(12-15-2018, 08:42 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Then, being a high sex drive person (and sex being a big part of my love language), I was dissatisfied enough with my marital sex life that it was "fix it or sleep around." And I told my wife that a long time ago, that if things didn't change I wouldn't be faithful. She would just shrug me off. Now, that's different. She's much more open to quickies, more submissive to me, and no longer turns me down for sex. She's even fulfilled the DMSI goal of asking me for sex - which is something that I can say happened once in 7 years before DMSI. It's now happened multiple times, and I have the feeling that is going to be ramping up even more now w/ FRM.
Is this from 3.3 specifically, or multiple versions, and if so, which versions caused this?
There were glints of it throughout the 2.x series, 3.1, started getting better on 3.2, and then now it's the best it's been in years - specifically starting with 3.3 TID.
Oh, and I forgot to add another benefit DMSI gave me over the years. I went from running to alcohol when I was bored, lonely, or in emotional turmoil, to not drinking hardly ever. I'll have a beer or glass of wine, but I now no longer drink 12-15 beers or go through an entire bottle (or more) of wine in a single sitting. I can't remember the last time that happened...
EDIT: Another thing, lol. Because I'm more satisfied, happier, more healed, drinking less, my overall relationship with my wife is greatly improved. She treats me much better, and I treat her much better. Like I said on USLM, we're back to cuddling on the couch and in bed, like when we first were dating 10 years ago. That's huge. I'm not as irritable, and I don't snap at her like I used to. She notices, and it definitely has payed off.
Thanks to Shannon for all the positive influence you've had in my life, my friend!
That makes me very happy to hear.
Had awesome sex last night. My wife claims "she's back."
- "After two kids, I finally feel back to normal!"
But it wasn't "normal." We broke out the good ole' Hitachi Magic Wand, and after the first orgasm she begged, "Oh just FUCK me already!" Lol. She used tongue while kissing me for the first time in I can't remember how long...Then, after sex (orgasm #2&3) she asked for more Magic Wand...after which she asked for MORE sex. I wasn't ready for all of that, and I actually couldn't get up for it - so shit, I have to get back in shape. Since I've stopped running, my average resting heart rate has gone up 14 bpm. No wonder.
Afterward, she snuggled up to me - still naked - and we cuddled w/ her head on my chest for a good half hour. It was really nice.
The only dream I had last night was weird. It was another water park dream, but I was on the only ride that was open, and it was all guys. The line was insanely long, and at one point I had to be fitted for a safety vest of some sort. The guys who were fitting me were extremely homosexual, and were making "MMM" sounds as they fitted me, and got real handsy w/ me, to which I told them that was inappropriate. Didn't stop them from looking at me like man-meat.
Lol, was that my first gay dream? I don't even have a problem with gay men (that I know of). So I have no idea what that was about.
Sir, you had about 2 weeks break from USLM to DMSI. And it seems the turbulance was minimal. Is it because your goal on USLM was aligned with DMSI?
I ask because my goal with USLM is to kind of "emulating" BASE. But thanks to the last ridiculous sale, now I have the real thing. And I honestly can't wait another 35 days to run it (after finishing the 3 months block of USLM3).
Thanks!
(12-18-2018, 04:04 AM)Nara Wrote: [ -> ]Sir, you had about 2 weeks break from USLM to DMSI. And it seems the turbulance was minimal. Is it because your goal on USLM was aligned with DMSI?
I ask because my goal with USLM is to kind of "emulating" BASE. But thanks to the last ridiculous sale, now I have the real thing. And I honestly can't wait another 35 days to run it (after finishing the 3 months block of USLM3).
Thanks!
Yes, the turbulence was minimal.
One of my main goals on USLM was to be a "Better husband and father." My relationship improved with my wife on USLM2/3 5.5G, and while that included sex, it was nothing like what's happening right now. Now, it's a
lot more primal.
One of the issues with taking less of a break (for you) is that you're going down in "power" switching from USLM to BASE. BASE is 5G, not 5.5G. USLM has optimized P6 technology, which will likely keep that script running in your head for 35(+) days, and since it is more powerful, could theoretically override whatever weaker subliminal (read: BASE) you would run within that time period.
DMSI 3.3 is even more powerful than USLM3, as it includes quite a few new technologies in the skeleton script (ie part 2 of the Magnus Engine).
You could try it (take a minimal break), but be aware that Stage 1 (and possibly part of Stage 2) could be overridden, and as BASE is a multi-stage subliminal, cause an imbalance with Stages 2/3-6.
Speaking of USLM, I had a USLM-like experience last night.
Went to see The Mule at the movie theater with my new dad-buddy from my son's swim lessons. I thought it was strange, but we were the only people in the theater, which I voiced to my friend. He thought it was weird, too.
About 20 minutes into the movie, an employee (possibly management/someone from projection) approaches and says, "I'm sorry, there's been a mistake where over 10 people purchased tickets for the movie but the theater was misprinted on the ticket. I have to restart the movie, but here's two free passes for the trouble." Sure enough, about 11 people filtered in shortly thereafter. We asked one of them what happened, and apparently they were sitting in another theater, expecting The Mule, and instead some possession movie started. I'm not sure how the same thing didn't happen to us - just them.
Anyway, it wasn't a big deal. Went for drink refills and a bathroom break. When we came back, the movie was just about to where we were before the restart, and free to boot.
I also got a crazy deal on Taco Bell gift cards yesterday. They were offering $5 for every $10 purchased. Not quite a Ridiculous Sale, but I'll take 50% off. My wife loves Taco Bell.
A few dreams, including a change to one of my recurring dreams last night.
