01-02-2019, 10:52 AM)blth Wrote: [ -> ]I assume use fat from dmsi will help you lose weight not gain
Exactly - so I'm obviously consuming more energy than I'm using. Since I don't simultaneously look better in the mirror, I'm going to assume I gained some bodyfat. That said, it's not possible at this time for me to say that module is being executed by me. It either is working, but not consuming more fat than I'm putting on, or not working - yet.
01-05-2019, 11:36 AM
Had a dream that my family and I were on vacation in the tropics. We were by the pool, with an awesome elevated of the surrounding jungle vegetation, and the beach in the distance. Suddenly, a volcano erupted, which caught everyone's attention. Instead of lava, however, this electrical purple energy shot out and behaved with a sort of consciousness. I could immediately sense it was an extraterrestrial attack. The purple energy turned into a web, and it extended in dome-like fashion as far as the eye could see. It extended over our heads, and came down all around us, forming a dome. We were trapped, and I knew all within the web were totally fu*cked. I looked at my daughter, and the fear on her face, and didn't accept it. At the point, I overcame "the rules of the dream" and broke us out of the web using my mind power alone...
Went to the gym today. Saw many beautiful women. Oddly, I couldn't get excited about them. Didn't matter whose ass I stared at, it felt like all my sexual energy was absent, stifled, or was funneled out of me (to be used by the aura?). It was impossible for me to get turned on in any fashion, no matter what I thought. Yet, sitting here at the couch? No problem.
Went to the gym today. Saw many beautiful women. Oddly, I couldn't get excited about them. Didn't matter whose ass I stared at, it felt like all my sexual energy was absent, stifled, or was funneled out of me (to be used by the aura?). It was impossible for me to get turned on in any fashion, no matter what I thought. Yet, sitting here at the couch? No problem.
01-07-2019, 05:58 AM
Full transparency, I'm fuckin' up. Been listening to ultrasonic or ocean surf hybrid, loud. On speaker, US track as loud as possible w/out crackling. On sleep phones, 7-8 clicks - so not as loud as possible, but loudish.
I've also been jacking the loops to 8 or 9, depending on whatever I can get in. I had a restless night of sleep two nights ago, where I was up from 2 AM to 5 AM, and had to drug myself to get back to sleep. I've also been crazy-horny the past few days - and my wife being on her monthly - have taken care of that more than a few times. So, resisting pretty hard, it seems?
Last night I went to bed, couldn't find my sleep phones, so said fuck it and took the night off when I was supposed to have two more nights before SASRB.
Had a dream I double booked my responsibilities, but wasn't aware of it until it was too late to get out of one of them...Also dreamt of getting together w/ old friends, a few of whom I'm no longer friends with - all from high school era.
I've also been jacking the loops to 8 or 9, depending on whatever I can get in. I had a restless night of sleep two nights ago, where I was up from 2 AM to 5 AM, and had to drug myself to get back to sleep. I've also been crazy-horny the past few days - and my wife being on her monthly - have taken care of that more than a few times. So, resisting pretty hard, it seems?
Last night I went to bed, couldn't find my sleep phones, so said fuck it and took the night off when I was supposed to have two more nights before SASRB.
Had a dream I double booked my responsibilities, but wasn't aware of it until it was too late to get out of one of them...Also dreamt of getting together w/ old friends, a few of whom I'm no longer friends with - all from high school era.
01-07-2019, 11:25 AM
Now the question is why?
01-07-2019, 11:28 AM
(01-07-2019, 11:25 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Now the question is why?
My guess is FRM is workin' on "the big one" that's behind my block to full execution.
01-08-2019, 06:04 PM
Listened last night, had numerous tech issues where my first loop broke ASRB at least 4 times. WTF.
Today, irritation level: 9/10.
Kids were crazy, wife was at work for 24 hour shift.
Took the kids to see their mom at work, and focused on a chick eating dinner. Within 3 minutes, her legs crossed high & tight, and then she started staring at me. So something is happening, I'm not totally blocked.
The strangest thing just happened, though. I wasn't even going to post, but I had my phone on its charger, and walked past it. Two feet past it, and I heard ocean waves. WHAT THE HELL. The hybrid ocean surf track started playing spontaneously. There was no reason for it at all, it was an impossibility.
Today, irritation level: 9/10.
Kids were crazy, wife was at work for 24 hour shift.
Took the kids to see their mom at work, and focused on a chick eating dinner. Within 3 minutes, her legs crossed high & tight, and then she started staring at me. So something is happening, I'm not totally blocked.
The strangest thing just happened, though. I wasn't even going to post, but I had my phone on its charger, and walked past it. Two feet past it, and I heard ocean waves. WHAT THE HELL. The hybrid ocean surf track started playing spontaneously. There was no reason for it at all, it was an impossibility.