Back in a University setting (sometimes it's high school, sometimes grade school, this time college), found out where I was supposed to go for an English/writing class. When I showed up, I found out a 10-page paper was due. I hadn't done it. Typical. In past versions of this dream, I freak out about it internally and the dream either ends, or I leave, or the teacher calls me out. In this dream I took out my notebook and started writing my paper right then and there, and I didn't give a damn what the professor thought about that, though I still was trying to be a little sneaky about it (like write more when he wasn't looking). He noticed, looked at my paper over my shoulder, said nothing and moved on.
Also had a dream about my SIL/BIL and that side of the family while napping yesterday. SIL/BIL, wife, kids, and me all had packed bags and were entering my MIL's house. I held the door for SIL, but she wouldn't look at me, talk to me, or even acknowledge that I was there. I was like, whatever...Noticed some fresh baked goods on the counter and started snacking, lol. 'Bout it.
Seeing attraction while out, but nothing too obvious yet. Usually have kids in tow. Wife gave me a huge smile when I grabbed her ass after she came home from work this morning.
Start round 3 tomorrow night.
Spent the morning pissed off. Thought it was under-the-hood DMSI stuff, but then I remembered - for shits & giggles I applied a few drops of copulins this morning, and forgot about it. Cops raises male testosterone - that temporary increase caused mass-pissiness, not DMSI. Sure enough, as the day went on, my attitude improved.
Wife took a shower while the kids were napping, and then teased that she didn't shave the nethers. I started playfully trying to check, which turned into a game. The game ended up w/ my wife saying, "So you gonna finish what you got started?" I was thinkin' that she started it, but whatevs.
She then wrapped presents on all fours right in front of me, no undies on under 'dem short-shorts. After she was finished, she came over and sat on my lap...I practically carried her to the bedroom from there.
More sex! I'm feeling more sexually satisfied than I have in many, many years. Good stuff is happening.
In other news, I was waiting in line to pick my son up from preschool, and this mom casually turned to look at me. When she saw who it was, she turned and full-on chatted my ear off. It's only been a smile and a quick "Hi," in the past. This version definitely comes off less intimidating so far.
Hope everyone has had an enjoyable week.
Tonight starts my 4th cycle of 3.3-D. It'll be sleep phones, 7 or 8 clicks, ocean surf hybrid.
Been snippy the past few days. I wasn't this way on USLM. Something fear-related is causing me significant subconscious stress, and it manifests as a short-temper. This is the way I felt the entire 3.2 run. I don't know how much time it will take for this to pass, but let's just say that if I had access to 3.3-C, I'd be running that tonight instead.
Last night was the first dream in awhile there's been anything sexual (that I can remember). This girl was wrestling with other women, and she got all guttural and animalistic, snarling and shit. Then she ripped her shirt off, and that was nice, lol.
Not going to say a whole lot about seeing my in-laws over Christmas, but I will say that 3.3 is much more enticing than 3.2. I'm seeing 3.1 levels of attraction, and maybe there's underlying feeling of more-than-that. I also caught my SIL staring longingly at my junk, lol. The thing that wigged me out was my MIL was also more attracted. She came up to me and planted her hand on my chest for a good 5 seconds as she smiled and said something, and also sat next to me on the couch and crotch displayed - even waggled her legs open and shut. Ugh! :
hivers::
Anyway, that story will resume New Years Eve. BIL & SIL are coming over for dinner and games. Should be interesting, to say the least.
EDIT: Oh, and I've been having these strange-feeling headaches at night most nights. They start in on the back side of my head. Really weird. I also had a few periods of feeling nauseous, and bouts of profound sadness at SIL's house.
I get the "weird headaches" too from time to time. It's FRM-related, I believe. But, once the headache "lifts" (at least that's how I'd describe the sensation - *poof* and headache gone), it means quite a bit of fear about something has been removed (I notice that usually, when this happens, I get a waterfall of insight right after, lol). They occur in different parts of my head.
I also wouldn't mind running the version with H&C for a bit, because in the process of fear removal without H&C I notice I've been spending quite a bit of time psychoanalyzing and doing self psychotherapy on myself, hehe. It's interesting, and I believe will be very effective, but time consuming. Still, I think I'll stay on 3.3-D at least throughout January, to get a clean month of DMSI in this version once USLMaxx weans off.
(12-27-2018, 10:00 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]I also caught my SIL staring longingly at my junk, lol. The thing that wigged me out was my MIL was also more attracted. She came up to me and planted her hand on my chest for a good 5 seconds as she smiled and said something, and also sat next to me on the couch and crotch displayed - even waggled her legs open and shut. Ugh! :hivers::
(12-27-2018, 10:54 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]I also wouldn't mind running the version with H&C for a bit, because in the process of fear removal without H&C I notice I've been spending quite a bit of time psychoanalyzing and doing self psychotherapy on myself, hehe. It's interesting, and I believe will be very effective, but time consuming. Still, I think I'll stay on 3.3-D at least throughout January, to get a clean month of DMSI in this version once USLMaxx weans off.
I hear ya - today is actually Day 36 since stopping USLM3. So this is technically my first cycle of 3.3-D "free n' clear."
@
Shannon
Had a dream that included you last night. We were part of some futuristic, militarized version of your Company. I didn't work for you, but I was looking out for you as a friend. I was hooked into The Network, watching all communication like a pro hacker, and saw the order come down "from the top" that code was sent to your work computer - where all subs were being developed - that, when opened, would forever diminish your ability to make subs. The order also instructed to not allow me to warn you before you opened the code, and an alert was issued to immediately apprehend me.
I ended up getting to "your people" (with some awesome super-special ninja skills!) who took me to you, and successfully warned you that you'd been undermined by your own corporate lackeys. You then took me deep into your secret network, which was literally underground. There were some crazy elevators that dropped us from floor to floor, going deeper and deeper, and each dropped so fast, my stomach was in my throat as it dropped. From there, we got away...